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Termiss nombor!

2012-02-15T18:16:00.004+11:00

wwwoooopppsss! Aku termiss yg ke-2000 on this blog! Sorry peers. I vowed earlier to have another give away for the 2000 readers. Totally forgot.
But, its all my bad anyways, been lazy & busy with work & stuff tu yg jarang masuk blog ni.

Anyways, my next favourite number is 2505, which signifies my birth date =) Pretty number kan?
So anyone yg dah sampai to this number, please printscreen & leave comment on any of the entries, I will send sth special, InsyaAllah! If it's me, then special gift to me.. =D

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Ni pesto spaghetti aku buat semalam. Simple tak perlu masak. The first edible pesto I ever made, recipe found kat Taste.com.au.

Ignore my burnt backed chicken nuggets. Those unmatched cutlery beli satu set kat Borders. They come in different designs & colours for each sudu teh, sudu makan, pisau sapu roti & garpu, hence mmg takde match. Satu set utk 4 org. (chewah, promote plak.. Borders dah terkubur kat Australia).

Recipe dia guna 1/2 cwn fried pine nuts (goreng tanpa minyak), 2 cwn compact fresh basil leaves, 2,3 biji garlic, garam, 1/2 cwn olive oil. Aku guna pine nuts + almond + peanuts coz pine nuts aku dah tinggal sesudu besar je. Also secawan lagi aku campur dgn vietnamese basil a.k.a. kesum frm my garden, aku kurangkan garlic.
Nyam makan dgn fresh cherry tomatoes, pastirna, marinated mixed pitted olives & backed chicken nuggets.

Lama gila tak update

2012-02-13T11:56:00.003+11:00

Gila lama tak update.

Now dah masuk minggu ke-2 of the new working year for 2012. Makin busy with work & studying. Skang aku dah jadi 2nd year ED registrar. Ada 2 org last year HMOs now dah jadi junior ED registrar, which means I'm no longer the most junior.. tak dapat all the attentions anymore :( jeles!! Hahahaha.. takde lah. Gurau. But that means aku lebih dipercayai oleh bosses & at the same time hold more responsibilities. Ada a few new registrars starting as well frm other hospitals, mostly are seniors. Some seniors are out at other hospitals doing their whatever rotations. One of the junior ED registrars that aku baik with moved on to Royal Melbourne Hospital buat her ICU rotation. Other senior registrars pergi ke Eye & Ear Hospital, Royal Children Hospital, & Monash Neonatal ICU, etc. Tengok diorang moving on to their rotation of choice buat aku berkobar-kobar plak nak study abiskan my primary exams cepat2, so that aku pon boleh buat rotations yg aku nak like the Children's, Eye & Ear, ICU, etc.

Talking about new year, new doctors starting all over Australia for the new working year. Plus the medical students. I've noticed with the new juniors in ED, some have a lot of attitude... berlagak, degil, malas. Mula-mula aku ingat aku sorang je yg terlebih sensitive. Rupenye most specialties are having the same issues with the juniors. Huh... generasi skang ni makin besar kepala eh. Aku dgr cerita hari tu dari medical registrars yg one of the interns kat ward was telling the consultant what to do with a patient... whooaaaa.... berani! Kami dulu masa students & interns tak berani nak bersuara, & sentiasa berusaha keras utk bosses nampak kerja kami bagus. Slalu kami sanggup balik lambat nak siapkan kerja & sampai kerja awal. Skang ni.. wooohooo... lain dah. In ED, kami cuma kasi chance the juniors nak get used to the first 1-2weeks, we'll show them around & make sure that they learn. Kalau masuk minggu ke-3 macam ni jugak.. kena la. Bunyi cam garang kan, tapi tu la, diorang ni kami tengok, the attitude memang tak bleh blah. Ada je yg baik, sopan, takut-takut tapi rajin. Those people kami kasi more time at the same time encourage diorang jadi berani & confident. Tak kisah kalau diorang dumb, slow, junior tapi rajin & polite, coz these are the kind of person that u want to be in ur team, and will definitely go far to success. Kalau dumb, slow, junior AND rude & pemalas... hmmmm silap besar...

Kaki bebel jugak aku nih. hehehhee..

Anyways, aku dah kerja 3 weekends in a row termasuk semalam. Hari ni aku kerja night shifts sampai thursday. Esok pagi kena gi jumpa GP for a f/u of GI investigations I had last week. Then kena jumpa specialist in the next few weeks. Jumaat ni plak lepas night shift kena gi service kereta. Weekends aku on call.

Bila masanye aku nak study nih?

Happy 28th Birthday, Adikku

2012-01-21T15:52:00.007+11:00

Semalam birthday adik aku si H3 yg berada di Manchester & sedang menghadapi exams. La ni birthday adik aku lagi sorang, si H2 plak. Dah sangat-sangat dewasa dah tu, 28 tahun dah. Hehheheh.
Dekat je dengan usia lanjut aku nih. Hahaha.

Anyways,

Happy 28th Birthday,

Semoga panjang umur & murah rezeki alwiz, Semoga berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat, Allah swt always has lots of great things in store for us, InsyaAllah, just hafta grab the opportunities & bersyukur.
Hugs.

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Happy 21st Birthday, Adikku =)

2012-01-20T22:11:00.006+11:00

Today is my brother H3's 21st birthday. I am here in Melbourne, tak diberi rezeki nak physically celebrate birthday with him :'( He is in Manchester having his end of 1st semester exams. Kesian =P, setiap tahun pon sambut birthday during exam time, no different this year. Dah la 21st.. a milestone where some people say a mark of full adulthood (kata orang-orang Western la kot). Anyways,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!

Semoga panjang umur, dilimpah rezeki yg diberkatiNYA alwiz.
Now dah dewasa, no more excuses to NOT be more matured & responsible =D Join me, mak, abah, abang & other adults in all those pening-kepala-adult-stuff. Hehehehhe.
Take care always,
We all love you lots.

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Perihal a Better Weather Outlook

2012-01-15T13:10:00.003+11:00

Alhamdulillah, the weather is looking better today. The past week has been soooooo miserable. Cuaca sangat la tak bestnye.. sangat-sangat sejuk. Dropped to as low as 10°c on most early mornings & nights, while max 16°c but due to the wind-chill factor rasa cam 12°c most of the time. Ada la dlm 2,3 hari time aku tido siang afta night shifts aku terpaksa bukak heater coz couldn't sleep at all sejuk sangat.

Mesti la aku rasa cam miserable coz its mid-summer but the temperature has been in the low 10s°c, while its supposed to be around high 20s°c to 30s°c. Summer tahun lepas & summer tahun ni, cuaca agak sejuk in summer & occasionally je panas yg sedap & sekali dua je panas membara cam 2wks ago. In winter pon sejuk jugak.. its like sepanjang tahun lah sejuk. Ni la effects of global warming. No wonder lah each time aku balik M'sia bunyi cam ngada-ngada tak tahan panas but at the same time nyampah kalau aircond/ kipas tu pasang kuat-kuat. Rasa cam my temperature tolerance has become narrower.. tak suka panas more than 32°c but tak suka sejuk less than 25°c.

Hari ni Alhamdulillah average 21°c, clouds clearing up. Aku pun dah 3 loads of laundry dah buat & jemur, tinggal nak lipat the 20thousands loads of baju yg dah kering =P Hehhehehe... Out of all the housework, rasanye ni yg paling malas aku buat =P
Anyways, the sun will give all the love that my pokoks need. Kesian diorang muram durja je sepanjang minggu lepas. Diorang mebbie survived coz setiap hari I never fail to borak dgn diorang. Ada a few of the cili padi dah start memerah. Mebbie next week aku dah boleh start petik some & jemur/ simpan dlm freezer/ fridge. Yaahoooo..

Ni weather forecast frm The Age:
Kalau ikutkan rain outlook cam sepanjang bulan hujan je kan. But I think that's probably in certain suburbs je kot, mainly the Western/ Northern areas. My area, Alhamdulillah, good weather nampaknye. Baru la rasa cam hidup sket with the nice sun outside.

Perihal Handovers

2012-01-10T18:00:00.004+11:00

About an hour ago aku bangun dari tido. Seb baik sempat solat Zohor (Asar masuk 531pm nowadays). Working nights this week, frm last night 'til Thursday night. Aku kuar frm hospital around 9++am pagi tadi. Cam biasa junior reg looks after short stay uni (benci!!) & therefore the longest to stay coz of long handover for short stay, while still ada lagi patient on the floor to handover to the a.m. floor doctors.

Aku nak citer pasal how I made a HMO cry during a handover on Friday afternoon last week. Si HMO ni kita namakan dia "Dr. M". Dr. M handed over to me a syncope of unknown cause but stable, still in the mid of investigations prior to the patient being sent to short stay unit. I checked the medical notes written by this HMO, & when I noticed ada byk glitches, aku tegur la. Syncope = unconscious event, as an ED doc kita kena cover all basis. Meaning kena look at all possible causes: neurological, cardiovascular, metabolic. Then aku list down all the things yg dia kena buat before handing over to me: complete the history taking, tulis the drug chart coz patient tu punye regular meds dah overdue, fluid chart, anticipated short stay plan including disposition plan, etc. Haaa.. tengok tu, punya la banyak kekurangan. Mana boleh aku je nak buat semua kerja dia yg tak siap nih. Aku cam garang la jugak, kalau tak complete menda yg dia should have done earlier tu aku tak nak amik the handover.
Lepas dia buat menda tu dia got back to the doctors' room & nangis depan semua org including consultant aku & balik rumah.. Aku cam.. errkk.. takkan la cam tu pon nak nangis, bukan kasi patient mati pun.
Sebelum dia dok handed over to me that patient that day, dia ada handed over 2 terribly incomplete patients with bad consequences to me on Tuesday sebelum tu. Sure la aku hot sangat-sangat. Kisahnye: 1st surgical patient, dah accepted by surgical registrar over the phone & was going to theatre that very evening & plan was surgical registrar would see the patient before operation. In the meantime the patient should be fasting & having IV fluids, IV antibiotics, blood tests, pain killers. The handover was just babysit the patient coz kononnye semua dah settle. A few hours after the handover, nurses datang kat aku kata patient tu takde IV canulla hence tak dapat semua menda lagi, and he was getting more dehydrated. Apa lagi, panas aaaa kejap hati aku ni. Dah la when someone is sick, to get an IV access memang susah. Dgn si patient ni mmg susah gila sampai one of my bosses helped me using the ultrasound machine pon cam susah gila. Dah delayed dia punya treatment that could have helped in his recovery post-operation & reduced length of hospital stay. Seb baik kami berjaya buat semua tu before this bitchy surgical registrar jumpa the patient that evening, kalau tak sure ngamok abis dia. Geraaammm!!!
2nd patient ialah this poor 90yr-old lady functioning well lives alone kat retirement village unit, as per handover dia ni unconscious due to severe hypoglycaemia BSL was 1.3. Dia ni kononnye 'slightly' dehydrated due to gastroenteritis (surprise, surprise not properly enquired by this HMO). Dah resusitated by ambulance & now receiving treatment kat ED for hydration & for sugar replacement, before transfering to private hospital. Aku tengok notes.. hmm.. cam something missing je, most of blood tests cam tak complete & the initial resus management kat ED cam something wrong. Masa tu cam busy nak mati so on my side I missed looking into those during handover (silap aku). Then masa kat short stay tu patient tu deteriorated, lepas aku dah start my part of treatment aku gi balik ke dia punya notes. Memang banyak missing!! Aku yg memang ada anger issue ni lagi la panas je, tambah lagi baru je struggling dengan surgical patient tadi tu. Aku terpaksa order banyak lagi blood tests, rehydrate this patient, etc. In short she was actually in multi-organ failure way back in resus cubicle way before aku took this crap handover. Cam mana aku tau, aku tak order new blood tests, aku order retrospective blood tests. Meaning aku tak amik new blood frm the patient tapi order tests on the blood yg pathology lab dah ada 5,6 jam dulu tu masa dia mula-mula sampai ED. Seb baik ada sorang senior ED registrar ni baik hati nak tolong aku manage this patient. Aku risau la jugak bila balik rumah tu walaupon dah handover kat the night registrar. A few days afterwards, I heard from one of the bosses regarding this poor old lady. She deteriorated overnight, multi-organ failure, tak jadi nak hantar kat private hospital but terpaksa admitted at my hospital & very sick.
Grrr.. sure la aku geram gila. That patient could have died that night. Yeah, sure, she's 90. But she's a functional 90yr old & she absolutely didnt need to die due to medical mismanagement. She could have gone to the private hospital where she really wanted to go & discharged the next 2,3 days. Tapi dia admitted to hospital for 9 days. If she was my family member, I would want her to have a chance to be back to her previous function, given that she was functionally well prior to this episode. And I am a doctor & I am fully aware of the old lady clinical situation (which was initially simple to manage if the initial treating doc was aware as well).

In short, before I took the Friday handover frm this particular HMO, I talked to her about the 2 patients that she handed over to me on Tuesday & what she should have done right & what she could do better in the future. Dia cam tak berminat nak dengar semua tu.. just jawab.. "yeah yeah..". Aku sabar je lagi masa tu. Bila tengok another crap job of hers with that one, aku terus tegur dia lebih garang lagi. Good thing is aku tak yell at her, just slow monotonous firm voice & straight to the point. After all, dia dah HMO bukan intern lagi.

Memang all the juniors (HMO & interns) wajib discuss patients with the consultant in charge on the floor. So that takde missed care & this will be a learning opportunities for these juniors. Thats why its also important that these in charge consultant kena gi check all points of care with the junior doctors. Kalau the juniors malas/ miss stuff/ rasa cam dia pandai gila with their limited experiences, & unfortunately the consultant plak either malas/ super busy, memang akan jadi kes berantai la of missing stuff.
In that crap handover case, unfortunately the department was on bypass & superbusy so byk la swisscheese holes. And to me, whatever it is, the first clinician kena buat their job properly & clinically thorough (yg relevant je la). And after all, these clinicians are doctors not medical students. So sila treat patients like you are a doctor.

Kalau nak handover kat aku, aku kena tau semua since aku yg akan jaga these patients for the whole of my shift before handing over to the next person kalau diorang masih ada di ED. Aku tak nak inherit pts yg I have to go thru every single thing again myself & kena buat most of the investigations.. kalau cam gitu, patient's care is delayed & mungkin makin teruk. Its like cleaning other people's mess. Kalau diorang sakit aku yg bertanggungjawab nanti.. and kalau diorang sakit sebab unfortunate events/ natural course of the disease takpe, tapi kalau diorang sakit sebab the previous doc has missed lots in the patient's care.. memang aku marah sangat. Plus my time would be better spent to see the other patients waiting to see a doctor, than me wasting my time cleaning other people's mess.

Sabar je la...

Buku baru 2012 (recycled daaa...)

2012-01-07T14:00:00.006+11:00

Aku cam terfikir, patutnye aku buat azam baru setiap 1 Muharram, baru la berkat kot hidup aku ni. Takde la terumbang-ambing je.

Azam tahun baru kalendar omputeh ni pon since as far as I remember just started in 2010, just thot masa tu nak straighten up my life a little bit. Selama ni new year means fireworks on new year's eve then continue with everyday life. Rasa cam takde all those short term goals to look forward to. Just the long term goals yg nampak cam samar-samar coz ye la, setiap hari cam sama je.

So azam aku di dekad yg baru since 2010 ialah to make some list of azam tahun baru & recap these azams by the end of the year, and ada check point in the middle. And 1 change aku nak buat for this coming year is to make all these azams time 1 Muharram.

Masa 1 Muharram 1433 hari tu aku tengah bercuti with my family kat Tambun, Perak. Masa tu kami sama-sama baca doa akhir tahun/ awal tahun. Kat tv ada ceramah agama & bacaan doa masa tu. Rasa cam tenang & blissful, coz kat Aussie ni takde menda-menda cam tu. Ceramah dp pop masa xmas/ good friday ada la. Hahaha.

Okay, here it goes, recycled list for my azamz of 2012:

- To be happy... I want to smell more roses, listen to the ocean & enjoy the breeze more. I want to enjoy all aspects of life, good or bad, and let go of & learn frm the bads. I want my life lebih tenang & focused & more importantly balanced in all areas. InsyaAllah.
- To work on my career.. Yang ni kena lebih berusaha & lebih focused. Exams this year & early next year. No excuse. But along the way I want a more balanced work-life. Nak lebih professional & kurang emotional kat tempat kerja. Nak jadi lebih content & bijak.
- Jaga body, jaga makan, jaga kulit.. Yang ni kena lebih berusaha in terms of body shape & food intake. It is kinda challenging when my job is shift job, agak mencabar nak ada routine makan yg sihat & seimbang. But during my wake hours & work hours aku akan berusaha makan yg lebih seimbang, segar & sihat. As well as the exercise bit. Now dah tua kena lebih bersenaman utk jaga badan coz metabolism dah tak secergas masa muda-muda 10 thn dulu. Nak lebih menghargai masa rehat & tido. Dalam hal kulit pulak, I will continue with my new regime, InsyaAllah. Food & senaman akan beri kesan holistic to the skin as well. Agak mencabar bila tinggal di negara yg cuacanye berubah-ubah sehingga memberi kesan terhadap kulit.
- To rely less on drugs... Yang ni dunno yet. Since this year is going to be a bit mencabar I cant really promise to reduce my sleeping tablets intake. But since aku dah berazam nak jaga body & makan lebih lagi this year, I am sure the sleep will come naturally. InsyaAllah.
- To take care of my car better & to drive better :) Yes, definitely I want to look after my baby better than last year. :) And azam best ialah nak try to improve my driving skills in Malaysia. Yg ni hanya boleh buat time cuti nanti. Skills kat Aussie ni Alhamdulillah, boleh idup la. Hahaha.
- To be more organized with my life :) Hafta somehow do it properly. I'm kinda sick of the same old azams every month aku buat re: this esp the filing system. Hahaha. Plus nak lebih OCD in terms of kemas rumah, etc. Boleh gitu?
- To save more $... InsyaAllah aku akan lebih berusaha tak nak indulge too much, and to spend wisely. Aku pon nak avoid waste buy kurangkan beli brg dapur berlebihan sampai kena buang sayur setiap minggu coz tak sempat masak, nak back to my pre-cuti body so that takde baju-baju membazir kena beli baru, kurangkan makan so that tak 'membuang' banyak sangat (takde la bazir toilet rolls, water, toilet detergent & kurang mencemarkan alam). Lebih jimat electric & water & others. Ada azam nak beli rumah di Malaysia, InsyaAllah.
- To improve my cooking skills :) Nak lebih rajin memasak tapi portion still terkawal. Nak lebih adventurous in my ingredients. E.g. I started this year with trying beetroot. Mebbie next nak blajar about artichoke plak. I want to make my own veg-fruit juice. Etc.
- To garden more :) & care for the environment more :) Yang ni kena usaha lebih. Tak rugi berbakti kepada alam. Nak tanam more veg plants. Kalau boleh buang all the flowers kat depan tu & gantikan dgn pokok olive or other pokok yg mendatangkan hasil seperti kelapa ke kan best. Hahaha. Tapi apakan daya ni rumah sewa je.
- To belajar tahan perubahan cuaca more InsyaAllah.
- To improve my social life more :) I have to learn how to get around this one, especially this year & next year lebih busy dari biasa. Aku nak care more about my relationships with others. No man's an island kan. Buat again, hafta balance out on things.
- To do more for my family :) and those precious people around me :) InsyaAllah, ni ongoing sepanjang hayat.
- Last but not least... most important... to improve my relationship with beloved hubby... Continuous no question.. Semoga kami bahagia ke akhir hayat & sentiasa diberkatiNYA.. amin..

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2010/01/buka-buku-baru-2010.html

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2010/12/penutup-tahun-2010-book.html

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2011/01/buku-baru-2011-waaalllaaaa.html

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2012/01/perihal-buku-lama-2011.html

InsyaAllah, semoga tahun ni akan lebih baik, in one way or another, for all of us.

Perihal buku lama 2011

2012-01-07T13:13:00.011+11:00

Looking back at my azam thn 2011 & what I've achieved in each area of those azams:

- To be happy... have I been happier in 2011? Happier in this rumah sewa baru, but some parts of my life ada kureng sket. Have opened up myself more to the flowers & thorns in life, still need to let go some..
- To remember more of the goods & let go of the bads... I've been trying bit by bit, and hidup lebih tenang by letting go of the bads. I have to admit, I'm a little calmer now.
- To work on my anger issues, and to work on my expectation to others... Again, bit by bit & its getting better. Hidup lebih tenang di tahun 2011.
- To work on my career.. Yang ni a little bit lagging. My first year as a registrar, an ED junior registrar. Mula-mula ingat nak amik primary exams this year. Some glitches in 2011, so had to skip the Feb/March & Aug/Sept exams. Takde rezeki nak jadi nerd tahun ni. Still that doesnt mean aku berbulan madu sepanjang 2011. I was trying to get used to being a registrar. Tahun sebelumnye aku hanyalah HMO, tahun 2011 naik pangkat, which also means bertambah responsibilities & expectations. Selain dari kena lebih manage all those sickies, learn more high risks procedures & kena lebih pandai dari seorang HMO, kami juga now sedikit-sebanyak amik roles jaga quality control in ED practice, leading the juniors & also teaching those kiddies :D Berat tanggungjawab tu.
- Jaga body, jaga makan, jaga kulit.. Yang ni pon merudum nampaknye this year. Happier= makan banyak junk & malas senaman. Well, aku cam terajin senaman before balik M'sia in Nov hari tu. Yang tak bestnye, dah elok-elok turun best dah, balik M'sia je naik balik. Penangan reti tahan nafsu makan & malas senaman. Jenuh la nak turun balik nih. Skin thing, sejak aku tukar regime jaga kulit all together in the last 2 months of 2011, I've noticed big improvement, Alhamdulillah. Oh, I'm freaking out of my age, yo!!
- To rely less on drugs... Analgesia wise aku dah kurang sket, but sleeping help wise naik penggunaannye. Well, what else can I say, terpaksalah, with all the shift work & all the responsibilities. Sad enuf, many doctors who work in a high-stress environment do take all these help. And, I'm defending my colleagues & myself, aku rasa org lain tak brapa layak to pandang slack when we actually need all these pharmaceutical help.. they dont understand & will never understand what we are going through. Nonetheless, we appreciate others' sympathy & respect. (Emo la plak.. hehehe).
- To take care of my car better & to drive better :) Alhamdulillah, driving better & selamat so far with my baby. In terms of mandikan dia hari tu aku & adik aku basuh kereta. Blom lagi basuh kereta sejak diorang balik M'sia hari tu. Aku ada hantar service in July, dlm report tu diorang kata 'very very late'. Nak buat cam mano, mmg aku sangat busy & sengaja takde masa nak jaga my baby.
- To be more organized with my life :) Havent been good with this one. Totally my bad. Just lebih organized in terms of my pakaian, mekaps, kasuts, food & kitchen items. Filing stuff, my books, my studying, the lawns, kemas2 rumah semua tu agak ketinggalan.. but I think kinda better than in 2010 dulu.
- To save more $... First 1/2 of 2011 I think I wasted A LOT of money, in a sense cam mana org2 tensen melepaskan tensen mereka. Then second 1/2 of 2011 I think aku bertaubat & lebih bijak berbelanja & menyimpan. Takut plak bila teringat pembaziran besar itu.
- To improve my cooking skills :) Only some je new recipes aku tried in 2011. Agak kemalasan nak masak & baking in most months of 2011. But sejak balik frm visiting Dr. D & Dr S kat Adelaide hari tu, aku terasa cam semangat masak tu lebih sikit, looking at how rajin Dr. D cooks for her family.
- To garden more :) & care for the environment more :) I talked more to my plants. Kata orang kalau kita treat the trees dgn penuh kasih sayang, lagi banyak dia berjasa kat kita. Cuaca agak kurang best sepanjang 2011, pertumbuhan all the plants agak slow, but Alhamdulillah diorang selamat sampai ke tahun baru.
- To be closer to the creative side of mine :) Belum lagi nampaknye. Mebbie boleh sambung next year... again.. keadaan tidak brapa mengizinkan.
- To belajar tahan sejuk more :P I've noticed aku tahan sejuk lebih sket than before. Masa family aku datang hari tu, aku ingat aku tak tahan sejuk, but there was one time yg aku tak pakai jacket/sweater & diorang komplen sejuk. Sedikit kebal sejak 2010, dah 11 winters I went through now.
- To play more :D games, sports, boardgames, all :D Hidup kurang bersosial & beriadah in 2011. Thus the eliptical machine I bought in October. Been jumping on it whenever aku ada masa or teringin nak ride it. Since lebih busy with work in 2011, aku rasa ni satu bonus, tak perlu bersiap-siap utk riadhah outside. The other games memang merudum abis in 2011.
- To improve my social life more :) Terrible in 2011. Almost non-existant. All due to busier life in 2011. Memang jarang sangat jumpa org. Masa raya haji tu a little bit different. Kami baru lepas kemas rumah for the landlord routine inspection, and kebetulan plak aku tak kerja that weekend. So kami jadi jugak buat sedikit makan-makan, involving very close friends. Also, went to Adelaide to visit frens. First time pegi setelah 11 thn dok Au ni. Other than that takde la berjalan sangat in 2011.
- To do more for my family :) and those precious people around me :) Yes, this year. Aku bersyukur, Alhamdulillah, dapat spend banyak masa this time with these precious ones.
- Last but not least... most important... to improve my relationship with beloved hubby... Perkahwinan mana yg takde hiccups. Enuf said.

Nak kena check balik azams tahun-tahun lepas & report tahunan, adakah ada improvement in 2011?

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2010/01/buka-buku-baru-2010.html

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2010/12/penutup-tahun-2010-book.html

http://aquahartz.blogspot.com/2011/01/buku-baru-2011-waaalllaaaa.html

Semoga tahun baru ini akan lebih baik, in one way or another, dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya.. InsyaAllah...

Hot & sizzling new year 2012

2012-01-02T12:44:00.006+11:00

Assalamualaikum & Salam sejahtera to all.

Not too late kiranye aku nak ucap selamat tahun baru 2012. Semoga tahun ini kita hidup dengan lebih aman, damai & gembira, berusaha lebih bijak & kuat, semoga kita diberi lebih kekuatan, motivasi & kemudahan menghadapi segala pancaroba kehidupan, semoga hidup kita lebih diberkatiNYA. Amin.

I feel like I havent stopped working at all since I came back frm my M'sia hols. Hari tu kerja weekends Xmas night shifts, then cuti hanya pagi Isnin boxing day lepas balik frm night shift & hari Selasa. Then sambung kerja morning shifts frm Wednesday sampai la semalam. Hari ni cuti 1 day only, then sambung arvo shifts sampai Friday. Urggh! Letih!

And yg 'best'nye, cuti 1 day, the weather is 40°c!! Great! Kalau kerja ada la airconditioning kat spital & my baby Mazda3 would be in the undercover parking lot. Now kesian dia terbakar kat halaman rumah nun coz kereta hubby is in the garage. Ni yg susah rumah just ada 1 garage.

Kat sini total fireban, extreme weather. Ni weather forecast & analysis of today's condition. Now dah dekat kol 1 tgh hari. Dah mencecah 36°c. Extreme UV since a month ago, so setiap kali aku bangun tido sure aku slap on sunscreen sebab tak nak kena skiin cancer (and tak nak hitam obviously) & kalau kuar rumah to drive during the day kena pakai sunnies sebab tak nak kena cataract. Ikut weather analysis ni kata, feels like 78.2°c! Mula2 tu aku ingat diorang cakap pasal °F. Gosok2 mata jap, rupanye betul la its in °c! Hahahahaha. Cuba click kat gambar bawah ni nak kasi clear. Tapi memang betul panas. Kena top up water non-stop la nampaknye. Kesian pokok-pokok cili, mint, stroberi, kesum, aloe vera aku kat luar tu, harap2 diorang tak kering hangus. Kalau jemur baju ni 1jam dah kering menggoreng. Seb baik our lounge/ dining area now a little bit luas than rumah lama & the ceiling pon rasa cam tinggi sket, banyak plug for us to pasal all the kipas we have.
Hopefully tonight it will get a little cooler, kalau tak susah la nak tido, esok kerja nih.

Gambar-gambar credit to TheAge.com.au

Update (2145hrs):
Temperature now is about 35°c. Tadi max temperature kat sini at 4-5pm around 40°c. Alhamdulillah both of us survive today with lotsa icy water to drink, keep the blinds closed & kurangkan bergerak.
Alhamdulillah jugak this area takde kebakaran.

On the other hand, in the Western/ Northern Victoria, the temperature reached up to 43°c kat certain areas. Western/ Northern Victoria banyak kawasan farm/ grass. Aku bukak berita tadi, as expected, fire kat grass area in the Western/ Northern. Seb baik the CFA dah bersedia awal this time, so most of the fire dah dapat contained & padam in a mere short few hours. Kat news jugak kuar berita pasal org kena heat emergency, ada jugak emergency budak2 terkurung dalam kereta. Seb baik tak jadi apa-apa.
All those fire news make me more bersyukur that I dont live in the Western/ Northern or country Victoria. Alhamdulillah tempat kami tinggal now terlindung dari most bencana alam kat Victoria ni.

Esok another hot day, predicted max 37°c plus a thunderstorm. Aku kerja starting at 2pm, huhuhu, tengah peak temperature tu. Harap-harap masa tu la thunderstorm, takde la aku kehitaman hangus driving to work esok.

Perihal jatuh sakit

2011-12-28T21:06:00.004+11:00

Alhamdulillah teaching the kids tadi went well. By this time of the year, the kids pon dah learn much so tak perlu lagi aku nak explain byk2 coz diorang pon dah tau byk & malas nak dgr (my assumption).
Lepas teaching, mcm biasa buat kerja non-clinical.
Tgh2 ngadap computer tu my friend, Dr. AG datang kat aku kasitau father dia masuk spital coz of atypical pneumonia + possible stroke. Terkejut jugak. Father dia quite elderly but a good elderly person, very functional + independant. Kesian diorang, family dia kalau boleh nak bawak balik M'sia & dirawat di M'sia. But I think the most important thing is kena treat the pneumonia first, then focus on mobility which can be done in M'sia. And Dr. AG dah bersedia to quit her job here if anything happens, and make some life changing decisions. Understandably its a difficult situation.

Aku balik frm non-clinical tadi, went back home & went out to get some groceries with hubby. We made some kuey teow goreng for them. At least tu je yg mampu aku tolong for now, and diorang dah tak payah pikir pasal food lagi bila dah jadi cam ni. Visited the father at the hospital, he had to stay in a negative pressure single room for infectious precaution, and visitors kena pakai face mask. Then visited the mum at her place in Box Hill. Apa-apa pun aku doakan semoga semuanye selamat & dipermudahkanNYA, InsyaAllah.

This reminds me of my own beloved family di M'sia sana. Aku jauh kat sini, diorang kat sana. I dont have anyone other than hubby & my beloved family. Aku doakan Allah swt sentiasa melindungi mereka dari perkara2 yg tak diingini, and aku doakan semoga semuanya baik & lancar for them. Same for umat Islam di muka bumi ni. Amin.

Pas balik tu aku yg tengah peot ni keletihan amat. Just a bit unfortunate for me that aku pon tgh peot pain. Tak best betul. Kalau tak ingat nak tolong hubby do the garden at the front or gi Ikea to get some foot stool utk guna masa study to support my back yg semakin membengkok ni. Tapi takde rezeki. Oh well, semoga both kesakitan yg kami alami ni terselindung di sebaliknye some keberkatan dariNYA, InsyaAllah. Dan semoga Allah swt memberi kami kekuatan & memelihara keimanan kami despite the situation is. Amin.

Perihal backyard & tikuss

2011-12-27T22:49:00.008+11:00

Hari ni sejuks jugak dlm 16°c-22°c at peak. 3 hari dah hujan ribut petir banjir di sekeliling Victoria esp in the north. Alhamdulillah tempat kami selamat & now nampak matahari walaupon sejuk. So, apa lagi, laundry lah.

Setelah lama bercuti di M'sia kawasan blakang rumah yg sebelum tu tak brapa semak dah jadi cam sarang & semak. Kadang aku nak jemur kain pon rasa cam seram gak, apatah lagi nak meredah segala utk jirus pokok2 kesayangan aku tu.
Until kami ternampak ni.. lalu lalang di sebalik semak samun tu. Kadang-kadang dia datang lepak kat tepi-tepi rumput gi makan daun-daun rumput tu.

I think this & a few ekor lagi kami nampak berlari-lari manja are frm the next door neighbour. We think diorangnyer garden semak samun. And unfortunately masa kami cuti rumput pon panjang, maka diorang pon cam vacation skejap kat sini. Sheeshhh...

Seb baik now dah clear, thanks to beloved hubby, tinggal nak nak cantas2 sket je dahan2 yg berjuntai dari rumah sebelah tu.

Baby baru kat rumah ni: pokok stroberi :) Beli kat Ikea. Dia kata berbuah sepanjang tahun. Best! Walaupon aku lagi suka cherries than strawberries, but ni boleh la. Nak kena tambah lagi sepokok dua.

Aloe vera. Ada anak 1 dah. A few months ago ada 5,6 anak dlm satu pasu kecik tu. So aku ubah tanam atas tanah kat blakang & kat depan. Akhirnye semua anak2 tu mati lemas coz of the storm. Sob sob.. sedih. Sebelah dia tu tertanam spring onions yg cam hidup segan mati tak nak.

Aku dah bubuh baja kat semua pokok2 kesayangan aku :) Memang habit aku bila pagi-pagi je mesti nak jenguk tanaman kesayangan sambil membelai-belai mereka. Sejuk hati. Orang kata kalau kita sayang dia, dia pon akan berbakti kat kita lebih. Cam pokok limau kasturi yg abah tanam kat tepi rumah di M'sia tu.
My pokok cili besar yg survived the winter & the storm & the other bad weather. Alhamdulillah, dah banyak bunga dah, tinggal nak berbuah je lagi.

Ni gambar bawah ni part of almost 40biji cili padi kat pokok cili padi sebelah pokok cili besar. Ada banyak lagi bunga. Gambar pokoknye yg dah tinggi tu ada kat atas belah kanan nun. Kalau aku boleh hug these pokoks, I would. Aku sangat sayang mereka! Ada bunyi cam pekebun berjaya tak?

One lone ranger pokok cili. Aku tak pasti pokok cili padi or cili besar, coz dah setahun dia tak berbuah. Kesian batang dia kat bawah tu cam terluka sket. Mebbie aku boleh cat kot on the luka spot. Dia ni a true hero lah. Has survived a whole lot of bad weather. Sayang dia! Alhamdulillah dah tumbuh bunga banyak. Sebelah dia banyak pokok mint & pokok kesum yg kami transfer tanam atas tanah dari asalnye kat pasu.

The tough group of kesum dlm pasu, and kat pasu sebelah group of mint. Sayang jugak kat diorang ni, Alhamdulillah dah survive the bad weather sejak awal tahun.

Our mint

Now I hafta go to sleep for tomorrow a.m.'s residents/ interns/ med students teaching, giliran aku la tu yg mengajarnye. Seb baik dah siap lama dah. Tajuknye Paeds & Respiratory in ED.
Gnight.

Manyak nye habuk!!

2011-12-25T19:46:00.003+11:00

Senja Maghrib nan indah di bumi Chadstone :)

Assalamualaikum, & salam sejahtera.

Teruk betul, dah lebih sebulan tak menjengah memulihara this blog. Bersawang-sawang, habuk pijat semua agaknye dah.
Malas, ada masa tapi rasa cam takde masa, kepala pusing with lots of things going on.. and so on, all sorts of excuses boleh disenaraikan. Seperti biasa.

Aku skang dah back to work :( after 5wks of annual leave, with almost 4wks spent in M'sia with beloved family. Kisah di sana nanti aku citer later (anggap je aku ni queen of janji palsu, selari dgn tugas sebagai a health care worker... hehehehhehe *wink*). Tak cukup cuti, aku still rasa like I need at least a month more. (Lemak la tu kan.. hahahha).

Almost 2wks dah balik semula ke Melbourne ni, sampai sini mid of last week. Cuaca kat sini Alhamdulillah 3,4 hari panas seperti di M'sia, di mana sedap kalau pasang kipas kelajuan 1. Seb baik la, coz dah mid summer dah ni, sebulan lagi abis la summer masuk autumn plak, tapi sejak start summer asik sejuk je. Tak best langsung. Ni dah seharian hujan & hail storm, ada some places in Victoria yg banjir kilat, hujan batu tak hingat, tapi Alhamdulilah tempat kami tinggal di south east selamat.

Aku dah back to work. Orang lain bergumbira cuti Xmas, aku plak ber'gumbira' (huweeekkkk!!) night shifts for the weekends. Benci betul. 2 times of the year kat sini yg aku memang benci nak kerja kat spital tu are Good Friday/ Easter & Xmas/ New Year. Busy, takde services, aku sedih tak dapat spend time w loved one at home (hubby cuti seminggu sejak Sabtu lalu until New Year's.. jeles!!! Aku nak kerja opis gaaakk!!!). Unfortunately lagi aku akan bekerja di weekend New Year gak. Aargghhh! My boss really made me work this time since aku tak pernah kerja lagi time Xmas/ New Year. Damn!

Okay, now I really should be getting ready to work. Kerja malam ni. Tata. Hopefully aku ada semangat nak jalan-jalan kat shopping mall yg definitely akan pack gilos due to Boxing Day Stocktake Sales around Melbourne. (Chadstone & Melbourne City Myer & David Jones akan bukak kol 5am tomorrow sempena Boxing Day... and aku akan ber'gumbira' di ED... great!).

p/S: ada sapa-sapa sempat tengok komet Lovejoy in the past few early mornings? aku takde rezeki coz busy in ED. mebbie next time.
Selamat bercuti & stay safe.

Victoria Healtcare Crisis

2011-11-12T01:19:00.004+11:00

http://www.theage.com.au/victoria/nurses-close-one-in-three-public-hospital-beds-20111111-1nbxi.html

Hmmmm....

Jom docs beramai2 rally jugak coz kami pon the lowest paid docs in Australia, DiTs get almost lower than some nurses n cleaners, against our most horrible workload n working conditions in the country.

Salam Eid-ul-Adha 1432H

2011-11-07T17:03:00.004+11:00

Sorry lambat mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidiladha tahun ini. Lambat sehari :P

(gambar ihsan Prof. Google)

Semalam busy masak2 & mengunjungi sahabah handai & sahabah handai melawat kami di rumah.
Aku, hubby, Dr. HAK, Dr. MJ masak kat rumah aku: kari daging, roti jala, kuah kacang, nasi impit segera, ayam bakar. Sebenarnye tak plan pon nak masak dgn gigihnye kali ni. Aku baru perasan raya haji jatuh pada hujung miinggu kali ni & kebetulan me & frens cuti, plus rumah dah bersih & kemas disebabkan house inspection rabu hari tu. Alang-alang tu buat je la. Lagipun aku tak pernah lagi buat makan2 kat rumah aku sejak pindah sini. Dah dekat setahun dah. Alang2 tu buat je la kan.

Hubby solat sunat AidilAdha di Monash Uni Sports Centre. Then kami makan berjemaah di rumah sebelum visit TTM & family during lunch. Petang tu rehat sket. Malam TTM & family beraya di rumah kami, plus some uni friends datang beraya jugak malam tu.

Agak-agak apa la mak & abah masak kat rumah. How la raya kat sana. Aku call pagi2 tu sebelum diorang sumer start buat apa2, dlm kol 6+am waktu M'sia.

Kesian hubby penat & suffering hay fever. Aku pon mlm tadi & pagi tadi. La ni dah lega sket. Now dah abis kemas rumah laundry semua, I'm back at the table with my books. Also hafta back on track on my senaman coz nak loose weight. Aku ada seminggu je lagi nak reduce lots of fat supaya balik M'sia nanti aku boleh mengumpul lemak semula tanpa rasa bersalah. OOO YeaHH!

Post night shift & teaching

2011-10-20T05:28:00.004+11:00

Lega dah abis ngajo kanak2 a.k.a. med students/ interns/ residents kat ED tu pagi smlm.
It was a short teaching. Topic aku simple je.. only 1 condition: Pulmonary Embolism (PE). Considering muka aku ni yg slalu lambat aku sampai on time yesterday a.m. Tapi sampai-sampai je masa tgh printing my teaching material for the kids, tetiba boss aku si crook tu suruh aku cancel coz ramai sgt patients been waiting ada yg dah mencecah 6++hrs. Mesti la aku tak nak. Penat2 aku bertungkus-lumus siapkan power point, senang2 je nak cancel ye. Geram aku. Seb baik aku insist nak gak buat teaching. Tak adil for the junior docs la kan nak cancel semata-mata patients tunggu lama. Bukan salah diorang if patients tunggu lama (dont get me started on salah sapa), patients will never stop.. hence doctors yg kena pandai2 make time for their own sanity. Its every doctor's right to get a paid teaching time setiap minggu. Hak setiap doctor tu. Kesian diorang kalau dah ripped off their professional development rights. Kang kalau komplen docs zaman skang bodo, sapa yg nak jawab?
Aku buat jugak, but took me only 1/2hour je. 1 medical condition je, & aku nyer focus was approach to PE in ED. Sesuai utk the juniors. Senang hati si crook tu, & dia mintak maap kat aku later on coz perangai buruk dia b4 my teaching tu. Hehehe.

Oh ye, aku sampai skang tak tau sapa bubuh poster pasal teaching yesterday. Masa aku baru start night shift last week, ada resident kasitau aku the poster yg ditampal di doctors ed common room. Errk!! Aku punye la nak rahsiakan topic aku coz aku tak nak the kids tanya byk2 since aku mengajo pon right after my night shifts so memang kelam kabut la nak siapkan materials. Now the whole department dah tau aku ngajo pagi semalam. Terpaksa la aku bertungkus lumus. Seb baik la soalan yg diorang ni tanya tak mencabar sangat.

Doctors common room aisle. Tengok fon pon dah tau buruks. Ni hospital sangat lama even though its in metropolitan Victoria. hehehe.

Poster bertuah tu! Bocor rahsia gua!

Setiap registrar diwajibkan ngajo the kids setiap pagi Rabu, taking turns every 5 weeks. Tapi tu la, tenat gak nak prepare power point sebab abis kerja malam pagi Isnin then teaching pagi Rabu. Aku yg tua ni memang berkurun la nak recover frm night shift Aku nyer turn kalau ikutkan lepas ni ialah in 5 wks time. But I wont be teaching again until end of Dec.. in 10 weeks time.. YAY!! Hahaha. Dah tak kuasa, dont care about the hospital anymore, I'm soooo burnt out.. I need a break!

Btw, ni gambar2 of the food of our breakie with the night shift doctors team on Monday a.m. Nama tempat tu ialah Snow Pony on White Horse Rd in Balwyn. Aku amik gambar makanan je la.

Makanan2 dia sebiji cam kat Porgie+ Mr Jones in Hawthorn, cuma nama dish je tukar. The waiters & waitresses pon very friendly, plus the indie decor pun give me the taste of Porgie+ Mr Jones. Mebbie ni franchise/ cawangan dia kot. I like! But Porgie+ Mr Jones is more accessible to me via Monash Freeway, while Snow Pony is accessible to the hospital via White Horse Rd, so kalau dari rumah aku teringin nak makan these kinda food, better gi Porgie+ Mr Jones lah.

Ni aku nyer food: scrambled eggs with mashed avocado & toast. Atas tu gambar my friend, & of course my capucino. Still aku ngantuk gak seharian lepas night shift tu.

Ni member aku nyer 'Giddy Up': ada tomato, poached eggs, mushrooms, mashed avocado, grilled tomatoes, toast, bacon.. the lot!

Another friend's food: sweet banana bread with pistachio, jam, etc. Yum!

Anyways, mlm tadi aku tido awal lepas Maghrib lagi. Penat sangat. Then aku terjaga kol 1++am & takleh tido. So I've been awake, now dah dekat kol 6am. I start at 8am jap lagi. Harap2 malam karang aku tak gol lepas balik kerja lah. Ada big chance aku akan tido awal lagi malam ni.

mencari yang ke-1000

2011-10-18T12:21:00.004+11:00

Saja nak cari sapa singgah sini yg ke-1000. Sapa-sapa yg sudi jengah blog aku yg kureng menarik ni & dia perasan counter kat bawah tepi kiri (under follower) tunjuk anka 1000 silalah 'print screen' & tunjuk kat either blog entry diorang or email aku kay. Then let me know about it. Ada la sebabnye.. =)

Saja la. Dulu aku bubuh counter tu ntah apasal dia ada masalah teknical so terpaksa la reset balik ke angka 0. Rugi! ahhaha.
Hari tu aku bukak aku nyer blog kuar angka 888.. wooh.. bertuah ke angka tu?

Next aku nak cari angka 2505, my so-called lucky number. Aku harap tu aku lah =D Sebab tu ialah tarikh harijadi aku 25th May =D

Crosstrainer is finally mine!

2011-10-15T18:06:00.004+11:00

Finally our eliptical machine sampai pagi tadi! Aku tgh tido afta night shift and machine arrived mid morning masa aku dah siap termimpi-mimpi pasal senaman on that thing.

Kami order menda ni last week. Paling murah la out of all the others kat kedai senam tu. Boleh tampung berat up to 150kg!!! Heheheh.. takdenye la aku nak jadi gemoks sampai 150kg pas tu try dia pecah ke tak. Tapi bagus la. Ada mcm2 function, boleh letak botol air ke cawan ke apa. Heheheh. Tak nampak bulky mcm the mahal ones yg kami nampak last week. Cuma dia takleh lipat2 la utk letak bawah katil kalau tetamu dtg or kalau aku rasa cam malas nak tgk menda ni. Yg boleh lipat2 tu harga dia ribu2 AU$. Tak mampu nyah! Yg ni paling murah & paling tak bulky. Just nice la rupa dia.

Hubby bubuh mengadap computer. Aku nak dia ngadap luar tingkap so that aku boleh ada 'ME' time menghayati keindahan ciptaan Allah swt. Chewah! Nanti bila aku larat nanti aku ubah dia mengadap tingkap =)
Bagus la now tak perlu bersiap2 nak berjogging kat luar kalau aku malas. Boleh bersenaman kat dalam rumah je kalau cuaca tak best cam time aku bangun tido tadi.

Bangun2 tadi lepas solats, terus jumped on the machine. Aku try setting fat burner programme, setkan 10minit & aim 5km. kehkehkeh. Aku just larat abiskan 2.3km je dlm 10minit tu. Fuh! Penat doh! Sakit tangan & kaki! Nampak sangat aku nyer stamina rock bottom cikai nyer. Hehhehe. Tapi takpe, aku nak buat setiap hari sebelum balik M'sia nanti sure dah cun & dah boleh pakai kebaya2 yg lama tu.
Yes! Teruskan usaha!

Nice weather today =)

2011-10-14T12:33:00.006+11:00

Hari ni cuaca sangat best. Matahari bersinar terang benderang. Max 25°c, min 11°c, now 23°c.. katanye TheAge. Best la, hari tu weather forcast kata akan hujan manjang. Tapi la ni forecast kata nice sunny weather early next week, renyai ujung minggu ni. Aku dah brapa kali round laundry buat. Nanti hari panas next aku nak basuh segala selimut, jemur bantal quilts semua. Kena do the garden. Kena start tabur racun serangga sekeliling rumah. Dah boleh pakai baju sexy mexy dalam rumah (kehkehkehkeh), sebelum ni sejuks berbungkus cam walking wardrobe je. Dah boleh skip Vit D supplement coz winter takde matahari. Dah wajib pakai sunblock setiap hari. Dah boleh pakai sunnies while driving dan segala activities luar & perasan cun. =D
Terasa segar now dah suam & panas & blissful. Yay!
And aku tak sabar nak tunggu Saturday a.m.!! Jeng jeng jeng...

Ni gambar hasil aku brisk walking sambil-sambil ngendap bunga kat laman rumah org. Seb baik tak kena sergah or kena tangkap. Hehehehhe. Gambar 2 terakhir tu kat laman rumah aku.

Okay now aku kena study, pas tu petang kang kol 3 or 4pm kena tido coz aku kerja malam; tonight, sabtu, ahad. Ciao.

Mengaktifkan diri

2011-10-14T12:00:00.006+11:00

Dah beberapa minggu aku dah start tambahkan keaktifan diri. Semakin aku rasa aku kena busy study, semakin aku rasa perlunye aku ni senaman. Mana taknye sebelum ni kalau study or buat kerja yg berkaitan training, sure tak sampai setengah minit dah ngantuk gila, pas tu terus main game ke internet ke apa-apa ntah lagi. Susah betul nak focus.

Semalam aku gi Paeds Advanced Life Support practice course kat spital. Aku dibubuh on the spot in charge dlm simulation tu. Case ialah budak 4 thn severe acute asthma then dia cardiac arrest. Haaa gelabah. Boss-boss sumer risau aku traumatized, diorang ni tau aku ni senang nangis. Hahaha, but all in all aku rasa aku buat okay la jugak. Bila bubuh on the spot like that makes me remember. Then afta that borak-borak dgn one of the bosses. Tiba bab makan, rehat & senaman. Tu la lagi bertambah semangat aku nak kembalik sihat seperti before. Aku dah let myself down for quite a while now, mebbie months dah.

Matlamat aku nak senaman & makan makanan sihat now ialah:
- improve focus for study & kuatkan ingatan.
- improve mood, tak nak depressed/ anxious je all the time.
- cantikkan kulit & awet muda.
- improve energy.
- tone up muscles.
- kurangkan geleber-geleber kat trunk & bontot.
- kalau cuti M'sia nanti boleh la melantak all those yummy food, tak yah risau bila balik Melbourne aku kena ganti seluruh lemari dgn pakaian size lebih besar. hehehee.
- aku tak nak kena penyakit2 yg menyebabkan aku nyusahkan diri sendiri, orang sekeliling aku & the healthcare system. long term aku nak jadi cam pesakit2 elderly aku yg sihat walafiat tak makan ubat apa2 independant tak nyusahkan family diorang (diorang datang spital coz masalah luka2 or patah tulang or simple stuff).

Skang aku rajin keluar brisk walking + jog. Pas tu kalau indoor exercise aku rajin buat cardio senam robik with weights selang-selang dgn senaman perut.
Aku suka makan, cuma in terms of appetite je slalu kurang, disebabkan tu slalu makan sampah (oh well, my sampah are just sweet chocs & chips). So now aku banyak ganti sampah2 tu dengan makanan lebih sihat. Snacks byk makan fruits (aku terpaksa merajinkan diri potong buah nowadays), ada la sket2 curi2 makan sampah bila time aku cravings gila tu. Breakie pon now makan oats (yucks!) or cereals with fresh fruits, sultanas, raisin, nuts. Banyak jugak duit aku beli pisang sini yg mahal sangap tu. Dari segi nasi, I love my nasi, just kurangkan servings, and lepas makan meals aku wajibkan diri makan fruits as desserts. And I love my protein goreng! Hehehe. Aku suka ayam, ikan, daging, seafood dgn syarat semua ni digoreng atau dibakar. Tu satu tabiat buruk aku yg aku not willing to let go. Sebab aku nyer appetite ni slalunye mati sebelum makan. Ayam kat Melbourne ni tak sesedap ayam kat M'sia. So aku akan makan ayam kalau ayam tu goreng, bakar or dah dalam soup. kalau tak slalu makan secubit je then selebihnye sedekah kat org lain. And I'll end up jadi kambing makan all the sayur2. Same with other stuff. Tau goreng2 ni byk minyak, tapi takpe, aku kurangkan portion & bantai senaman setiap kali makan oily food. Okay la tu kan.
Air gas dah laaaama gila tak minum sejak gastritis aku teruk last year, ganti dgn fresh orange juice. Aku dah kurangkan caffeine in my life. Cuma minum sekali je air coffee yg mild strength, then kalau teringin lagi minum decaffeinated coffee. Dulu rasa tak sedap, now dah lebih kurang sama dah rasanye, dah biasa dah. Cuma masalah tido je aku kureng sket. This is where those pills come in =) Jangan terkujat doctors sebenarnye banyak jadi drug addicts (legal drugs) & kaki botol, ni sumer pasal kehidupan doctors yg penuh dengan 360° stress.

Anyways, ni dinner aku mlm tadi. Teringin nak makan kari ikan masin. Balik frm PALS smlm aku terus singgah BHH Centro beli ikan masin & udang. Sayur guna je apa yg ada, campur 5 biji telur.

Kemendungan

2011-10-12T14:31:00.003+11:00

Bosan dah with work. In my head at the moment is all about my exams this coming February. Just 1/2 of the primary exams but memang its all hard work.
Kat spital pon aku asik takde mood, malas, bitchy, angry all the time. Plus all the silly mistakes that I've been making. Serious no motivation. Bosan betul.
Kalau off days plak aku dok dlm rumah tak buat apa selain dp study kalau tak pon kemas rumah, home exercise, buang masa kat internet. Keluar pon tak. Top up barang dapur pon when I get back frm work singgah kedai jap. So anti-social. My proper annual leave overseas (in Malaysia) was in Sept 2010, and now dah long overdue for my overseas holidays. Bosan dah dengan Melbourne nih!

I need a holiday!!

Weather plak tak berapa best di sini. Tapi aku bersyukur jugak coz walaupon sejuk/ mendung/ hujan, we are lucky to get a good sunshine for 1/2 of the day, most days now. Mid spring, tapi weather kureng best. Aaaiiii...
Last week kalau ikut weather forcast The Age, sepanjang bulan October ni akan hujan manjang. So kalau kat gambar sebelah ni dia akan tunjuk the whole month dark blue = hujan. Gambar ni merangkap hari ni punye forcast. Hari ni dah tukar. Bagus la. Aku hopeful & positive.

Best blaja kalau ada sun light. Rasa cam there's hope to life. Takde la merudum je all the time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ABAH!! =)

2011-10-07T14:47:00.003+11:00

Happy Birthday to my abah kesayangan.

Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki & diberkatiNYA. Semoga diberi kesihatan yg berpanjangan & diberi kesenangan hidup di dunia & akhirat.
Thanks for being a great dad to all fo us.
We all love you lots.
~your daughter yg tak berapa nakal tapi baik hati~

(Pic dari ihsan Google.com)

Nak lagi

2011-10-05T14:32:00.004+11:00

Koleksi sementara aku. Tengah kumpul utk adik-adik aku.
Aku rasa banyak kanak-kanak zaman dulu pernah main Lego. Tak tau la zaman now kanak-kanak main Lego lagi or semua dah tenggelam kat electronics. Lego nowadays dah banyak sangat beza dgn Lego dulu-dulu kan. Now byk yg more towards collectors' items rather than pure blocks.
Comel je these figurines. Nanti aku tunjuk aku nyer Lego keychains plak.

October & daylight saving

2011-10-03T13:23:00.003+11:00

Its already October 2011, middle of spring. Cepat gila masa berlalu. Aku rasa cam aku baru je ingat hari tu baru February 2011, aku baru start kerja sebagai ED registrar, naik pangkat frm a Crit. Care resident. =P Naik sangat la tu. Hahaha.

Semalam start daylight saving. Bermakna beza time Melbourne & KL now dah naik jadi 3 jam, instead of 2 jam. Besar bezanye tu, coz now aku kena call rumah late morning or late night kalau nak talk to my family during their waking hours. Oh ye. Daylight saving juga menandakan dah mid spring & weather is going to be sooooo much better. Dah 3 hari berturut-turut hujan tak berhenti-henti turun, baru semalam matahari kuar despite masih sejuk. I'm hopeful that the weather is going to be better for the rest of the season campur summer & autumn next year. Coz cuaca best2 gini la yg sangat best nak study :)

Btw, now tgh break jap frm buat my journal review for this Thursday presentation. Kol 1pm tadi senaman cardio + weights. Aku sedar muffin tops ku & lipatan lemaks dah makin prominent, tak nak nanti kena tukar the whole wardrobe again like early this year. Hehehhe. Then la ni baru abis lunch maggie tom yam (lama dah kempunan). Ni nak sambung balik buat this journal. Jap lagi start kerja kol 4pm until midnight. This week aku kerja arvo shift, off days hanya hari Jumaat & Sabtu. So time tu la nak siapkan my other presentation on pulmonary embolism in ED & ada lagi satu course of paediatrics advanced life support yg aku kena study for next week plak. Rasanye masa aku student dulu takde la anti-social cam gini. Ish..

Our very rushed short Adelaide trip but very worth while

2011-09-26T20:59:00.005+10:00

Lama gila tak jengah sini. Seperti biasa alasah lapuk yg semua pon dah bosan dengar. Malas, busy with work. Hehe.
Malam ni kerja night shift sampai la Khamis malam, abis pagi Jumaat. And then on-call over the weekends. So everyone, please doakan aku tak perlu called in for the weekends, please doakan kesihatan & keselamatan all the registrars so that aku tak perlu menjengah work on the weekends. InsyaAllah. Amin.

Aku & hubby baru balik frm Adelaide pagi tadi. Penat gila. We spent 2 days there basically. Semuanye rushed & a very short time to spend in a new place. Hubby's buddy's wedding, di mana kami dapat the invitation way early this year, but I guess I never thought that I would actually go due to exams, work commitment, etc, so kami tak permah confirmed to go anyways, even though hubby mmg nak sgt pegi. And all the hotel & flight booking semuanye sangat2 last minute, aku rasa abah sure kena heart attack kalau tau this last minute kami punye kerja. Hehe.

I was working Friday night until midnight, didnt leave the hospital that early. Packed last minute. Didnt sleep that night. I think hubby pon tak cukup tido gak, dlm 2,3 jam je mlm tu. Pagi almost 5am bertolak ke airport. I felt like I was flying when I was driving to the airport, semuanye rasa keawang-awangan. Letih + tak tido mlm tu. Alhamdulillah semua selamat sampai kat airport even tho kami kena lari2 dari parking ke terminal. Lambat gila checked in, we were the last people to check in, and luckily airport punye org made it easy for us bila dah lambat2 tu. Seb baik kami bukan the last people to board the plane. Some turbulence on the plane & aku tak dpt tido.
Dr. S. picked us up frm the airport that pagi buta. Aku & hubby sangat2 appreciate their hospitality & kindness that a.m. Breakie jap & main2 with the sweet princess, Alysha, then I had the opportunity to take a very short nap kat rumah Dr. S & Dr. D. Kesian hubby tak rehat, I think dia segan kot. Hubby managed to book a rental car frm Thrifty thru the net kat rumah Dr. D. Kami rush ke tpt kereta afta lunch. Then terus checked in, tukar baju utk gi wedding. Aku pakai the only baju kebaya yg muat for the wedding (dah gemok!!!), itu pon kena unhook the kain & the zip head tinggalkan a bruise on the skin kat my waist.. hehehe. Haru.
Btw, the wedding is somewhere in the valley. Sejuks gilaaaaaaaa! Nice area & everything was beautiful. Many hours afta that, just b4 midnight baru kami drove back to the city. My first ever encounter meeting with a kangaroo on the road, dia kinda selamba je jumped in front of our car masa tgh turn bukit dari valley tu. Sebab dia tak takut kat kereta even tho kami honked, so kami pon drove slowly behind it & amik gambar. Haha. Hubby cakap dia plak yg rasa cam floating je balik dari wedding tu sampai hotel. Sampai bilik dah hampir midnight kami terus basically dead. Dah abis Saturday kami.

Pagi Sunday until late afternoon spent time with hubby's bunch of friends, kat city & kat Adelaide Hills. Balik pon rushed jugak. Packed sket2 prior going to Dr. D & Dr. S. place that early evening. Her mum made us a lovely hearty dinner nasi ayam & apple crumble. Sedap gila, sampai lupa amik gambar food. Alysha wasnt well that evening, but then she picked up & became hyper, mebbie coz of the paracetamol & some chocolate (ooppsss.. my bad! Sorry, Dr. D.). Watched some video's & photos of Alysha, main2 dengan dia sampai aku pon rasa mengah hahahha. Watched a short episode of Modern Family with them, then kol 9+pm balik ke hotel. Sedih la such a short time spent dgn Dr. D. & Dr. S. tak sempat nak buat apa2. Sampai hotel even tho still early, kami dah basically still rasa nak mati & terus tido lepas solat.

We woke up at 4am on today. Drove to the airport & dropped the car. Had quick breakie afta checked in. Aku ternap dlm 1/2hour dlm plane back to Melbourne, hubby plak blom terbang dah padam dah. Sampai Melbourne aku terus drove him to his work, & aku drove to Dandenong straight frm the city to get some halal meat & vegies (dah 2minggu tak masak betul2.. =P opps). Balik tu dah lewat sangat. Such a beautiful dah but alas I couldnt spend it properly. Had some munchies then terus padam atas katil.

There, my hectic weekends, I thought I didnt want to go coz of work/ assignments/ presentations/ etc. I'm soooo glad I made it. Very refreshing even tho semuanye rushed gila. Managed to see the people that I wanted to see for sooo long. Wish we had more time though.
Thanks Dr. D. & Dr. S & Alysha for the lovely time spent together even tho sangat2 short. Hugs. Semoga kita jumpa lagi.

Now its time to get ready to work. Next time aku tulis lagi about our trip to Adelaide, etc. Harap2 aku ok mlm ni sampai pagi coz unfortunately 2 junior docs yg in charge of the department today :(
Doakan kami selamat k. Ciao.

11 Years!! And about giant garbage..

2011-09-10T20:13:00.009+10:00

Dah sebelas tahun dah rupanye aku kat negara asing ni!! Cepatnye masa berlalu!
Last year masa tahun ke 10 aku kat Australia ni, aku tengah busy berpesta raya Aidilfitri kat Malaysia. Hehehhee.

Dulu masa datang masih muda remaja takde dark circles & kedutan kat muka. Haha. Dulu body masih kurus, sihat.. now dah sengal-sengal, lemak lapis-lapis sana-sini. Ahaks.

I have seen many changes dari tahun 2000 until now 2011, and macam-macam important events/ milestones either in my own development or everything around me.

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Anyways, I was thinking of just nak celebrate sorang2 kat rumah since baru balik from night shift kan. Nak buat some Milo & makan keropok ke apa.

But... such a bad night shift malam tadi. Bukannye teruk sangat pon overnight. Sebagai junior reg aku dah boleh cherry-pick what patients I want to see, mostly the very sick ones lah, senang, tak yah jumpa those silly cases. But tadi actually overnight we were under control, until at around 530am. 1 category 1 72 y.o. man arrived: VF arrest, upper GI bleeding, then respiratory distress. Patient ni dah intubated before coming, dah kena zapped, now kena ionotrope supports, blood transfusion sumer. Tak stable in ED. Macam-macam. Tak sampai 1 hour after that, datang lagi sorang asystolic arrest 20 something man datang, same la category 1, intubated jugak zapped jugak, ni sebab overdose plak. Same tak stable in ED.
Kalau ikut prognosisnye seems like these 2 patients macam dah ada permanent brain damage & wont stand long coz of what it sounds like a prolonged downtime. Dua2 patient dah showed fixed dilated pupils with no neuro response at all on examinations. So I guess at this stage ICU role is to look after each organ individually & taking it hour by hour lah. Tak tau la brapa lama 2 org ni akan bertahan di dunia yg fana ini.
Macam-macam issues, machine tak berapa working, understaff, on call consultant plak tak datang, seb baik 2 senior registrars that morning datang awal straight away helped us with these 2 patients.
Record overnight 4 category 1 patients datang. And we sorta ketinggalan bila these 2 very sick patients datang.

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Nak dijadikan cerita. Aku sampai rumah pagi tu around 11 am. Ingat boleh la terus padam kat dalam katil. Tapi lori pemusnah barangan rumah & white goods had to scout around our area this time. I thought kami dapat memo about this it was supposed to be last weekend. Agaknye coz byk gila barang orang2 kaya Melbourne ni nak buang maka kena buat berkali-kali la kot. Kami takde buang apa2 coz memang semua barang guna since aku mula2 sampai sini, ada sket2 dah kasi orang. Kami boleh dikategorikan sebagai miskin la jugak. Ehehehe.

Sila click utk tengok sampah-sampah ni

Ni baru kat jalan ni, kalau tengok jalan2 belah sana lagi la. Rasa cam tinggal dalam junk yard

Kat sini ada la dlm 3,4 kali max pembersihan begini setiap suburb. Semua org akan campak barang2 diorang outside kat luar pagar, then lori-lori berkenaan akan hapuskan & lupuskan barang2 besar ni. Sementara menunggu lori2 setiap hari kita drive akan rasa cam driving thru a junk suburb. Serious sakit mata. Kadang-kadang akan ada orang scavange to look for goods yg diorang boleh guna like some meja kecik ke, kerusi ke apa2 lah yg boleh diguna for watever reasons. Aku teringat dulu time student dulu ada la jugak aku & housemate gi kutip some kerusi/ meja kecik etc for use at our student house. Heheheh. Ye la time student dulu kan miskin. Guna je la 2nd hand stuff. Masih elok pon.
Sabarje la hubby kata ntah2 next turn my white car plak lori tu akan angkut coz diorang sure confuse mana satu white goods yg nak kena buang. Hampeh!!

Aku intai-intai gak thru my window cam mana agaknye diorang angkut menda2 gabak tu. Canggih la jugak lori dia terus hancurkan barang2 tu. Masih banyak lagi electrical stuff kat luar. Aku rasa dioang hapuskan perabots dulu then kemudian the white goods.

Mintak2 la cepat sket diorang clearkan barang2 ni. Tak sanggup aku dah nak lalu setiap hari tengok longgok2 barang sekeliling kawasan perumahan ni. Hmmm... talking about how much sampai setiap manusia di muka bumi ni hasilkan & pencemaran alam.. kesian bumi kita...

Okay ciao, time to get to work.

Fathers' Day Hamper

2011-09-09T20:12:00.005+10:00

Last week on the day nak hantar my family ke airport tu, aku dapat satu panggilan dari nombor ntah sapa. Sebenarnye dari hari sebelum tu lagi tapi aku dok ignore the phone call. Biasa la nak mengelak dari telemarketing ntah apa2 tu. But nombor tu cam persistent plak sampai the next day, so aku pon angkat la.
"Hello, is that XXXX?"
Aku pon "Yes, speaking."
Dia, "I'm calling from Dandenong Market, and congratulations you have won the Fathers Day hamper competition we held recently."
Aku plak, "blablablablabla..." ayat yg penuh terharu.. hehehhehe..
Tapi dia kata dia takleh kasi hari Sabtu, hamper will be ready the week after, which is this week la. So aku cakap aku akan datang pagi Jumaat, iaitu hari ni. Dia siap cakap, "Please apologize to your dad that the hamper didnt get to be there on Fathers' Day."
Ye lah, Fathers' Day kat Australia ni adalah first Sunday of September, which was last Sunday, sehari selepas family aku dah berlepas balik ke-Malaysia. While most other countries Fathers' Day in June kan.

So ni lah dia Fathers' Day hamper yg aku menang frm Dandenong Market tempoh hari. Amik tengah hari tadi. Tak sempat nak share dgn abah.
Siap ada shiraz & judi tattslotto lagi tu dalam sampul tulis Happy Fathers Day. Tak pasti la nak kasi sapa menda2 ni. Skali aku kasi judi ticket tu kat sapa2 & dia menang sure aku jeles punye.. Hahaha.
Erk... dilemma.. patut buang or kasi orang 2 menda harrrrem nih..

Anyways, walaupon dah lambat, HAPPY FATHERS' DAY to all fathers in the world. Setiap hari pon Fathers' Day, coz setiap country celebrate lain-lain date. I love my abah everyday regardless.

Salam Aidilfitri 1432H & Selamat Hari Kebangsaan ke-54

2011-09-09T14:10:00.003+10:00

Saya minta maaf zahir & batin lambat mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 1432H & Selamat Menyambut Hari Merdeka ke-54 kepada semua warga muslimin & muslimat, serta semua rakyat Malaysia.
Been busy with work & also gumbira melayan family aku beraya kat Melbourne ni, Alhamdulillah.
Semoga kita semua diberkatiNYA.

Terimalah gambar yg kucilok dari Google sempena sambutan ini.
I will start my night shift tonight until Sunday night abis pagi Monday. Will be super busy until next August 2012 I think coz of exams & pelbagai lagi training assessments kena selesaikan, especially for the next 6 months.
Will try to update blog nan hado ni bila ada masa =P
Doakan kejayaan kita bersamaaa.... muahs to all =P

Okay, now nak gi tido. ZZZzzZzZzzz...

Pick up Adik

2011-08-16T00:14:00.004+10:00

Aku tengah menunggu kol 1am jap lagi ni nak gi Tullamarine airport nak ngangkut adik aku H3. Dia naik Emirates landing kol 1:02am kot. Tapi coz aku lalu Citylink & ni tgh2 pagi buta weekday ni so mebbie akan sampai sangat cepat kat sana. Ye la dgn immigresen lagi, huhahuha sumer tu, ngam ngam la aku sampai kot.

Rumah tak abis kemas lagi sebenarnye. Tapi takpe, asalkan tempat tido & mandi kencing berak sumer tu bersih bersinar lagi harum so boleh lagi ditangguhkan sedikit lagi. Now dah tambah lagi sorang helper boleh 'aku' basuh kereta, cabut rumput, cuci lantai, kemas kotak, etc. Bagus bagus bagus. >:)

Anyway, hari ni the only day off selepas a.m. shifts ujung minggu lepas, then sambung evening shift jap lagi start kol 2 jap lagi. Oh, how much I hate evening shifts coz abis midnight :(

Disebabkan 1 hari je off, maka aku pon kena la memasak dinner/sahur dgn bersungguh-sungguhnye. Kali ni kena masak lebih lagi coz lagi satu perut nak suap ni. Lenguh la jugak badan aku sumer berdiri lama gila kat dapur tu. Harap2 cukup la makanan until Friday nanti. Hmm.. tapi kalau abis suku jalan, hubby kena la bawak adik aku kuar makan, since aku ni a bit protective & possessive about people cooking in 'my' kitchen. Kalau nak masak boleh, asalkan rumah takde bau dlm erti kata lain buka tingkap sliding door tutup pintu bilik tido pasang full blast ventilator yg memekakkan tu & dapur licin berkilat bila aku balik kerja nanti. Bolehkah?

Kuah asam laksa. Sardine dlm tin dah abis, maka aku humban saja all the tuna that I could find in the pantry, walaupon ada yg berperisa. Rasanye sedap la jugak.

Murtabak segera ikut resepi Dapur Tanpa Sempadan, CMG.

Tadi balik dp grocery shopping aku snap la gambar2 bunga2 kat luar ni. Sejak last week aku noticed some pokok dah start tumbuh pucuk2 & anak2 bunga. Signs of spring coming soon. But the weather in Melbourne currently is actually heading south.. a real Melbourne winter.. seeejuuukkksss!! And akan makin sejuk in the coming week seperti kata pakar kajicuaca Australia. Oh no...

Pokok dlm garden aku dah berputik, its a matter of time now yg aku kena tebas menebas semula.

Pokok depan rumah di luar pagar sana

Rumput luar rumah

Bunga kat postbox

Okay ciao, kena get ready.

About a.m. shifts & kelapaku keras

2011-08-12T05:50:00.005+10:00

12 Ramadhan 1432H. Today is going to be the 2nd day aku bekerja pagi in bulan puasa untuk tahun ini. Bunyi cam big deal kan? Hehehehe.. mesti la big deal utk org yg lemah cam aku ni... lemah pekebendanye. Ngade je lebih kot.

Anyways, semalam hari pertama. Wednesday a.m. was actually the first but I was doing the non-clinical job e.g. teaching the junior docs & medical students, checking results & if the abnormalities were appropriately acted on, etc. My topic for the teaching was O&G in ED, which I had last term. So takde la susah sgt nak prepare, just kena refresh my memory saje. Powerpoint recycle je. Senang.
Semalam hari pertama kerja pagi. I thought I was going to be starving, thirsty, headachy, no focus, etc all the symptoms of low brain perfusion. Tapi Alhamdulillah semuanye okay. Aku ngantuk sepanjang hari coz slama ni aku tido siang then kerja in the arvo & tak tido malam, that kind of ridiculous cycle. Aku ngantuk gila by 1pm smalam coz even tho the night before aku try paksa diri nak tido awal but aku tertido kol 11pm & terjaga kol 3am, then takleh tido. So in the 2nd half of the day tu aku memang terkenyit2 dua2 biji mata aku ni, hopefully takde la patient or sapa2 yg terperasan aku nak ngorat diorang. Kehkehkehkeh.

Bunyi cam big deal sangat. Cam la aku tak biasa kerja pagi di bulan puasa selama ni. Well, I've had a.m. shifts di bulan puasa sebelum ni sejak internship dulu. Masa intern buat GP rotation di whoop whoop sangat2 mencabar, aku slalu kena reflux & muntah2 di siang & malam hari sepanjang rotation 5 minggu tu menyebabkan byk sangat hari aku kena ganti puasa. Mebbie it has sth to do with the water there. Aku memang tak sesuai kerja kat rural Au ni. Hehehe. Then the next year tu memang tak kerja time bulan puasa so gemoks sangat aku jadinye. The year after aku kerja in ED, mostly arvo & night shift, ada seminggu tu kerja pagi. Seingat aku walaupon aku penyek minggu tu but other shifts kerja aku melantak saja bila time buka puasa or overnight. So tahun tu seriously aku put on 8kg sejak awal puasa until abis raya! Hahahaha, nanti aku citer apa jadi bila aku balik frm cuti raya.
Then last year aku berpuasa time kerja anaesthetics, surprisingly takde masalah langsung. Mebbie coz kurang bercakap & kerja sangat senang utk junior cam aku ni. I had enuf sleep & was enjoying work. Didnt put on weight as much as the year before, mebbie cuma 2kg saja then hilang balik bila start kerja balik lepas raya.
This year.. kita tunggu if aku akan put on weight lagi in bulan puasa or not. Buat masa ni aku rasa cam weight aku sangat steady blom naik lagi. Hehehe.. jeng jeng jeng.. tunggu saja :P

Okay, citer pasal what I made on Wednesday for buka puasa & sahur.
After work on Wednesday went to buy some groceries with hubby. Petang tu lepas bangun tido bertungkus lumus aku masak.

Tom yam sayur, dah abis tadi sahur

Masak lemak udang.. best, lama tak makan masak lemak. My theory is kalau nak kerja pagi kena makan sth berlemak & protein rather than high carb coz during starving period body will increase gluconeogenesis thru stored fat & will use up protein for body repair. Kalau tak puasa kita ada breakie, lunch, snacks, etc. Aku bakar ayam & daging jugak tapi lupa nak snap pic. Dah abis dah pagi tadi.

Telur masin.. yuummmm!

Jumpa kat HongKong hari tu. Excited aku. Masa beli tu ingat blom masak lagi, like the ones yg aku slalu jumpa kat Box Hill or Springvale. Masa nak rebus tu baru perasan, rupenye dah masak. Laaa.. senang aaaa lain kali kalau nak makan telur masin. Cuma yg dah masak ni kurang masing sket if to compare with the ones yg blom masak. Nevertheless, rasanye sedap jugak. And aku basuh & rebus semula, maklum le aku ni kureng percaya sket bab2 telur yg diorang kata dah rebus ni. Kang aku plak yg kena keracunan makanan if not careful.

Bersungguh-sungguh betul aku masak kan. Time cuti memang gini. Kalau time kerja, kebuluran je aku. Yo-yo. One of the dishes aku masak ialah aku nak try buat kuih ketayap. Last time aku buat dgn jayanye was when I was a student, so synergistic effect dgn effort kawan2 serumah, obviously sangat menjadi. Ni aku buat sorang. Sedih gila inti kelapanye caramelised & keras, sumer coz nature aku yg tak suka menunggu maka aku leka main iPad2 aku tu la sementara tunggu menda tu masak. Padan mukaku! Huhuhu. Ye ye je aku print recipe masa kat spital pagi tu, siap canang2 lagi kat junior2 yg aku ajar tu yg aku nak buat kuih tradisional yg sangat best & cun. Kekekkeke. Ye ye je berlagak, kan dah hancus. Heheheh. Masa try gulung kuih ketayap tu hahahhaa bocor abis kuih aku. Kulit dia dah cantik vibrant green & sedap gebu dah. Aiyooo. Tersentap aku terus simpan the inti & the kulit2 dlm fridge. La ni still tgh fikir cam mana aku nak repair the inti kelapa kasi lembut. Sayang aaaaaa nak buang. Kang aku nangis. Huhuhuhu... kalau ada bazaar Ramadhan kan senang, tak perlu la aku tertunggingtungging nak buat kuih2 kegemaran ni. Haaiii....
Gambar takde coz aku keciwa.

Ni jap lagi ni nak gi mandi & get ready to work. So far dah 2 hari aku sampai kerja early which is very rare for me. Tengok aaa jap lagi cam mana, harap2 tak lambat lagi :P mebbie coz takleh sarapan & dah solat Subuh awal2 kan, takde la terhegeh2 lagi nak siap2. Caffeine pon dah bertindak at its sites.
And harap2 hari ni, which is hari ke-2 aku kerja shift pagi setakat ni, akan berlalu dgn lebih bagus then semalam. Tido awal beb, kol 9pm dah padam & bangun kol 415am. Best!!

MasterChef 2011 dah abis, bosan aaa tv nowadays..

2011-08-08T22:49:00.004+10:00

Setelah puas membuta sepanjang hari (coz mlm tadi tak tido) akhirnye tiba la masa untuk buka puasa. Aku & hubby buka puasa dgn kurma & air je, then baru la masak lepas maghrib. Nuthing to watch on tv. MasterChef 2011 dah abis, menyaksikan kemenangan Kate against Michael. Aku kerja arvo shift abis almost midnight so memang tak berpeluang tengok finale tu. Lepas tengok rerun of the episodes kat Masterchef webbie, aku cam terasa memang Kate patut menang kot. The finale this year kureng menarik if to compare last year's one. Last yr I think cool gila ada invention test, knowledge test, pressure test. This year semuanye masak all the way through. According to TheAge.com.au rating penonton tahun ni tak menarik as per last year's. Mebbie coz may find that tahun ni punye MasterChef kureng umph factor. And dia seperated the finale into 2 parts 1 part kol 630, lagi satu part started at 830, tengah2 at 730 the Renovators. So mcm potong stim la jugak. Seb baik aku tengok rerun je.
Okaylah, tak perlu mengulas banyak2 MasterChef ni coz dah abis & thn ni punye kureng menarik than last year, even though banyak gak foods yg best dlm ni.

Malam ni kami makan mamak style food. Here's the pictures.

Ni dia lauk malam ni.. harap boleh tahan sampai pagi Rabu hendaknye..

Kari sotong plain je

Sayur goreng mamak ni isi bendi, kacang panjang, kentang & cabbage. Aku saja bubuh cabbage coz aku suka cabbage!

Ayam masak merah pedas segera.. thanks to Brahims!

Roti canai segera juga

Sahur jap lagi ni tak perlu la aku nak goreng roti canai ni lagi, dah siap goreng dah awal2. Ok aaa tu utk aku yg sangat pemalas ni. Tinggal masak air & panaskan lauk2 tu je. Nasi pon dah siap masak tadi tapi tak makan. Terbayang2 je nasi ayam kari sayur makan dgn kicap manis cam kipas udang esok pagi ni.. yaaayyy. Hehehhe.

Esok aku free lagi. With starting Wednesday until Sunday aku a.m. shift. Harap-harap la aku diberi kekuatan fizikal & iman to face a.m. shift in Ramadhan tahun ni. (Bunyi cam ngada-ngada je kan.. hehehhehe...).

Aku tak suka berpakaian serba hitam =(

2011-08-05T01:27:00.003+10:00

Hari ni takde gambar coz aku tak sempat nak melagha amik gambar. La ni dah kol 128am, so takde menda pon nak amik gambar.
Aku bgn lambat gila lagi seperti biasa. Berapa belas mimpi dah taking turns sepanjang aku tido lepas Subuh. Yg ngarut2 pon ada seperti aku jadi pengawas siap pakai uniform biru lagi kat spital tu.. eerkk.. apa kebendanye tu. Agak2 ada pesakit gerun tak kalau aku turn up cam gitu gi kerja? Hehehe.
Tu la kot org kata lepas Subuh jangan tido. Nak buat cam mana aku dok stay up je sejak start puasa ni. Selain buang masa kat internet, aku study jugak. Oh ye, ada jugak lepas beberapa jam aku dok bersenaman kat ruang tamu either buat weights, or other indoor exercise, kasi hilang boring. Dan jugak since dah hobby baru aku tido lepas Subuh makanye better aku senaman kan. Aku semakin rajin bersenaman aku rasa since bulan puasa ni. Harap2 my body lebih toned time raya nanti.
Dan jugak sejak mengamalkan hobby baru ni aku terasa cam kehilangan matahari pulak even tho lately panas di siang hari. Tak best langsung. And tadi aku terlepas time gi kerja... Aiiyaaakkk!! Seb baik cuma non-clinical stuff je. Adoih.. mati aku nanti kena sembur dgn boss besar. :(

Btw, tadi buka puasa out, & aku pakai all black. Jijiks gak aku tengok dlm cermin wearing that. Well, I will never ever wear all black dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki to anywhere, semua putih takpe, but if you know where I went, then you know why. Arrghh!!

Seb baik esok start kol 3pm, so tak kisah la kalau aku teruskan hobby ni. Abis kol 12am tu yg tak best tu coz tak dpt buka puasa dgn hubby. Sabtu & Ahad plak tak tau cam mana nak bgn awal coz aku start kol 1pm, abis kol 11pm. And ini bermakna aku akan miss grand finale MasterChef 3 on Sunday!!! Aaarrghhh, marahnyeeee!!

Another day in Ramadhan 1432H

2011-08-03T23:13:00.009+10:00

Hari ke-3 berpuasa. Hubby kata dia rasa dia dah naik 2kg since first Ramadhan. Kehkehkehkeh. Mana taknye, aku rasa setiap tahun pon kami slalu terlajak polisi... buka puasa cam hape je konon-konon ganti balik seharian takleh makan & minum, then time sahur fuiyooh lagi banyak makan de konon-konon nanti takde la lembek je time kerja. Tapi la ni masing2 cuti, rasa cam tak perlu la extra calories tu. Aku ni plak lepas Subuh je membuta sampai dekat2 nak abis Zohor sebab tak tido sepanjang malam konon-konon nak study la tu. Hehehe.

Depan rumah. Tu papan tanda jual rumah tu bila ntah the agent nak buang. Dah berbulan dah kat situ masa diorang buat auction jual unit blakang rumah kami. Sheesh. Tu bin kuning & merah yg tergolek tu kami punye. Hari Rabu pagi ialah hari bin setiap minggu kat area sini. So malam2 hari Selasa or pagi2 sebelum kol 7am dah kena sorong bins ke depan rumah. Matahari sangat best time ni, tapi setting camera plak cacat, lupa nak adjust.

Hari ni cuaca sangat best.. 22°c! Percaya tak mid winter cuaca best cam gini?
I woke up lepas Zohor terus berjalan-jalan sekeliling neighbourhood sampai ke Scottsman's Creek sana (still dalam neighbourhood Chadstone ni jugak). So nice, aku rasa sangat bahagia & fresh. Nice wind, nice sunny day. Dapat la jugak aku enjoy 2,3 jam before buka puasa. Some places in Victoria mencecah 25°c... waaahhh, tu dah temperature idaman time spring tu. Gila best.

Bunga putih & bunga pink kecik2 ni sama geng tapi lain variants kot. Ada sapa2 tahu pokok2 ni?

Dua batang pokok yg sama jenis tapi satu togel, satu lagi lebat. Hehehe..
Aku notice time spring kadang pokok kasi bunga putih, kadang pink.

Pokok dgn their bright yellow small flowers. Terasa cam spring. Aku tak tau apa jenis pokok ni, ni kat sepanjang Scottsman's Creek dekat dgn public golf course.

In the evening hubby gi kelas MBA dia kat Monash Uni Caufield Campus, so dia terpaksa pack his own food. Aku plak gi jumpa member adik aku Dr. AM seorang intern yg bekerja di whoop whoop Sheparton sana, 2,3 hours north of Melbourne. Dia ada psychiatry conference kat city. Rajin plak dia gi bayar utk conference psych tu eh. Kami dinner di Kintochi saja, then dia singgah rumah to transfer some of the free medical books from his iPad to mine. Benda berharga tu! By that time hubby pon dah balik but he's kinda busy doing his project & bervideo conference with his business partner.

Esok ni aku tak tau cam mana nak bangun awal ni. Now still segar & geared up to study. Dah la start kol 1pm abis kol 6pm. Kalau slalu aku bangun kol 230pm cam mana esok nih. Kalau aku tak datang esok ni, maunye kena bunuh oleh boss boss nanti. Kalau tido now alamatnye mcm akan terlepas sahur nih. Heheheh. (Bunyi cam lemah iman je kan.. hampeh sungguh). Jumaat sampai Ahad plak aku kerja evening shift abis kol 11pm.

Selamat bersahur & berpuasa & berbuka puasa =P

Stuff n free stuff =)

2011-08-02T21:38:00.007+10:00

Since last weekend our winter in July has been kinda sunny & today max being 20°c. Can u believe it? 20°c in mid winter!! Hehehe. Nice la, memang rasa cam bernyawa sket. Takde la sejuk & gloomy je senantiasa.

Last Sunday jalan2 time senja nak gi Bunnings. This is at Atkinson Rd/ Princes Hwy intersection.

Some of the days we spent with jalan-jalan around the block. Amik udara segar, takde la terperap je dalam rumah & suffocate ourselves with the inside heated air. Aku slalu je bukak tingkap dapur & open all the blinds if I'm at home. Hubby je ada sedikit anti-social suka dok dlm gelap & terperam. Haha.

Ada lagi bright coloured flowers in mid winter ni. I'm excited!

Aku tido lepas Subuh tadi coz tak dapat tido early since first day puasa. Maybe coz of balik lambat during my evening shift last week. Bangun today pon around 2pm. Hehehe. Buruks eh perangai. Tapi takpe, coz aku bukan anak dara lagi. Harharharharhar!! Ok la tu, sementara off beberapa hari ni, then kerja balik on Thursday half day di waktu petang then arvo shift from Friday to Sunday. Next week a.m. shift frm Wednesday 'til Sunday. Agak2 boleh tahan tak aku ni puasa & kerja di ED? Agak2 kuat tak iman kerja di ED sepanjang bulan puasa ni? Heheheheh.. tepuk perut tanya selera yg tak seberapa ni kan.

Oh btw, ni aku jumpa dlm mailbox tadi masa amik surat2. Bagus2.. banyak benefitnye tu. Hahahaha.
Hari ni aku berjaya masak mee goreng aku yg kureng sedap tu. I think boleh tahan sampai pagi Khamis kot.
Btw, mebbie aku akan stay up lagi kot mlm ni so that aku boleh study sambil ngunyah... (nampaknye gemuks la aku bulan puasa ni).
Ciao.
Selamat berterawih & bersahur esok pagi.

Salam Ramaddhan 1432H

2011-08-02T17:04:00.002+10:00

Salam Ramaddhan 1432H to all.
Semoga kita diberi kekuatan & ketenangan & keberkatan di bulan yg mulia ini.

Aku kat sini puasa start semalam. Sahur subuh kol 550am (kira imsak kol 540am la kan) & buka puasa kol 533pm semalam. Kelmarin masak nasi lemak so kami dinner, buka puasa, sahur with nasi lemak.

Hari ni buka puasa kol 534pm. Nasi lemak dah abis, tinggal sesudu sambal & sesuap ikan bilis. Tak tau nak masak apa yet. Its still early kalau ikut time zone M'sia kan. So aku ingat nak masak mee goreng jap lagi. Senang, simple. Hubby dah lama gi uni for his post grad. His classes slalunye on Tuesday evenings & Wednesday evenings. So dia dah bawak bekal awal2 lagi. Kesian dia tak dpt buka puasa sama & rasa my mee goreng.

Oh, lama gilaaaaa tak jengah my blog ni. Seperti biasa alasan lapuk tapi bagi aku sangat valid. Busy study (konon!!) for my part 1 ACEM exam which is in Feb 2012. Busy kerja with all sorts of presentations & teaching. And also malas. And also some personal reasons that mengsengalkan jiwa ragaku since the past few months.
Plannye nak amik exam this August which kalau ikut plan asal akan berlangsung on the 5th Aug. Plan asal nak amik exams Physiology & Pharmacology. But setiap kali aku study Pharmacology especially rasa cam nak muntah abis. So hard & soooooo detailed. Ingat time uni je kena study. La ni study for specialist exams pon lagi dasyat. Arrgghh. So aku & my study partner Dr. BB agreed on amik subjects lain plak iaitu Anatomy & Pathology since mebbie Anatomy senang sket coz pix & functions of the structures je kena hafal & Pathology plak sikit je syllabus dia. Hopefully kami boleh blajar dgn lebih tenang & bagus & berjaya dgn cemerlang.

Okay, selamat berbuka puasa. Ciao.

Lama gila tak update...

2011-06-25T10:29:00.002+10:00

Whooaaa... lama gila tak update. Besar punye vitamin 'M' dalam diri, sampaikan nak study & buat housework pon malas.

Well, just got back frm night shift. Its a crisp sunny morning. Not too cold, just cool enough & just nice coz ada sunlight. Memang sedap kalau nak baring2 bawah matahari sambil berselimut & dengar music & minum hot chocolate. Aaaahhh bahagia sungguh kalau dapat buat gitu. Tambah2 lagi kalau ada laut depan mata or tasik ke or gunung-ganang ke. Indah nian...

Aku singgah Chadstone mall tadi on the way back, gi collect menda free frm Biotherm. Dapat voucher utk cuba their new energy series frm Myer One. So aku apa lagi, semangat gila print voucher kat spital tadi. Maklum la nak dpt menda free, aku mmg suka menda free nih. Hehhehhee.

Time to tido now. Aku dah brapa kali dah janji konon-konon nak citer my ups & downs life in the past few months. Tapi tu la besar punye vitamin M dalam diri.

Malam ni & malam esok kerja. Rabu depan prezentation, yg mana aku yet to complete the power point. Heh.
See ya sooooon.

Giler malas

2011-06-08T18:53:00.003+10:00

Gila malas nak update nowadays. Bukan apa. Jari2 aku sejuk now utk menaip. Dah tu now busy study plus macam2 presentations & projects sempena dah jadi registrar now. Aku ada byk stuff to write, mostly isu2 basi (hahhahahha). Banyak jugak pics sempena last autumn & now winter. Tu lah, asal musim sejuk je sure aku ada seasonal kemurungan, and especially all-year-syndrome-malas membiak dgn gamaknye. Apa ntah kan. So far alhamdulillah tak berapa murung lagi.

Alang2 bday aku dah lepas berminggu-minggu dah meh aku luahkan apa aku nak utk bday aku. List exclusive utk diri sendiri, since sapa je la lagi nak kasi hadiah dah tua2 gini melainkan diri sendiri kan. Ni dia:
- Basikal best: nak senaman sambil menikmati ciptaan Allah swt kat luar sana tu.
- Elip machine: boleh senaman dlm rumah or kat luar rumah time malas. also good min impact exercise, kalau parents aku dtg boleh diorang senaman guna tu je.
- Spa & massage trip somewhere yg best.
- Last year's list still valid. Haha, esp those yg involve makanan. Hahaha.

Aku ada dapat bday gifts from some of my closest frens, terima kasih byk2. Hehehehe. Rasa cam nak gelak gediks. Hubby plak kasi iPad ngehngehngehngeh. Nanti2 aku letak gambar.

I'm working night shifts this week. My study grp with Dr. BB is like ntah apa2 je. Masing2 lain timetable, kinda difficult to meet up. Dah 3minggu kami slack gila. Tambah2 lagi now musim MasterChef Au musim ke-3. Aargghh.. cam mana nak amik exam ni.

Happy Winter 2011

2011-06-01T11:34:00.002+10:00

Selamat winter all. Alhamdulillah pembukaan winter tahun ni ada some sunshine even when I got back frm the hospital around 1am dah foggy gila. Masa drive tu rasa cam drive thru ghost town je coz semua senyap sunyi, & kalau ada kereta berselisih tetiba rasa cam berdebar2. hahaha.

This is my 10th winter here in Melbourne. First time in my life rasa cam nak embrace winter :P mebbie coz of the sunny morning & vibrant colours of falling leaves kot, despite the super cold nights & early mornings. Kan best kalau winter cam gini selalu. Takde la hidup aku ni merana je sepanjang 10 thn yg lalu.. hmmm.. or mebbie this is a sign of worsening global warming.. huhuhuhu...

Anyways, hafta get ready to work now.

AKU KATA TAK NAK, TAK NAK LAA!

2011-05-31T09:56:00.004+10:00

Selamat Hari Tanpa Tembakau Sedunia hari ini 31st May 2011.
Say no to ROKOK okay everyone. Ni segment dari Encik Ben Ashaari utk hari ini: http://www.benashaari.com/2011/05/segmen-24-jam.html AKU KATA TAK NAK, TAK NAK LAA!

I grew up with abah enforcing cigarettes memang a big NO!, dia siap bubuh no smoking signs around the house. So dari kecik until now being a doc myself I have got a whole list of why I HATE ROKOK so much.

1. Sebagai org Islam, rasanye dah byk kali kuar fatwa with all the dalils & discussions yg rokok ni HARAM!

2. Rokok itu busuk & kasi gigi + kuku kuning lagi jijiks.

3. Bazir bakar duit. Rasanye kalau kumpul2 duit yg guna utk bayar duit rokok kalau org tu rokok sehari 20batang selama 10 thn.. fuh.. boleh beli sebiji rumah agaknye. Membazir tu amalan setaaaan!!

4. Dari segi pathology, time postmortem lepas org tu dah mati, seriously menjijikskan. With the lungs yg hitam clogged with tar & all sorts of racun, blood vessels dia tersumbat & hitam jugak, jantung yg sangat rosak, buah pinggang yg smashed & hitam, liver yg dasyat, etc.. seriously jijiks.

5. Semua org tau yg rokok ni punca pelbagai penyakit.. COPD, cancer, cardiovascular diseases, kidney diseses, brain diseases, etc termasukla psychosocial issues. Selalunye org2 yg isap rokok ni either oblivious ignorant or rasa diri dia kebal immune.

6. Bagi aku org yg merokok ni sangat selfish. Lantak pi kalau kau memang tak sayang diri sendiri nak sakit sendiri & hidup merana. But very very selfish & such a useless moron kalau kau tak pedulikan org yg sayang kat kau. Bila kau sakit kau nyusahkan keluarga. Bila kau mati kalau kaya-raya & mati sekelip mata tak perlu jaga di saat-saat akhir tu takpe la jugak takde la family terabai, tapi ni nyusahkan keluarga yg selama ni bergantung kat diri kau for support. Bengong!

7. Again about them being useless & selfish. Aku terpaksa berdepan dgn org yg tgh isap rokok or lalu depan org yg isap rokok rasa cam nak ludah je kat muka diorang. Kalau korang nak sorang2 kasi hitam ur heart & lungs sila buat kat tpt lain yg takde makhluk Allah swt yg lebih menghargai ciptaanNYA. Aku tak perlukan korang ni nak kasi hitam organ dalaman aku. Org yg tak smoke tapi dok dekat org yg smoke akan kena penangan adverse effect just like those who smoke. This is proven by many studies.

8. Again about them being useless & selfish. Seriously menyusahkan aku & doctor2 lain nak treat those patients yg sakit disebabkan rokok. Aku menyampah gila, kejap2 datang spital sakit itu-ini terhegeh-hegeh nak kasi sihat balik. Masa tahun2 sudah org suruh berhenti time tgh sihat degil amat. Now nyusahkan the healthcare system nak treat something thats not reversible.. pendek kata.. toooooo late, mate! Pas tu boleh lagi demand kerajaan mintak healthcare kasi free nak treat these people. Tak layak! Bazir juta2 duit taxpayers money nak treat these not-worth-it patients. Kalau guna duit kau sorang takpe, ni guna duit rakyat jelata lain.

9. Again about them being useless & selfish. Pencemaran alam sekitar & memusnahkan bumi. In short, menyusahkan makhluk Allah yg lain juz coz ur selfishness & retarded acts.

10. Tak kira la kau sapa kat dunia ni (even doctors sekalipon), kalau kau merokok ( and amik other substances including alcohol ) kau memang tak layak utk terima apa-apa nikmat kehidupan seperti kasih-sayang, respect, etc. Org mebbie tak bersikap kurang ajar kat kau pada pandangan kau, tapi dalam hati (kalau org tu tak menghina kau or doakan kau cepat mati) org tu mungkin tgh berusaha utk kesiankan ur stoopidity & supaya kau cepat insaf utk kesejahteraan mahkluk Allah yg lain.

Tu dia...
U guys can say I'm heartless or kureng ajar ke apa, realitinya korang yg isap rokok ni memang selfish, stoopid & slack (dalam perkataan yg sopan buat tatapan umum).
Harap-harap segera la insaf.. kalau tak sayang makhluk lain dalam dunia ni, blajar la sayang kat diri sendiri tu sebelum terlambat...

bedsay =)

2011-05-25T02:03:00.005+10:00

Happy XXth birthday untuk aku pada 25th May 2011.

Cake & cookies idaman aku tak kisah yg mana coz aku cuma suka ratah icing sugarnye saja. Hehehhehe.. dan jugak coklatnye kalau ada coklat, dan jugak cherrynye kalau ada cherry. =P

Ucapan untuk diri sendiri...

sayangi diri sendiri dahulu sebelum menyayangi orang lain, coz when all things fall apart hanya diri sendiri yg left to stand for yourself...

Love me..

(posting long overdue :P hehe).

Al-Fatihah buat arwah nenek...

2011-05-16T21:57:00.002+10:00

Pagi tadi dapat phone call & sms frm my parents, that my dad's mum meninggal dunia before Subuh tadi.
:'(

Al-Fatihah buat arwah Hajijah bt Kasim. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama-sama orang-orang yg beriman & dicucuri rahmatNYA.

I doakan my dad stay strong. I will alwiz doakan u & mum & our family & the rest of umat Islam sentiasa diberkati Allah swt.

Ambo ride

2011-05-11T13:37:00.004+10:00

Semalam punye la busy kat ED. Initially tak le busy mana, and I had to see one of the DEMTs (Director of Emergency Medicine Training) about my coming exam. That already took almost an hour, which was fine coz it means less time on the floor. Hahahaha.. bunyi agak pemalas kan? Memang sangat-sangat demoralized lately (... erk.. slalu pon gini).

First patient I took was a stroke patient. Symptoms was dysphasia. Mid-age lady in her 60s. Admitted under neurology.
2nd one was another stroke. Wah, back to back stroke cases aku dapat.
Youngish man 50yrs old, came in with total right hemiparesis, aphasic, poor comprehension, projectile vomiting. Hantar straight to CT scan of the brain + perfusion scan (circle of Willis), but he only got the plain CT brain. Kureng betul radiographer tak buat perfusion scan. Turned out to be dia ada haemorrhagic stroke: large left subcortical bleed injecting into the ventricle.. in another word, bad bleed that causes irreversible damage.. needs to be evacuated.

The wife was present, kesian, diorang takde sapa kat bumi Aussie ni coz both r frm the UK.
Anyway, he was stable all through out ED stay. We had to transfer him to St. Vincent's hospital coz kat spital aku takde neurosurgery specialty. First time aku ikut as an escort in a patient transfer. Dok dalam ambulance.

Seriously kagum & excited, even though seram jugak coz takut patient to crash on me while on the way. I guess the only things yg aku mampu buat as a junior doc at that point ialah airway management & aku boleh intubate (Alhamdulillah). Sebelum bertolak tu aku dah sediakan all the resuscitation drugs in my hand + the resus bag (yg berat nak mampos) dah sedia ada to come with me for the journey. The bosses kasi aku taklimat & nasihat sebelum pergi coz aku tak pernah pegi ikut inter-hospital transfer ni. The deputy of ED puan prof cam ragu2 nak kasi aku pegi coz aku sangat junior in my training. Tapi the bosses yg suruh aku pegi tu relax je ckp this is a perfect opportunity for me to learn. Thanks bosses for believing in me (at the time when I really needed the support).
Sepanjang perjalanan gi St. Vincent's aku sentiasa check his blood pressure. Despite him doesnt have blood pressure issues, he was hypertensive on presentation up to 220/115, which is quite a common complication of a haemorrhagic stroke. We gave him hydralazine, GTN patch, those brought down the BP to a stable 170/100, even though we alwiz like the BP to be below 160 systolic & 90 diastolic. Tapi at the same time tak nak drop the BP too quickly too much coz tak nak other unwanted complications to the already injured brain.
Oh ye, one nurse yg looked afta the patient kat ED kata I deserve a pat on the shoulder coz berjaya masukkan a large bore cannula 16G kat patient tu masa sumer org failed to get another access. Bangga la jugak :P Selalunye case yg critical like this we like to have 2 secure IV access, 1 has to be a large one of minimum size 18G.

St. Vincent's hospital is in the city, sampai-sampai je aku sangat kagum dgn hospital besar banyak tingkat tu. The neurosurgery registrar sambut kami dgn baiknye, he was nice on the phone. Naik terus ke tingkat 10. Cantiknyeeeee ward kat spital ni. Nice view of Melbourne city. Rasa cam nak tukar specialty training supaya dapat dok kat tingkat atas2 of the hospital to have this kind of beautiful view. Terlupa kejap pasal patient haemorrhagic stroke aku ni. Hehehe.

Anyway, it was a short trip from Box Hill Hospital ED to St. Vincent's Hospital. ~15-20minutes je, despite the ambo was running at the speed limit coz hujan lebat. And my hospital kasi aku taxi voucher to come back to ED, and my au$40 worth of trip back was free. =) Seram gak tunggu sorang-sorang kat luar ED St. Vincent's tu for the cab. St. Vincent's terkenal sebagai catchment hospital for psych + substance abuse people. Habis baju aku bau asap rokok coz masa tunggu kat luar tu ramai sungguh org kuar masuk hisap rokok kat pintu luar despite kat situ besar gila sign takleh merokok.
The whole trip pegi-transfer-balik took only ~1 hour. Boleh dikatakan my only exciting case on yesterday shift. Sampai ED Box Hill dlm kol 11pm. 1 jam je lagi until my shift nak abis.

The whole case is kinda a sad one, but very satisfying personally & professionally, and aku bersyukur aku involved in this. I cannot imagine if that happens to my family, let alone my partner. Na'udzubillah. Sedih jugak aku memikirkan how that wife nak look afta her husband yg dah non-verbal & sebelah badan lumpuh, with no family support around. Kalau orang tanya aku sekarang sanggup tak aku jaga a family member kalau jadi cam ni, of course, aku sanggup. It will be difficult, no doubt. But for love, I'll do it, and semoga Allah swt bagi aku & my family kekuatan if this ever happend.

Aku doakan semoga all of us diberi kesihatan yg baik, keimanan yg kuat supaya kami tak lupa kepadaNya, and diberi kesedaran jaga diri baik2 for now. Amin.

Now kena get ready to work.

Recap minggu lepas

2011-05-09T09:18:00.003+10:00

Wah, dah masuk bulan May. My month =) *winks* Jangan lupa 25th May ini (hehehhehhee, kenyit2 mata sambil sengeh2 ngada2).

Anyways, busy gila last week at work. Team kerja malam tak best. The replacement that the HR got (finally!) tak best. Patients yg aku jumpa pon tak best, except the one yg kena hantar pi ICU due to septic shock. Handovers frm the evening docs lagi la ntah apa2. Heh.

On Saturday evening I went to visit Dr. HAK sempena esok ni dia nak gi buat rotation 3 bulan di Bairnsdale which is ~3+ hours frm Melbourne, ntah brapa ratus km mebbie dlm 300km kot. Tak tau la aku dpt visit dia ke tak kat Bairnsdale whoop whoop nun coz aku pon dah nak exam in August, which is the end of her rotation there. And segala social activities buat masa ni rasa dah terpadam dari my list of wants for now. Kesian jugak aku ngan Dr. HAK terpaksa pegi ke whoop whoop nun, as semua org tau whoop whoop is a bit mencabar dari segi orangnye, kemudahannye, socialnye, unless if u r not wearing tudung lah kan.

Aku asik tido tak menentu recovering frm night shift baru ni. Pagi ni bangun kol 4am. Lepas solat Subuh aku dok memasak coz mlm tadi penat gila tak jadi masak. Teringin nak makan roti canai dgn kari ayam.

Kari ayam dgn sayur goreng

Sejuk bangat minggu lepas & minggu ni. Walaupon ada matahari tapi brrrr... sejuks. Lapis2 aku pakai plus heater pon on jugak. Ni last night aku snapshot the weather forcast minggu ni. Tengok yg aku bulatkan tu apsal rasa sejuk even tho temperature dlm belas2 °C. Harap-harapnye pokok2 cili aku tu hidup la sampai next seasons.Oh ye, layan je la gambar2 yg aku amik kat garden aku sempena minggu lepas yg sangat sejuk, rasa cam winter dah.

Tak tau pokok besar apa kat front lawn

2 jenis bunga yg sama

Pokok renek

Pokok jiran sebelah yg dah togel, tinggal bunga2 tu je

Okay, time to study. Petang ni start kerja kol 4pm abes midnight. Minggu ni kerja evening shift until Monday depan. Quiz pasal neuro + muscle stuff on Thursday arvo ni. Huhuhuhu...

Bila pagar makan padi..

2011-05-03T21:47:00.003+10:00

Sebenarnye tajuk tu aku nak bubuh, bila HR/ admin buat onar.. hehhehe.. tapi cam obvious sgt plak.

Minggu ni aku kerja night shifts abis pagi Jumaat. Malam tadi bengong sungguh. HR tak ganti doctors for night shift this week. Padahal diorang dah tau yg sorang tu on annual leave, and lagi sorang tu plak diorang dah ada org tapi diorang double shifts kan dia & bila dia tanya HR ckp gi kat lagi satu spital je. So tinggal aku & sorang lagi senior registrar kerja last night, menghadapi all the silly cases plus beribu2 patients waiting. Most patient yg aku jumpa sumer had been waiting for 6-8 hours already. Memang menyampah abis jugak esp. bila ada patient's family yg sengal2. Hahaha. Tapi tu setiap hari lah kan. Yang lebih menyengalkan ialah hal HR bodo tu, & some nurses bengong jugak pemalas. Kesian 1 consultant was called in to work the whole night. Kesian jugak 2 evening registrars stayed 3-4hours longer than they should, diorang dah kerja non-stop for 10hours already that evening. Sure mereng time diorang balik rumah kol 3-4 pagi tu.

Okay ayat aku mmg ntah apa-apa. Kesimpulannye utk kali ini:
= HR bengong dlm hal cari replacement for the leaves, despite they've known this for months/weeks.

Kutuk2 the nurses, the system & the AU government tu lain kali je la aku sambung. Hehhehehe. Dah byk kali pon aku kutuk diorang dlm blog ni.

Anyways, now nak get ready gi kerja. Hope malam ni ada la replacement for docs. Kalau tak mati la lagi like last night.

Wake up callSS

2011-04-29T11:59:00.003+10:00

Work:
Semalam pergi this intensive exam course tutorial kat spital prior to starting my shift in the evening. A few of us missed the Physiology course coz of some confusion in the location & time & stuff. We went to the Pharmacology one. All I can say is that its really a big wake up call for me. All other docs who were there dah study & diorang boleh jawab soalan bila the tutor grilled us, but not me. Like alwiz aku memalukan diri sendiri lagi... aku memang tak study langsung. Tak boleh pay attention in the past few months. Now ada lagi 3 months to go before the written exam. And definitely hafta make decision & payment before end of June 2011. My study partner plak kat M'sia pasal ada kenduri tahlil family dia. Dah la aku ada this stoopid audit thing kena buat for June. Benci la. Aku benci being a very disorganised unmotivated sad person.
Or.. I can choose not to take exams this year, tapi amik exams next Feb instead. That will mean aku boleh celebrate raya this year.. but will also mean that my ED training will be longer & longer & longer. Advanced ED training lagi best dp basic training but u hafta pass the primary exams first before going for advanced training & hence afta advanced training jadi specialist.
Aaarrggh.... bersusah-susah dulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.. & no pain no gain.. huhuhuhu..
:'(
:'(
I HAVE TO STUDY.. HARD!!!

Aku ada sedikit friction dgn nursing staff at work & mood aku sedikit low jugak. It all happened last week. And biasa la nurses suka bitching about docs & obviously the news spread. Kelmarin ada a few yg perli2 aku pasal tu & aku hampir nangis bila one of the bosses usik2 aku pasal tu. The whole week memang aku takde mood nak kerja. Dah la jumpa patients yg semuanye tak best. Bosan. Aku menyampah gila dgn kaum jururawat ni. Kalau diorang ada disagreement dgn docs satu population nurses akan tau the story & they will naturally go against us. Tapi kalau diorang rude to us & diorang punye pasal, boleh pulak diorang get away with it. Tahi betul! Benci!!!!!
Alhamdulillah ramai lagi nurses yg baik dgn aku & very helpful, yg spesies bitches tu je giving me a hard time at work. Yg baik2 tu masih ramai lagi.. hehehe.. nak je aku ckp kat spesies bitches tu GTH & aku tak kemaruk kasih-sayang korang.. hahaha.
Oh, one case yg broke my heart kelmarin. This budak 3 thn jari terkepit kat pintu pasal adik dia slammed the door. Terputus hujung jari dia. Mula2 tu boss aku panggil aku suruh aku amik case ni coz menda2 cam ni la time critical. Aku suka menda2 category 1 ni. Hehehe. Tapi yg ni aku ada rasa sedikit nak termuntah tgk cross-section of the jari yg dah terputus tu. Seb baik plastic reg cekap & amik the kid to theatre, takde la tunggu lama sangat.
Oh, lagi satu case menarik on Friday. This 13yr old girl jatuh dari skateboard, dia lompat coz nak avoid traffic depan dia & ntah apasal buat split masa jatuh tu. Amazingly takde graze, takde bruise kat mana2. Brought in by ambos, kaki kiri dia internally rotated, she was screaming in pain. And dia takde cervical collar masa dia datang. Dipendekkan cerita, on examination she had midline posterior C6,C7 tenderness & obviously the left hip in pain. On XRays: dia ada left hip posterior dislocation (sangat rare in native hip, slalunye org2 tua with prosthetic hip or in a high impact MVA. Rare jugak coz slalunye kids akan ada fractures first not dislocation coz tendons + muscles diorang lebih kuat than their bones) & some dodgy looking cervical spines. Dia gi theatre for a GA relocation of the hip & ended up having a CT spine + hip to check if any fractures. Alhamdulillah takde fracture.

Life:
Last weekend aku gi Art Gallery kat Melbourne city with hubby. Best. Lotsa pics. Nanti2 aku bubuh gambar sini.

Malam tadi balik frm work aku ditahan oleh kereta police. Aku ingat aku dah speeding ke langgar lampu merah ke apa. Tak la pulak seingat aku. Takde la penat mana masa drive mlm tadi pon. Ada la police tu flash aku suruh aku stop. Macam biasa la, memang takut & berdebar-debar & doa byk2 dlm hati supaya tak kena saman ke apa. Diorang cakap random check. So aku kena alcohol breathyliser tu & diorang check driver liscense aku. Aku kasitau diorang aku baru balik frm shift kat spital bila diorang tanya apa aku buat driving lewat cam gini. Ye la masa tu dah kol 12++ dekat kol 1pagi.
Nyampah jugak coz kereta aku slalu kena tahan utk random check. Setahu aku aku takde la drive cam hoons.. cuma cekap je (chewah.. ahhahaha). Mebbie pasal kereta aku hitam & berkilat tu la pasal diorang ingat aku ni kaki racer kot. Hahhahahahah. Yeah, right...

Esok last day aku nyer a month beauty at work. Bagus la tu. Aku dah sangat bosan dgn the same set of make ups every single day to work. Nak muntah jugak each time sebelum gi kerja kena guna that same set again & again, even tho bila kuar aku pakai make up set lain.
Maybe in the coming few days aku akan post the final results of this.

Okay, time to get ready to work. Ciao.

Long weekends... for others =(

2011-04-23T15:27:00.006+10:00

This weekend is a long weekend for those yg tak kerja macam aku. Semalam Good Friday, then today ni cuti Easter Saturday kot. Esok Easter Sunday. Then Monday ialah ANZAC day. Tuesday ialah cuti umum in lieu of Easter Sunday. Aku kerja semalam & cuti 3 hari, then kerja balik on Tuesday.

I was working morning shifts frm Wed til Friday. Patut morning shifts lagi hari ni & esok, tapi aku dah swapped shifts with some colleagues coz hari tu konon plan nak gi Adelaide sempena Easter. Tapi dah tak jadi since TTM emergency balik M'sia. So sempena cuti ni baik aku isikan dgn hal-hal kerja & study since exams pon dah semakin dekat.

Hari ni hubby gi meronggeng dgn member dia kat city. Aku ingat nak study. Lepas buang masa main internet rasa cam lapar plak. So aku dgn semangatnye jalan kaki ke Chadstone mall coz saja nak senaman. Teringin nak minum Boost juice. One of the bosses kata kita kena make time utk senaman, kasi otak lebih tenang, fresh & sane. Seperti biasa aku amik gambar sepanjang jalan pergi & balik. Walaupon nampak cam ada matahari tapi sejuk manjang & kejap mendung kejap cerah. Pagi tadi masa aku bgn tu 9°c. Weather forecast kata hari ni 22°c. Tapi aku tengok temperature 12°c-14°c. Tu lah, kita hanya merancang.. Allah swt menentukan...

Sunyi je sepanjang jalan. Nampak sangat warga Chadstone ni kuar, either shopping (coz mall tadi penuh bangat ngan manusia, seb baik aku jalan kaki!), or balik kampung, or lepak2 kat mana bukan kat rumah diorang. So boleh la aku ngendap sket2 amik gambar tumbuhan kat luar garden orang.

Masa aku tengah terbongkok-bongkok amik gambar ni la si hanjing yg free dp leash tuan dia dok kejar aku. Siot. Aku pon lari cam org gila. Tuan punye hanjing boleh plak gelakkan aku. Aku dalam hati berkata.. 'siot.. nyesal ngendap bunga kat luar pagar rumah org!' But, its worth it, bunga purple ni sangat cute & cantik.

Ajaib bunga ni ada plak kembang kat luar pagar rumah aku even tho now dah sejuks. Ni mesti pasal ada cahaya matahari sejak awal minggu ni.

Oh, now dah terasa sakit kaki plak. Nampak sgt lama dah tak senaman. Dah la kena kejar ngan si hanjing bodo tu. Eh, bukan. Sakit pasal aku jatuh kat sepital semalam gara-gara rebut kerusi dgn resident buncit sorang ni. Adoih..

Lagi cupcakes

2011-04-15T03:27:00.007+10:00

Teringin nak buat something nak bawak gi spital sempena kerja malam weekends ni. Bukan apa, like I sed before, kerja malam ni kalau bukan kat ED or ICU memang sangat daunting & dreadful. Kadang-kadang nurse2 rajin plak bawak biskut, kek, jemput2 India, chips, etc. So aku terasa nak jadi rajin buat something kali ni sebab aku kena stay up sepanjang malam ni sempena nak tido seharian esok nih.

Bertungkus-lumus aku cari recipe kat internet. Hari tu punye butter icing ada lagi, tapi nak tukar lain plak. Makanye, dengan gabungan pelbagai recipe di internet, campur dgn available ingredients, so terjadi la recipe ni.

Chocolate cupcakes
(kalau bekas cupcake besar dapat 24, kalau bekas cupcake mini dapat 36).

Ingredients:
- 1 3/4 cup of plain flour
- 1 tsp baking soda
- 3/4 cocoa powder
- 1 cup brown sugar
- 1/2 cup caster sugar
- 1 tbs granulated coffee
- 1/4 tsp salt
- 2 eggs (besar punya!)
- 1 cup fresh milk (aku guna full cream)
- 1/2 cup vegie oil (aku guna canola oil)
- 3/4 boiling water

Steps:
- Sift all the dry ingredients together in a mixing bowl.
- Add in all the wed ingredients in the bowl, except for the boiling water. Beat until mixed well.
- Panaskan oven suhu 175°C/ 350°F (fan oven, adjust ikut oven masing).
- Add in the boiling water (the batter will look slightly watery, but dont worry). Beat until mixed well.
- Tuang 1/2 cup of each of the cupcake punye sarung.
- Masukkan dalam oven, bake for 25-30mins (depending on the oven).
- Dah masak biarkan sejuk sebelum hias guna icing or apa2 saja.

Orange Icing:
- Mix orange juice + icing sugar sampai jadi paste. Add in some orange zest/ orang peel. Sudukan atas cupcake yg dah sejuk tadi. Hias dgn either dessicated coconut or orange peel ikut kreativiti masing2.

Hasilnye:

Batch pertama, sungguh tak senonoh rupenye, hasil dari aku dengan
super enthusiastic & gigih taruh batter sampai tak sedar dah sampai kat atas!

Batch kedua. Okay la. Tapi still benjol-benjolan.
Batch ketiga lebih kurang batch kedua.

Hasil usaha taruh orange icing. Selekeh abis.
Cuba kira brapa biji je tinggal? Aku dah curi-curi makan some masa dekor tadi.

Tengok rupa dia yg kureng senonoh.

Lagi rupe yg kureng. Hehhehee.

Selepas dah hias dgn kulit orange yg kena grate

Okay la tu kan, nampak la sket presentable

Orenku yg dah togel

Aaaahh.. aku tak kira, diorang kat spital tu malam karang kena makan gak despite rupa dia yg selekeh. Aku dah buat penat-penat nih tadi. Hahahahahhaha. Yakin sedap & halal! Hahahhahahahaahhahahaha.. (ketawa mengilai yg gediks.. wek!).

Aku bukan seorang pembuat dessert yg pro. Sebab slalu tak minat. Aku cuma reti buat makanan savoury/ lauk-pauk yg aku suka saja. Cuma skali skala nak buat coz teringin nak makan. Ikut recipe di atas kek jadi gebu pon gebu, sedap pon sedap. Mebbie next time aku kena kurangkan sket lagi gula & tambah sket lagi choc or guna other forms of choc kasi lagi rasa choc. And next time aku nak kurangkan sket coffee & hot water tu nak tengok apa jadi. Or next time aku nak gantikan vegie oil tu dgn butter, pon nak tengok apa jadi.

Geram aku apsal cupcakes aku jadi bonjol-bonjol gitu, apsal dia tak flat je. Is there something wrong with my recipe or is it me. Geram.. geram.. geram.. seb baik rasanye sedap. Heh. Kena cari tips nak kasi cupcakes aku flat supaya senang nak decor.

Hujan sajerk!

2011-04-13T15:53:00.007+10:00

This is the kind of weather that we had in summer last December. Sejuk manjang, gloomy gelap gelita, hujan mencurah-curah (basuh kereta free dgn hujan acid.. hehehhe). And we had very very little nice warm sunny weather all through out summer until now dah pertengahan autumn. Alhamdulillah in summer takde kejadian bad bush fire, ada je tapi not as bad as during the 2009 Black Saturday ones. Tapi masalah ribut taufan banjir pulak in these 2 seasons. Disebabkan hujan manjang bulan ni some Victorian suburbs dah menghadapi banjir. Hari tu bulan Feb dah banjir besar merata-rata. Harap-harap kali ni tak le banjir byk sgt cam gitu kalau nak banjir pon.
Anyways, Alhamdulillah tempat tinggal tak pernah lagi banjir even though terletak di bawah bukit, Alhamdulillah hospital tpt aku kerja pon tak pernah lagi banjir coz dia kat atas bukit. Cuma jalan di antara rumah & hospital je slalu banjir even tho nak ke spital tu kena lalu lereng bukit panjat bukit.

Tengok aaa ni, kalau hujan manjang gini & sejuks, kalau nak basuh baju nampaknye kena jemur all the laundry dlm rumah sambil pasang central heating pas tu jemur dlm bilik2 yg ada direct central heating. Kiranye satu rumah jadi dryer lah.
Hujan-hujan ni buat aku rasa merana je sentiasa. Sejuk! Rindu family aku, rindu the sunshine. Aku rasa aku ni ada seasonal depression.

Amik gambar guna camera LX5 hubby. Gambar weeds kat blakang rumah lepas hujan.

Ni plak kat depan rumah sebelum hujan tadi. Ada lagi weeds &
the bunga rose dari pokok renek tu.

Tangan aku yg kena needle stick injury mlm kelmarin dah hampir baik even though masih pedih-pedih lagi. Aku memang sookie dlm hal-hal sakit-sakit ni kalau kena kat diri sendiri (heh, pas tu bleh lagi kutuk patient ngada-ngada kan.. hehehhe).

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Ni dinner masak tadi. Sup daging.

Makan dengan the left overs smalam. Aku teringin nak makan soup, dari smalam lagi terbayang-bayang soup. Nak cicah dgn roti, or makan dgn meehoon, or makan dgn nasi putih, or hirup soup saja.
So aku pon masak la. Yang sedihnye hubby setitik pon tak rasa soup ni. Mebbie dia dah bosan dgn with my cooking kot. Oh well...

And aku teringin nak gi movie dengan hubby. Movie 'The Diary of A Wimpy Kid 2' baru kuar sini. Ingat nak gi esok lepas Maghrib. Initially hubby sed he'd think about it. After a few hours dia kata dia dia busy & akan balik lambat esok malam.
Oh well...
Esok petang ada tutorial. Mebbie lepas tutorial aku akan ke cinema sorang2 tengok apa movie yg available.

Needle stick injury

2011-04-12T22:10:00.004+10:00

Semalam the work started smoothly in the first few hours, then got crazy after aku makan dinner. Kerja macam biasa la, dengan patients mengahnye, dengan boss mengahnye lagi. Hish... Anyways, aku noticed ramai org pakai baju biru smalam termasuk la aku. Comel! Aku la yg comel tu. Hahhahaha. Tapi malangnye takde amik gambar coz aku memang senantiasa sampai kerja lambat. Aku nyer image tu stylishly late all the time... tapi aku tak suka lambat! Kena berusaha lagi nampaknye.

Okay, sudah-sudah aku merepek.
Ni nak citer smlm aku terkena needle stick injury kat tempat kerja. Lepas fixing jari manusia ni yg tercedera dgn gelinye selepas masukkan jadi dalam blender yg tengah berpusing. Patient tu kata dia lupa nak off kan blender tu. Cheh! Dah la huduh amat kerosakan jari dia, sampai aku naik mual masa tengah repair tu. Hehehehe. Anyways, aku terkena needle yg aku dah guna utk ring block jari dia. Lupa nak buang kat sharp container lepas guna tu. Kelam kabut la jugak nak kena buat blood test dari patient tu, dari aku jugak. Coz nak tengok patient tu ada HIV/AIDs, hep B, C ke tak & akunyer hep B immunization up to date ke tak. Seb baik la patient tu my last patient. Aku suruh member aku amik darah aku. And aku dgn ngada-ngadanye stress gila masa amik darah tu bukan apa takut needle. Hehehhehee.
Aku balik pas habis shift, pas tu spital call aku kata patient tu -ve of all those nasty blood-borne diseases. Lega aku.
Bahaya kalau terkena darah patient. Kita tak tau diorang ni dah terkena penyakit berjangkit ntah apa2. Esp. kat negara maju cam ni yg byk sangat gejala social seperti IV drug use & promiscuous people, you never know kan. So memang kena berhati-hati sangat. Tak dapat aku bayangkan kalau aku kena penyakit berbahaya berjangkit ni semata-mata of my clumsiness at work. Na'uzubillah!

Tapi yg buat aku takleh tido smlm coz aku rasa aku slow gila & lembap sgt, sehingga menjadi a disappointment to the bosses smalam. Nuthing kills my self esteem other than rasa diri ni inadequate/ bodo/ lembap/ useless & also menjadi disappointment to the people around me esp. those that I care... :'( :'(

Rasa cam tak nak gi kerja lagi dah.
Hari ni bangun amat lambat & decided to buang masa (dan $$ for retail therapy kat Myer Melbourne city). Cita-cita nak dinner kat city dgn hubby, so aku dress up la beria-ria, tapi tak sempat amik gambar coz bergerak dp sini pon dah arvo. Tapi hubby nak balik rumah coz nak buat homework, so aku gi beli je la food kat kedai halal di city nun & bawak balik dinner dgn hubby kat rumah saja.

Esok Wednesday ni cuti lagi. Then ada tutorial on Thursday pas tu aku night shift on Friday, Saturday & Sunday abis pagi Isnin. Esok masih ada masa utk aku berusaha utk menambah ilmu di dada & memulihkan my self-esteem.
Semoga hari esok lebih baik dari hari ini.

My chillies

2011-04-08T15:34:00.005+10:00

Ni cili besar yg aku petik kat blakang rumah tadi. Such a nice weather, buat aku rasa nak jadi petani. Laundry basket dah kosong aku abis basuh sumer in the past few days. Puas hati bila tengok kain-kain sumer kering & segar.
Cili padi blom besar & merah lagi, plus byk putik2 cili padi. So takde cili padi this week. Aku baru sembur racun kat pokok cili aku coz byk sgt semut2 & telur2nye. Abah kata semut2 ni memang suka dok kat pokok cili & diorang suka sedut the sap of the leaves jadi daun dia kedut2. And lama-lama pokok tu bantut/ mati. One of my cili padi trees dah mcm nyawa-nyawa ikan dah. Tu yg aku dgn seronoknye sembur pesticide kelmarin. Geram betul dgn menatang2 ni. Hopefully in the next few weeks ada lagi sisa-sisa cahaya matahari so that aku merasa makan cili padi dari pokok sendiri.

Ni kari udang + sotong aku masak last Sunday. Couplenye biasa la sayur goreng.
Ni plak some cupcake I made last Sunday jugak. Ni choc + orange cupcake.
Teringin nak buat & makan choc cupcake. Rupa dia kureng sket coz first time buat. Rasa dia hmmm... boleh je la. Too sweet to my liking kalau ikut resepi asalnye. Aku tak tau nak agak brapa sudu baking powder kat plain flour, aku main taruh je, so cupcakes tu rasa cam muffin pon ada coz too airy. Dlm resepi tu suruh guna self-raising flour & aku takde self-raising flour. Nanti aku bubuh resepi asal. Next time aku akan bubuh more choc powder & less sugar. I gave some to Dr. HAK coz besday dia last Saturday.

Malam tadi aku masak nasi lemak. Takde gambar coz dah slalu sgt bubuh gambar nasi lemak kat sini. First time aku goreng kacang utk nasi lemak. Biasa la aku malas nak tunggu kat dapur tu, so dah masukkan kacang kat dlm kuali aku dok basuh pinggan mangkuk. Maka hangusla kacang2 tu. Terpaksa dibuang. Goreng lagi yg lain, seb baik okay jadinye. =P

Man, aku teringin nak makan macaroons lagi.

Esok sampai Isnin aku kerja. :'(
Sedih nak tinggalkan rumah ni utk gi kerja, sedih nak tinggalkan hubby sorang-sorang kat rumah.

Love is...

2011-04-06T15:51:00.005+10:00

Not quite right in the head & everything, hence I'm at home today.
I was staring at the book shelf when suddenly felt like going thru the stuff in there... found this book that I bought a few years ago but never managed to finish it.. or rather it just sat there collecting dust...

Some of the pages... Most of which remind me of the things that I should have done long time ago...

We tend to take everything around us for granted, just because they are there... and we never appreciate them until they are gone... :'(

"Ya Allah, berilah kami kekuatan menghadapi kehidupan ini. Ya Allah, hanya kepada Engkaulah kami bermohon, hanya kepada Engkaulah kami kembali... Amin."

People, please doakan hubby & I bahagia ke akhir hayat kami...

A month of beauty at work challenge =)

2011-03-31T20:36:00.004+11:00

I purposely woke up late this evening. Well I'm allowed to for the next few days *winks* ahahahha. Duh, enuf sed. hehehehhe.
Malam Selasa was a bad night, & aku moody sepanjang malam, & crap handovers frm the evening docs, & those handovers had to be handed over to the a.m. boss yg urrgghh-aku-nyampah-amat. Kesian my night boss tu terpaksa layan aku nyer moodiness. Aku ye ye ckp kat dia yg aku tak nak datang kerja mlm smlm coz of the crap night, & sebab aku left work at 10++am pagi semalam. Tapi tetiba aku muncul semula mlm smlm. Alhamdulillah mlm smlm not bad at all, & aku more relaxed in terms of my mood & energy. Cases yg best mlm tadi, (okay, not good for the patients, but satisfying for me in terms of my professional development), recurrent ectopic pregnancy, some unwell kids, some weird rheumatology condition. Cases bangang the night before that ialah some dumb nursing home stuff yg nursing home nurses takde logic gi hantar ke ED, this mother bodo yg tak caya anak dia takde pneumothorax siap kureng ajar betul mati-mati nak ajar aku apa itu pleurodesis, dll.

Anyways, seperti biasa menjadi kewajipan aku surf beauty webbies saja cuci mata. Came across one post by this beauty website by a M'sian, MyWomenStuff. Dia nak guna a blusher & an eyeshadow for a month straight & tengok byk mana these 2 items abis. Kebetulan aku tgh 'autumn' clean my make ups/ skincare area. That gave me an idea of challenging myself jugak to use some make up items in my collection yg probably jarang guna, forgotten, or terpaksa ada coz free stuff & sayang nak buang. Byk never-open-never-used stuff aku dah kasi org. Yg aku dah start guna tapi jarang-jarang guna kena start balik guna coz dah terbeli, terdapat, terada dlm collection. Hehehe.

My challenge for myself is a month of a set of beauty items to use every single time I go to work. Nak tengok byk mana abis afta a month. Semalam & pagi tadi balik kerja I've identified some beauty items (susah betul nak pilih!) that I will hopefully use for a month time utk gi kerja. Kalau tak kerja guna barang lain la kan. Kang bosan plak & yg lain2 tu akan sedih nanti. Hahaha.

Ni gambarnye. In the next few days aku akan post citer behind each item plus some swatches/ different combination of make over kalau aku rasa tak malu nak tayang muka. Hahahahha.
This challenge starts today 31st March 2011 & ends on the 30th April 2011.

Ada sapa2 berminat nak join?
Its fun & it helps kita abiskan own stock (then tambah lain afta that) & identify menda-menda yg we used to love but forgotten, also identify mana-mana yg doesnt really work or wont pull it off anymore. Kalau ada masa nak join jugak, jgn lupa linkkan kat entry ni dlm post korang eh, then tinggalkan comment kat sini jugak. And jgn lupa inform aku setiap kali korang update on the make overs/ changes on this challenge. Pastu kalau rajin, tag la kawan-kawan korang.
Aku teringin nak tengok collection korang jugak, & nak blaja/ dapatkan ideas on how to wear beauty products dp korang. My work is so busy, and I love beauty items.. cuma slalunye takde masa nak kembangkan bakat pakai mekap/ skin care & kadang skin condition tukar coz of the weather. Masalahye aku slalu ada byk items (beli, dapat) most of them dilupakan & akhirnye terpaksa buang or kasi org. Sigh!

Jom!

(Nanti aku tag a few people afta balik kerja esok pagi).

Made a fool of myself kat counter pembayaran

2011-03-29T20:54:00.009+11:00

Malam tadi busy amat, & all the docs were tired coz 1st night of 4. Aku terbatuk-batuk all the time, kadang rasa cam bunyi anjing gong gong gong kat luar tu (apologize to meself samakan batuk ni cam binatang haram tu :P).

Nak dijadikan cerita aku dengan semangatnye nak beli groceries balik kerja pagi tadi, memandangkan fridge dah kosong takde sayur-sayur. Freezer pon hampir kosong most daging binatang dah abis. Tapi tu boleh gi beli on the weekends kat halal butcher di Dandenong. Coz dah handover awal, maka aku blah awal. And semangat nak sampai groceries shop kat Chadstone mall nun, walaupon traffic slow ya amat maklumla pagi2 peak time org gi kerja. Dipendekkan cerita, aku dgn semangatnye amik all the fresh morning batch of vegies + fruits kat fresh grocer sana. Time nak bayar bukak-bukak purse baru prasan takde duit, credit card, bank card semualah!! Damn, aku mmg lupa bawak all the important cards + money sebelum gi kerja malam tadi! And dah tentulah aku tak bawak my driving license skali!! Urghh! Malu!!! Aku ckp kat cashier tu, aku tinggalkan bag grocery aku & aku akan datang balik nak gi balik rumah amik purse. Seb baik rumah kat seberang jalan Chadstone mall tu je. Maka terpaksa la aku berlari-lari gi carpark kat tingkat 1 nun, drive balik, amik purse, drive semula ke Chadstone mall & lari semula ke fresh grocer tu. Seb baik aku pelanggan tetap jugak, maka cashier tu baik & simpankan my vegies + fruits kat tepi counter dia. Free-free je senaman pagi-pagi tu lepas night shift. Huhuhu.. Seb baik aku tak ke Clayton or Box Hill Centro. Cam mana nak balik ke Chadstone lagi, then patah balik, kalau jadi cam tu aku terus balik tido je la. Haru.. haru...

Walaupon penat & tak cukup tido lepas kejadian pagi tadi, aku bangun dengan semangat nak masak. Mebbie coz cahaya matahari yg sungguh menyegarkan shining thru the windows. Pagi tadi pon rasa cam sayang je nak tido coz the sun was shining rasa cam hmm... bahagianye hidup.. (hahaha drama plak aku).. tapi tu la, bila ada cahaya matahari aku rasa sangat bahagia.. too bad its now already autumn & winter will follow soon after..

Ni dinner malam ni. Campur daging smlm yg masih byk lagi. Aku sebenarnye teringin sangat nak makan singgang ikan. Tak tau la hubby akan makan ke tak singgang. Nanti satu hari kena try. Aku akhirnye masak asam pedas ikan merah & seperti biasa couplenye ialah sayur goreng biasa-biasa je. Oh ye, smalam lepas bangun aku dapat buku yg aku order. One of the many books yg aku asik2 pinjam kat library asik-asik pulangkan lambat coz aku mmg suka buku-buku ni baca byk kali pon tak puas. One of the easy to read books, sesuai utk org tua cam aku yg dah tahap terkial-kial when revising.
And today akhirnye buku yg aku sangat tunggu-tunggu coz lama dah order thru the net. This book is deceivingly easy to read but sooooo much info in it. Tu yg aku suka tu. Highly recommended to medical persons yg minat physiology.
Anyways, better stop with the net now & continue reading as much as I can before work tonight. Ciao.

Monday blues

2011-03-28T17:26:00.006+11:00

Mengada la plak kan aku ni nak ber-Monday-blues. In my world as an ED registrar i.e. an Emergency Medicine trainee.. takdenye Monda-blues bagai ni. Kalau nak berblues-blues pon slalunye first-shift blues. Semua pasal our work is just random everyweek.

Aku sebenarnye dah tido mebbie around 10-12hours frm 3am pagi tadi. Konon-konon nak stay up until at least 6am, tapi terpadam plak kol 3am tu. Terjaga kol 8am & takleh tido so dok baca supermarket catalogues, kejap je mata aku dah padam balik. Bangun kol 3+pm. It is such a lovely day in the afternoon walaupon pagi tadi foggy & sejuk. Selamat la some rounds of laundry tadi. Esok nampaknye cuaca sangat baik, so boleh la do somemore laundry. And coz aku kerja night shifts minggu ni, terpaksa la tido bertemankan cahaya matahari thru the window.. ish ish.. rugi...

Tadi went for a walk with hubby. Lama dah rasanye tak pegi for walk. :'( Its a lovely everning, warm but not too warm. Just nice.
Ternampak a note on my old car, ada org nak beli. Cantik tulisannye. Balik frm the walk, aku terus arrange to meet up. Dia nak datang now, but I said no coz aku kerja mlm. Plus kereta tu dah lama tak basuh & dah lama tak start engine, & I wound like to wash & send it for a service ke apa. Tapi dia kata jgn basuh service bagai coz kalau dia minat dia nak buat semua. Dia rupanye nak beli utk anak dia. Anyways, will meet up on Saturday evening. Nampaknye aku kena restart kereta tu (or get a new battery) la before Saturday evening.

Okay ni gambar dinner malam tadi.

Daging masak itam with sweet potatoes. Saje experimenting with sweek potatoes instead of the normal potatoes. Rasa a bit sweet, but interesting.

Macam biasa, sayur goreng

Sardine rolls yg kecik2

Rasanye since aku kerja night shifts this week, aku takleh la bawak nasi/ makanan yg kena dok kat meja utk bekal. Thanks why tak masak byk this time. The sardine rolls dah ada for hubby & I bawak bekal gi kerja. And for extras boleh la bawak some junk food yg aku dah beli awal2 last week.

Okay ciao. Doakan night shift minggu ni selamat & aman sentiasa.

Weekends

2011-03-27T16:08:00.005+11:00

Rumah ni rasa sunyi sangat, esp. now dah nak sejuk. Its autumn now, cuaca pon tak menentu. Kadang-kadang saja ada matahari. Pokok2 sayur aku pon cam layu je time takde matahari.
Hari ni separuh hari mendung, and lepas Zohor tadi baru kuar matahari. Seb baik aku basuh kain2 yg melambak kat laundry basket tu. Tinggal all the gentle wash je. Tu basuh esok plak. Aku blom desperate baju/suar lagi so far. Wardrobe masih penuh.. heheheheh..

Malam tadi lepak kat rumah TTM. Lama dah tak jumpa mereka sekeluarga. Rasanye dlm 2,3 bulan jugak. Mostly coz aku still trying find my grounds since jadi registrar ni. TTM masak nasi ayamnye yg femes tu. Sedap!! Thanks lots, TTM!

Tadi lepas Zohor aku decided to go for a walk. Amik angin & matahari sket. Kasi gerak muscles & cardio. Kalau dok terperap dalam rumah je kang tak baik plak batuk2 aku ni. Sambil2 tu amik gambar2 bunga. Mostly aku amik senyap-senyap je, hehehe, ye la, terbongkok-bongkok amik gambar close up bunga-bunga kat halaman rumah orang. Kang org ingat aku ni pencuri plak, paling haru kalau org ingat aku ni nak tanam bahan letupan plak kat rumah diorang. Naya je kan.

Bunga kat halaman rumah aku

Pokok besar depan rumah

Jalan-jalan

Bunga kat laman rumah aku terkeluar ke postbox

Bunga rose merah yg aku amik senyap-senyap kat laman rumah org

Last week gi rumah member kat Box Hill North. I couldnt stop myself
from snapping some photos of these while roses. Putih bersih, cantik!

Bunga purple kat pagar member aku tu

Malam karang aku kena stay up coz esok aku start my weekday night shifts. Aku excited la jugak nak kerja mlm nanti coz the same cool people working with me nanti. This senior reg org putih frm South Africa, this junior resident org putih frm New Zealand, sorang lagi resident chinese aku rasa frm M'sia, and aku. Si senior reg South African tu kata kita semua A-team. Cool! Aku kena fikir nak buat dessert/ munchies apa nak bawak esok malam nanti. I have the whole night to make something =D

MIA.. I'm back

2011-03-26T14:28:00.002+11:00

Lama dah kan aku tak update anything on this blog. More than a week. Been unwell in the past week with fever, cough, sneezing, congested nose (in short= URTI or in laymen's term, common cold je). Still pegi kerja even tho I feel like I'm just spreading germs to people... kinda dun care.. hahahaha.. >:)
And bila kat rumah slalunye aku akan rehat je coz tak larat buat apa-apa dah.

Recap in the past week or so:
- Wednesday 16/3/11: Pagi tu aku nyer teaching session, gi ngajar the kids on stroke/ TIA. Had only a few hours sleep the night before. Obviously aku appeared like trash that morning. It went ok lah, coz most of the time I probably sounded like I didnt know what I was talking about. Then, termereng jap, gi kuar dgn 1 of my workmates ke Doncaster Mall. Saja lah, kalau balik sure tido punye & nanti susah plak nak bgn utk kerja pagi for the rest of the week.

- Friday 18/3/11: Went to Melbourne city with Dr. HAK. Had dinner after jalan2 kat Myer.

- Saturday 19/3/11: Rasa tak sihat tapi not febrile. Day shift, not that bad. Tapi sth happened that day, I left early frm work. Seb baik bosses baik & understanding.

- Sunday 20/3/11: Febrile the whole day at work, and obviously work went really slow. Coughing none stop. ED was like mad house, a few docs missing without having the courtesy to call earlier. Aku worked at my own pace lah coz dah tak sihat. Bosses tak marah coz dia tau aku working hard despite sakit-sakit ni.

- Monday 21/3/11: Day off, tapi aku tak larat the whole day. Did cook dinner, some instant chicken dish & some pasta instant jugak. Lama dah rasanye tak dinner dgn hubby.

- Tuesday 22/3/11: Still batuk-batuk lagi, with runny nose. Tapi aaaah, lantak la. Lama dah aku sedar, semua org anggap doctors tak boleh sakit. Kalau diorang sakit, maknanye diorang ni ngada-ngada. Thats the impression that we get when we voice out our concerns/ unwellness to ppl. No one cares. Hospital admin lagi la, layan docs like penjenayah yg kena jail & paksa jadi buruh kasar. Ada sorang intern ni baik gila belikan aku sekotak Strepsils. So nice of her! :')

- Friday 25/3/11: Semalam aku made a fool of myself in front of everyone kat nursing station. Boss suruh gi fast track. Aku dok melompat-lompat kat situ tak nak pegi. Hahaha. Ye la, dah 2 hari berturut-turut aku dok kat fast track tu, dah la printer bodo not working. Benci aku. Seb baik boss kasi aku dok kat dalam. Aku still batuk-batuk lagi. Acara paling menarik pada hari Jumaat yg suci ni ialah ngumpat dgn senior reg pasal intern mana yg paling tak best. Hehehehe. Of course la si blond yg berlagak & pemalas itu jadi mangsa. Hehehhee. >:) Jahat tol! Seriously, registrars yg dah berpengalaman ni semua tak mintak disembah-sembah, but we dont need bad attitudes. Seperti kata salah sorangnye.. "Know your place!". Obviously regs sumer suka juniors yg baik, sopan, rajin. Kalau bodo takpe, boleh blaja. Kalau pemalas, kureng ajar, byk songeh.. hmm... takleh ditolong aaah.

Hari ni, tak buat apa2. Aku bgn sangat lambat. Balik lambat smlm, and I took some antihistamine menyebabkan aku takleh bangun langsung pagi ni. Still not fully recovered yet, tapi okay la sket. This cough is soooooo annoying. Mebbie aku should go get the antibiotics that was prescribed to me before tapi aku tak gi beli konon-konon akan sihat dgn sendiri.

Anyways, ptg ni nak gi visit TTM. Lama gila dah tak jumpa dia & family. Rindu jugak kat the kids.

Okay ciaaaooo..

Takde idea

2011-03-15T07:57:00.005+11:00

Takde idea nak tulis apa hari ni. Dah la pagi ni sejuks gila beku kaki tangan aku nih.

Semalam pagi abis night shift. Aku gi breakie dgn the night shift team kat Porgie & MrJones. Makan kejap je coz masing2 dah penat gila kerja cam org gila patient banyak nak mampos. Masa nak abis shift tu datang plak patient yg patah tulang blakang & the bone is protruding into the spinal canal, pas tu dia plak kena VT & kena shock 3,4 kali. Gila lah! First go masukkan artline jugak utk dia. So kira puas hati. Then patient aku plak septic shock, most probably traveller's infection tak tau infection apa, tapi complex gak dia ni coz dia on high dose of neuroleptic, so risau pasal neuroleptic malignant syndrome coz ada some positive symptoms. And med reg plak tak happy coz aku kasi je dia antibiotics sebelum buat lumbar puncture. Well, kinda think of it, ada betulnye tapi kalau dah 30patients waiting to be seen in ED overnight & doctors in ED overnight plak cuma ada 4 org je, pas tu ada patient nak mati plak kat ED tu mana satu kau kejarkan.. mesti la nak try save the patient yg nak mati tu.

Anyways, hari ni aku busy kena gi spital hal-hal gaji. Pas tu aku tak siap lagi case presentation for tomorrow's morning tutorial. Seb baik aku dah mintak tolong anak murid prepare 1 part of the prezo.

Ok ciao. BRB.

Nice & warm

2011-03-12T18:17:00.007+11:00

Came home late pagi tadi. Biasa la kerja aku ni, the last few hours sure ada menda jadi punye.

2jam sblom abis shift, datang this man with massive anterolateral STEMI developing in ED. Signs of it datang kat rumah, so ambos called us prior arriving & faxed the ECG with the early changes to us. Dia ni 2 days post stent insertion to LAD coronary artery kat private spital. Kitorang punye la call the cardio registrar suruh datang like NOW NOW NOW coz this patient's ECG masa arrival was minimally bad, then quickly got worse setiap 10minet. Isu nye ialah, cardio registrar cam pelik apsal dia datang spital aku which is a public hospital sedangkan dia ada private insurance & dia buat stent dia kat private spital yg dlm 10mins away frm our spital. Dipendekkan cerita, the patient pegi jugak ke cath lab afta dia berada kat ED slama 1 jam setengah. Then before aku balik tadi tetiba terdengar panggilan Code Blue from cath lab.. hmmm.. dalam hati aku sure tu patient aku tadi tuh.
Dipendekkan bebelan lagi, kalau dia cuma tunggu setengah jam di ED before going to cath lab for re-angio, tak perlu lah dia ke ICU intubated bagai. Yet, slalunye org tua-tua gini kalau dah nak kena heart attack yg massive cam gini, 1/2 jam ke 1 1/2 jam ke, still poor outcome jugak. I hope dia selamat in ICU.

Normal ECG dari mana-mana buku medic

ECG patient aku selepas 1/2jam dia kat resus tu.
Okay, adik-adik, sila describe this ECG to me =)

Moral of the story: jangan merokok, makan makanan sihat & seimbang, senaman selalu, jaga berat badan, tido yg cukup, pakai sunblock slalu, kurangkan stress, jauhi dari aktiviti2 yg berisiko tinggi & tidak berfaedah, jaga diri baik-baik & last but not least doakan lah kesihatan & keselamatan diri sendiri. Kalau dah sakit tu susaaahh nak reverse balik...

Earlier last night aku dah miss satu peluang to intubate a young overdosed patient. Pasal dia tetiba bangun plak from pengsan dia. Boss aku dah panggil aku suruh buat sebab patient ni muda & kira senang la kan. And aku plak dah terlompat-lompat gumbira coz ada chance utk praktis intubation. Aish rugi! Hahaha. Tapi bagus la takde la rugi satu ICU bed kat spital tu semata-mata nak fit satu manusia yg nak tarik perhatian ramai dgn cara overdosing on drugs or memang nak bunuh diri tapi kurang bijak lagi utk bunuh diri cara yg betul. Buang duit!! Hehehehe.

Semalam petang satu lagi buku yg aku order sampai. Ni salah satu buku yg aku dok asik pinjam kat library rebut-rebut dgn medical students. Dah la kat library tu takleh renew buku. Beli je la senang. Best buku ni. Good & easy to read utk org yg terlajak cam aku ni.
Hari ni cuaca sangat best. Terang & warm, rasa cam kat rumah aku kat KL. Temperature 29°c- 31°c. Semalam dlm 25°c-28°c gitu =). Rugi betul aku kena tido siang coz of the night shifts. Ni jap lagi & esok start kol 10pm, abis pagi Isnin. =(
And aku sangat sedih coz this weekends ialah long weekend coz Monday cuti hari buruh. And weekend ni ialah Moomba festival yg setiap tahun aku tak pernah miss fireworks dia. And aku sedih coz aku kerja night shifts plak la hujung minggu ni + ada presentations kena buat on this coming Tuesday & Wednesday. :'( Kalau kerja siang at least bleh pegi tengok fireworks malam-malam. Sedih jugak hujung minggu yg panjang ni slalu orang pegi jalan-jalan, aku plak dok ngadap muka patients2 yg separuhnye ntah apa-apa. Geram!!!

Nyanyuk, 333 & 11-3-11

2011-03-11T04:23:00.007+11:00

Wah, entry ni bernombor 333 (unless aku delete entry sebelum-sebelum ni). Hari ni pulak 11/3/11. Istimewa tak? Sapa kawen or beranak hari ni? Berkat la kan, coz hari ni hari Jumaat. Bukan pasal number tu. Number tu cuma nampak cantik je kalau tulis, senang nak ingat. Hehhehe.. ntah apa-apa je. Aku ni tgh praktis stay up ni. Malam karang night shift. Now dah nak dekat kol 5 pagi, budget2 nak tido kol 8am jap gi. Slalu aku rajin je nak baking ke iron baju ke apa. Tak larat la now nak buat kerja2 physical dah. Harap nak membaca je la kot nak kill the time ni.

Tadi, Khamis petang, aku sangat nyanyuk. Patutnye ada tutorial for the registrars kol 2pm. Aku plak bangun lambat & thot that tute start kol 1pm. Tergopoh-gapah la aku dok siap-siap & drive cam org gila walaupon ngantuk gila. Malam tadi takleh tido coz aku rasa aku terminum teh around dinner time. Silap betul coz aku sensitive la jugak kat caffeine ni.
Sampai je kat spital, tengok-tengok bilik tute tu kosong. Panic la aku jap coz mana tau aku lambat sampai & missed the change in venue ke apa. Aku gi la ke bilik bosses & tanya diorang mana tute tu. Boss sorang ni kata mana der kol 1pm, patut start kol 2pm. Aku ckp aku tak caya. Hahahha. Boleh lagi tu cakap cam gitu kat boss. Pas tu dia tunjuk aku timetable teaching tu. Chet! Mememang kol 2pm pun.
Boleh je plak si boss tu gelakkan kan aku. Dia kata dia perasan aku ni jadi nyanyuks sejak start jadi registrar ni. Dia tak tau yg aku ni memang nyanyuk sentiasa kalau aku anxious.
Then dia kata alang-alang aku dah awal tu jom le gi ke Box Hill Centro nun, shopping mall seberang jalan sana, temankan dia beli spek mata membaca. Aku pon apa lagi, ok la. Ngantuk tu, tapi pasal nice weather ada matahari pegi la jugak jalan kaki 5 minit je pon. And dapat la aku lunch free dari boss, walaupon aku ada je food dalam beg konon nak makan masa tutorial tu. Hehe.

Aku gi Melbourne city tadi dgn Dr. HAK. Nak start kereta Dr. AI & kebetulan plak si Dr. HAK nak amik kereta Dr. AI lagi satu frm the city. Dia dok tension dgn aku coz aku dok kacau dia with multiple pages sepanjang tutorial pasal aku lupa bawal mobile phone aku gi spital tadi & kacau dia buat kerja sebelum bertolak tadi. Hehehehe... ye la, aku nak tolong dia abis cepat, tapi aku ni konon-konon tolong tapi kasi dia lagi stress lagi. Hehhee.. Imagine ED regstrar nak tolong Plastic surg registrar. Tak berapa betul di situ.

Ni gaya aku gi tutorial tadi. Tapi ni gambar kat toilet QV kat city tadi. Dalam lambat-lambat gi kelas tu sempat jugak pakai tudung gaya Hana Tajima. Baju abaikan, aku capai mana yg paling sempat dicapai. Hehhhee.. gumbira a few weeks before aku jumpa tutorial on the net cara pakai tudung gini. Gi spital tadi, diorang tak pernah nampak aku pakai gini. So ada satu registrar tu kata dia rasa nak picit2 pipi aku coz nampak comel. Selalunye pakai tudung bawal biasa tu je. Wah, comelnyeeee aku =D Hilang ngantuks. Hehhehee.
Now semangat kalau ada masa kena praktis kasi cun lagi. Aku nak praktis pakai tudung different styles until aku jumpa style gi spital yg senang nak guna stethoscope. Lain-lain saja nak melawa before umur ni layut & nampak huduh bila terasa nak bergaya. Hahaha.
Oh ye, ni permintaan some ppl suruh aku bubuh gambar kat blog. (Perasan la lagi nampaknye... ahahahhaa.. takpe la, aku memang la suka perasan jelita pon). Ada je gambar aku kat blog aku bubuh a few years back. Hehehhee.. Gambar baru... mmm... segan la, aku senyum tak cun. Ahaks. And imagine je la aku nyer rupa masih anggun cam masa muda dulu tu.. =P

JELAJAH BLOG LUAR NEGARA 2011

2011-03-11T02:20:00.004+11:00

Lama dah aku tak join segmen kat blog Ben Ashaari kan. Ni tengah praktis stay up coz siang nanti bleh tido coz aku night shifts malam nanti. Alang-alang dah namanye pemalas (patut study for next week's prezo), baik aku join ni. And segmennye pon berkenaan dgn aku yg kat ujung dunia ni =P. Kebetulan plak aku ni memang la gila glemer sangat-sangat. Mana tau, kalau dah bosan kerja kat spital tu, bleh la jadi selebriti plak (selebriti tua yang yok.. hehehhee).

Ni link entry Mr. BA tu:
Jelajah Blog Luar Negara 2011
atau copy paste url ni: http://www.benashaari.com/2011/03/jelajah-blog-luar-negara-2011.html

*Citer pasal diri aku:
Takde yg ringkasnye, tapi dipendekkan cerita: ikut DaisyPath kat atas tu dah lebih 10thn dok kat bumi asing Melbourne, Victoria, Australia ni. Started with study MBBS kat sini, then sambung training kat sini. InsyaAllah, lepas berjaya jadi specialist nanti aku nak balik Malaysia berbakti kepada agama bangsa negara & yg penting keluarga tercinta. (Aaarrghh.. rindu Malaysia).
Serba sedikit pasal aku: seorang yg emo yg selalu gila glamer tak tentu pasal (biasa la, sapa je yg tak kan?), sentiasa nyanyuks kadang-kadang OCD/ PD (hehehee... tu medical terms utk Obsessive Compulsive Disorder & Personality Disorder). Kalau menda best pasal aku pulak ialah aku suka makan, tido, gardening, main computer, kemas rumah, membaca, babysitting, berjalan-jalan esp. kat shopping malls sambil senaman $$$, caring, penyayang, tertib, sentiasa membela nasib keluarga & org tersayang, protective, etc.
Semua la.. perfect kan? Terharu aku mengingatkan diriku yg sempurna ni. :') :')
Hahahhahaha...

*Pengalaman masam pahit mual sepanjang hidup di bumi asing ni:
Terasa sangat mencabar jiwa & raga bila berada jauh di perantauan di tanah asing. Benda paling mencabar hidup ialah how orang2 kat sini sangat2 perkauman, and to succeed I feel like I've been working really hard to prove myself that Muslims are also human beings, and we are smart, and we deserve the equal treatment & opportunities like other races & religions jugak. Tak semestinye kita Muslims kita ni bodo, lembap & kebelakang.. kadang-kadang ramai rakyat jelata kat sini yg cakap dgn kita jerit-jerit like kita ni tak paham apa yg diorang cakap. Tu satu. Of course banyak lagi cabaran lain like makanan halal (now dah senang dah berbanding dgn zaman aku mula2 sampai dulu), pasal aku benci life cost kat sini sangat tinggi, barang mahal, semua pon kena kuar duit & tax sangat tinggi buat aku rasa aku kerja kuat mana pon still duit tax aku ni dimakan oleh kerajaan Australia digunakan utk separa bagus separa lagi utk support manusia-manusia ganja, masalah mental, yg tak nak kerja, cabaran kat tempat kerja, cabaran politics kat sini yg directly affecting the healthcare system here, cabaran cuaca yg ntah apa-apa tak best langsung kat sini. Cabaran dgn some 'people', cabaran with semua kena buat sendiri & rasa lonely sangat-sangat coz family takde bersama. Aku nih homesick manjang (until now aku akan nangis berhari-hari sebelum & kat airport bila nak balik Melbourne). I alwiz feel like what ever I do or feel takde kesempatan nak share dgn family tercinta jauh di seberang sana. And aku alwiz rasa aku miss out on perkembangan hidup baik buruk hidup diorang... 10 tahun lebih.. lama sangat. No wonder aku ni asik depressed je.

*Pengalaman lemak manis aku sepanjang hidup di tanah asing ni:
Banyak la plak pengalaman pahit tadi tu. Hehehee.
Pengalaman best pon sangat banyak. Peluang belajar di negara orang mengajar aku erti kehidupan, dan jugak betapa aku ingin berbakti kepada agama, bangsa & negara sendiri bila aku berjaya nanti. Of course other things like knowing the people here e.g TTM & Lybeau thru my ex-housemate/ collegemate, all my friends here at uni, work & everywhere. And peluang tengok dunia luar & keindahan ciptaan Allah swt. especially those flowers, pemandangan, animals yg aku tak pernah tengok kat M'sia. And pengalaman & cabaran hidup di perantauan hopefully have made me wiser & tougher on life. InsyaAllah, all these have given all the strength to face the world now & the future. Kat sini jugak aku improve my confidence in driving coz kat M'sia aku tak drive.. takut! Oh ye, aku bersyukur sangat-sangat dapat beli kereta & stuff with my own hard-earned money kerja sambil training kat sini. Aku bersyukur sangat-sangat dapat jugak spend $$ for my beloved family. Pendek kata bersyukur with my life now. Tapi bila fikir balik kalau aku kerja di M'sia pon aku akan buat menda yg sama jugak to my beloved family.
Another important & sweetest moment in my life here sepanjang dok di bumi asing ni ialah kat tanah asing ni la aku met my hubby now =) Alhamdulillah.

*Kata-kata sakti nenek kebayan ni yg korang kena baca kalau nak study overseas:
Yang penting ialah fokuskan diri anda utk berjaya in what you are doing. Kat oversea banyak sangat distractions either dalam diri sendiri, or from other frens, or from the course work, or from entertainment, etc. Kalau tak suka course/ subject tu pon, jadilah orang yg strive thru clean & sleek (seperti kata bosses aku slama ni.... dalam maknanye tu). Alwiz go back to why you are there kat oversea tu.. nak berfoya-foya or nak study. And at the same time, jgn la jadi geek gila sampai burned out plak.. you can alwiz stop for a second & smell the roses enjoy the air around you, tapi kena berpada-pada..
Hidup kat perantauan ni sangat-sangat mencabar. Alwiz take care of yourself & each other (if gi study oversea tu with other frens as well), coz kat oversea ni kita takde sapa-sapa dah. And jangan suka buli/ amik kesempatan kat org lain coz masing-masing pon susah jugak hidup kat perantauan. Some ppl lupa batasan bila dah rapat sangat with each other tu.
Yang penting jugak alwiz remember who you are, alwiz go back to your agama & culture. It is also about respecting others as well. Tak semestinye kita gi oversea kita nak tunjuk sangat kita ni org Islam terus jadi ustaz/ ustazah sampai org luar nak dekat or nak belajar pasal agama kita pon terus cabut. Tak semestinya kita ni nak tunjuk yg kita ni open minded sangat sampai kita pon jadi cam kaum diorang or lagi teruk dari diorang. You can be open-minded, but not too open until ur brain & soul fall off.
All kat atas yg aku bebel-bebel tu, kalau kita ingat balik, it all comes back to simple ajaran agama Islam kita. Amanah kita dihantar study oversea, tatatertib hidup masyarakat majmuk & semangat kejiranan.

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Wah banyak gila bebelan aku nih. Tu la dia kalau dah nyanyuk ni, abis la korang... heehehehe...

Jalan-jalan

2011-03-09T22:14:00.008+11:00

Tengah hari tadi tergerak hati nak jalan-jalan round the block. Saja nak amik gambar bunga2. Tak jauh pon aku jalan, 5 minit pegi 5 minit balik. Amik udara segar. Asik terperap dalam bangunan je. Mendap dah otak aku ni. Kalau kerja pon dalam bangunan, bila days off dok dalam rumah, tak pon dok kat shopping mall buang masa. Bilanye otak aku ni nak bernafas kan. Dulu slalu aku & hubby jalan-jalan dlm 30min-1hour gitu. Now dah jarang.

Ni gambar2 pokok lagi. Korang sure dah bosan dgn gambar2 pokok.. heheheheh... aku pon sebenarnye, tapi tu je la kehidupan aku skang. Kalau ada masa, aku amik gambar pokok/ pemandangan. Masa amik gambar2 ni, kalau org nampak sure org ingat aku ni mengendap. Tapi bunga2 ni cantik sangat. Most of the flowers aku tak tau pon bunga apa, aku just suka rupa diorang kat pokok diorang je. Natural beauty.. cam aku gak.. ahaks!!!

Gambar pokok kat depan rumah aku

Pokok kat halaman rumah aku dah start menguning..

Comel bunga putih ni =)

Cute!

Pink & pretty

Ni kaler dia patutnye cam lavendar/ indigo gitu, tapi aku malas nak edit or
tukar function camera aku.

Olive tree someone kat curb luar rumah dia

Cute!

Gumbira one of the books I bought online dah sampai. Tak perlu la aku dok bertenggek kat library spital nak rebut2 buku lagi. Edisi terbaru, prescribed utk exam nanti. Aku pon tak pernah ada good pharmacology book from student dulu. Maklum la Monash uni time aku dulu ajar 2,3 lectures on pharmacology je setahun. Tu la pasal aku lembap sket dlm hal2 basic knowledge ni. Hehehehe...
Semangat aku tengok buku baru nih. Nanti aku dah dapat more books on physiology yg aku order hari tu, sure study lebih best. =) Ye, aku memang cepat teruja dgn books. Cuma bab nak baca ke tak je.. hehehhee...

Semalam & hari ni off days. Semalam dah burn rehat sepajang masa. Migraine tak abis lagi. Slalu apa aku buat time off: try study, buang masa kat internet (FB, blog, webbie mekap & fashion, webbie food), main mekap & pakaian kat rumah, masak, tv, senaman, jalan2 kat shopping mall tengok mekap & fashion, kemas2 rumah, book-keeping, jalan-jalan lagi sket, etc. Busy tuh.. mana taknye cuti setahun pon tak cukup kan. Heehhehehehe.

Esok half day sampai kol 6pm. Then night shifts weekends ni from Friday to Sunday, abis Monday a.m. I still have to work on my next prezo.. its on stroke/ TIA... urrgghhh.. one medical field yg aku sangat tak suka... (semua pon aku tak suka.. hehehehee)

Besday baby comel lewat seminggu...

2011-03-09T13:54:00.006+11:00

Aiseh... lupa plak last week 2nd March 2011 ialah besday baby blog aku yg ke-6 tahoon!!! Apa daaa... baby sendiri punye besday pon boleh lupa ka. Hahahaa.. Seminggu lepas, aku dok bubuh link video baby ketawa from Yahoo! vid collection.

Aku dok belek2 blog coz cam ternampak archive yg tunjuk tahun 2005. Aku cam terfikir.. gila lama tu, tengok sket... fuish.. ni zaman bila punye post ni.. poyo plak tu.. ahahahha.. ni ha post lama aku tu, tak perlu la click kat link archive sebelah nun... rugi tenaga je.. =P. Posting aku pasal 1st concert I've ever been to in my whole life. 2nd concert, and maybe my last concert was another Nickelback concert I went to with hubby (masa tu kekasih hati) in 2006. Ticket2 utk 2 concerts tu ntah mana pegi, abah 'pinjam' hari tu. Hahahha... some old photos of the concert ada kat FB.
Kalau budak 6 tahun tu, dah masuk pre-school or darjah satu la kan. Kalau tengok balik, 2005 dulu, ni je la satu-satunye post poyo dari aku. Then mandom 3 tahun, then 2009 bangun balik, hasil tiupan pengaruh dp TTM. Dulu tengok postings cam sangat poyo & ntah apa-apa. Takyah korang bazir masa baca. Aku pon malu nak baca balik. Hahhahaha.. serious rasa cam nak sorok je dalam katil dgn postings cam gitu. Dulu layout & design blog ni lain, maklum la tak serious sgt & malas nak jaga & takde modal nak tulis. Nama blog pon lain. Tak ingat aku bila aku tukar nama blog ni, mebbie in 2009 kot. Dah brapa kali tukar design, and aku akan end up to a simple one jugak. Bukan apa, kasi sedap mata aku yg rabun bangat ni nak pandang & baca, tak le silau je. Hahaha.

Now, Alhamdulillah.. my blog pon dah mature as I mature & become wiser. Follower pon dah makin ramai (>20people tu dah ramai beno bagi aku tu.. considering this is a personal, life story kinda blog). It will continue to grow & mature, as per my own life lah gitu. Moga-moga satu hari nanti bila aku dah terlebih rajin, boleh la tulis biography based on my own life. Script dah ada. (Seperti suggestion our Lady of Leisure =) good idea!)
Thanks for your guys support & doa.

Lebih sedekad suda & stuff

2011-03-09T01:04:00.006+11:00

Waaahhh.. DaisyPath kat atas tu kata dah genap 10 thn setengah aku kat bumi asing ni. Nak masuk 11 tahun tu. Gilaaaaa lamaaaaaa! Macam-macam kisah hidup kat sini, boleh buat novel bersiri cam Sweet Valley High dulu tu (ingat tak?). Each time I look back at those times aku kat sini, it makes me wonder, have all these made me wiser & stronger.. or have I wasted a whole 10 & 1/2 yrs all along...

Anyways, its way past midnight dah ni. Tadi kat Chaddy, biasa la aku, byk melencong. Senaman la katakan. Senaman indoor, senaman plastic card jugak. Hehhehehe..

Balik tadi terperasan plak satu pokok bunga kat laman rumah. Selama ni tak perasan plak aku dia ada bunga gini. Selalu nampak pokok tu kosong je. And aku pon tak pernah siram coz pokok-pokok bunga yg tak significant ni slalunye aku biar je. Sebab takleh makan. Tetiba ada bunga plak. Gambar ni gegar bukan pasal tangan aku gegar, tapi pasal angin tiup. =P
Kadang tu aku rasa blog ni dah jadi cam blog 'Selamat Berkenalan Dengan Alam Sekitar' plak. Asik-asik gambar pokok, pemandangan, pokok, pemandangan, pokok lagi.. sket2 selingan masakan aku yg ala kadar, or iklan barang-barang time tengah psychotic. Hehehhe.

Ni dinner aku masak tadi. Merasa akhirnye aku nak makan kari. Alhamdulillah. Harap-harap lauk kali ni tak masuk tong sampah after a few days.

Kari yg aku kempunan dah berhari-hari dah. Chicken kari =)

Sayur goreng je. Terlebih masak plak tadi coz aku menyibukkan diri
basuh pinggan sambil masak.

Takde la aku masak bersungguh-sungguh kali ni coz aku cuti lagi esok. Then start night shifts for the weekends, and aku slalunye masak bersungguh jugak on my night shifts coz slalu bangun awal petang & utk food bawak bekal.

Nyanyuks

2011-03-08T13:56:00.005+11:00

Nyanyuk betul aku in the past few days. Ni semua following the Paeds Life Support course yg aku pegi kat Sunshine Hospital hari Jumaat lepas. Actually sejak aku kerja, on my days off aku rasa sangat penat & bermurung. Mebbie pasal rasa sangat burnt out. All drained emotionally & physically & mentally. Hari Jumaat lepas, afta abis course tu (seb baik lulus & dapat sijil, so lepas ni aku boleh zap cardiac arrest kids.. ehehe) aku gi city to start Dr. AI's car since dia dah balik M'sia. Ingat nak ajak hubby lepak city coz we no longer do things together anymore. Aku ajak Dr. HAK skali coz nak start Dr. AI's cars, tapi dia plak sampai2 city tak bawak kunci lagi satu. Aiyo. Anyways, hubby tak join kami. Aku drive pegi ke Docklands shopping town. Aku tunggu Dr. HAK kat parking & lelap kejap coz semenjak dua menjak ni slalu tak dapat tido & asik dapat nightmares about patients (damn patients! buat hidup aku tak tenang).
Gi makan, then start keta then balik. Very very short. Balik tu tido terus. Sepanjang hari Sabtu tak buat apa just rehat ngadap computer, badan semua sakit-sakit & kepala pening je.

I've noticed that kat badan aku ada byk bruise spots. Memang aku ada byk terlanggar meja, dinding, ntah apa-apa lagi kat spital tu most of the time & especially semenjak dua menjak ni. And sebagai org yg senang bruise & bleed, lagi la byk ugly spots. Semalam terperasan a big bruise on my thigh, terkujat jugak but then baru teringat yg aku ada terlanggar some pointy bench kat spital ari tu. No wonder rasa cam sakit je kat kaki tu. Kelmarin aku terbakar tangan aku masa masak cookies. Teringin sangat nak makan soft choc cookies. Half of the cookies were overcooked so selamat dalam tong sampah. And aku tido with some ice wrapped in the kitchen towel around my left hand.

Sunday arvo shift, patut start kol 1 aku gi start kol 2pm. Very lightheaded & tak tau cam mana aku bleh sampai spital dgn selamatnye coz masa drive tu rasa cam keawang-awangan. Jalan kat spital pon rasa cam nak melayang je. And a bad shift kat ED ptg tu.
Semalam plak, aku patut start kol 2 aku gi datang kol 1pm. Nyanyuk betul. Seb baik gak la boss bubuh aku kat fast track. Dengan terrible headache & rasa nak muntah tu. Most of the time aku rasa cam takleh comprehend apa orang cakap. Hopefully aku tak make any mistakes masa kerja.

Ni bukan skali dua aku nyanyuk pasal my timetable. Pernah tu spital called me tanya mana aku. Semua pasal aku salah hafal timetable. Tapi ni tahun-tahun lepas la.

Aku ngaku I am a slow learner. Still rasa overwhelmed with a registrar job. And on my days off aku rasa cam nak serehat-rehatnye & study abis-abisan. And aku rasa now my life is soooo lonely. Aku off when people are working, and aku on when they are having fun at home enjoying the weekends. Not all the time. But bila aku ada weekends off, ada la plak macam-macam course & study group. Aku rasa macam aku tak tau what's going on in the lives of those close to me anymore. Mebbie kalau aku rajin email/ msg kat fb aku akan lebih tau hal org lain. And Selalunye aku akan makan sorang-sorang, tengok tv sorang-sorang, cakap sorang-sorang dgn the chili trees & the flowers kat backyard or front lawn. Aku suka tengok pokok-pokok tu membesar day by day, at least ada la jugak something yg menjadi in my life.
Ada gak rasa cam hidup kat whoop whoop kembali. Tapi bezanye ni kat metropolitan, kalau bosan bleh gi beach, boleh gi jadi mereng kat shopping malls & paling tak best gi library study for exams.
Malam tadi sampai rumah around midnight. It was a warm windy night. So I decided to just take a walk sepanjang jalan rumah ni, walaupon seram it felt nice. Tapi aku cepat-cepat masuk rumah afta 10 minutes of walking, ye la takut la apa-apa jadi bukan aku boleh protect myself pon.

Its nice & warm today tapi mendung. So aku nak gi jalan-jalan buang duit kat shopping mall kejap. Niat di hati nak gi beli groceries jap.. tengok je la nanti apa aku 'ter'beli.
Ingat nak masak malam karang, rindu sangat nak makan kari. Lauk-lauk last week yg terlebih-lebih tu aku rasa aku akan tong-sampahkan coz nampaknye dah takde sapa nak makan lagi.

Crap day at work =(

2011-03-07T02:38:00.005+11:00

245am, Monday 7/3/2011.

Aku patut balik kol 12midnight tadi, kuar spital kol 2am.
Such a crap shift. Really buat aku lemah semangat nak gi kerja esok.
Its not a nice experience being yelled at by the other units, despite I was trying to do things right. They want us to be understanding that they are grumpy coz they have been on call since Friday & have been called for many many times since Friday. But still, thats their job thats written in their job description that they need to be on call hence whatever is related to being on call. Why should I be understanding while they are not trying to be understanding to my job as well. Bukannye crap referral yg aku call diorang tu pon. Semuanye important. And plus, kalau ye pon dah on call since Friday & diorang tired, that doesnt give them the green light to yell at others. Bodo.
Lagi satu plak si nurse bangang ni yg yelled at me for a silly reason, coz aku blom kasitau kat patient pasal patient needs to be transferred back to resus area from a low level care coz dia sakit, while aku tgh busy nak get a bed under cardiology before the bed is being taken away coz aku lambat. Geram betul aku dgn si nurse bangang ni.
Seb baik jugak bosses today very supportive. But still rasa very low now.
Really rasa my self esteem very very low. Agaknye sebab jadi isteri derhaka, anak derhaka, pekerja derhaka, segalanye derhaka tu la pasal dapat balasan orang derhaka kat dunia ni.
Rasa cam tak nak gi kerja esok :'(( :'(( :'((

Aku kena gi kerja semula siang nanti kol 1pm :'(( :'(( :'((

Recap minggu ni

2011-03-06T12:30:00.004+11:00

Hari ni cuaca sangat best utk laundry, picnic, lepak kat beach, sunbathing kat lawn, etc. Pendek kata best utk outdoor activities, after weeks of cold, wet weather.
Layan gambar amik petang tu..

And aku plak kerja hari ni, masuk kol 2pm jap lagi. Tapi puas hati dah kosong bakul laundry tu.

nak gi baca pasal stroke for my prezo Wednesday week nanti. Aku menyampah Neuro!!!! (sebab malas nak buat physical examinations neuro.. hehehehe).

Baby ketawa

2011-03-02T12:53:00.002+11:00

I know I should be studying abiskan my APLS materials tu, but I really hafta share this video on Yahoo! US.
Mencuit hati. Baby ketawa =)
http://shine.yahoo.com/event/momentsofmotherhood/laughing-baby-loves-ripping-paper-2459529

Bukan baby aku, but aku pon tersenyum tadi. Cute! =)
Enjoy.

1st day of Autumn

2011-03-01T11:38:00.006+11:00

Hari ni ialah hari pertama Autumn ikut calendar. Tapi kalau ikutkan rasanye sejak Spring lagi dah start Autumn, and only a few short weeks of nice & warm & sunny weather in the 3 months of Spring & a few more short weeks of nice & warm & sunny weather in the 3 months of Summer. Sangat peliks this time, and its all sebab La Nina.
Sejuk gila hari ni, around 16°c kata suratkhabar, tapi aku rasa cam lagi beku dp tu. Ni ha dah pakai lapis-lapis dah ni.

Our little prairie depan rumah

Pokok rose renek yg masih bertahan walaupon cuaca buruk

Tak tahu weed apa ni, tinggi betul

Another jenis pokok pagar, ntah bila dia tumbuh, bagi aku dia adalah weed =P

Bunga luar pagar kat post box. Apa ntah nama dia

Ni berita pasal the lack of heat we are getting here in Melbourne. http://www.theage.com.au/victoria/the-sun-all-rise-and-no-shine-20110228-1bbqz.html

Oh ye, aku kan asik-asik negative je kan slalu. Haha. Ok la, ni aku bubuh berita yg okay from The Age.

http://www.theage.com.au/national/most-support-muslim-immigration-20110228-1bbr5.html

Nowadays, if to compare masa aku mula-mula datang dulu, dah okay sangat dah. Dah senang cari masjid & makanan halal. Walaupon tak semua, tapi majority orang-orang di bandar lebih open minded about Muslims. Yang lebih tolerant terhadap other races are obviously the non-Whites, and majority of the whites kat kawasan metropolitan okay towards us berbanding dulu. Cuma di kawasan-kawasan far outer suburbs & rural areas je orang-orangnye sedikit bangang.
Kiranye perubahan positive for the past 10 + years sejak aku ada kat sini. But, as per personal experience I am happier to live in the metropolitan area than in the whoop whoop. And this is one of the major reasons why I chose Emergency Medicine training over other specialties, selain daripada minat in acute care medicine.

Last day of Summer

2011-02-28T10:15:00.004+11:00

Gambar-gambar minggu ni...

Tiramisu YL buat. Malam tu aku takleh tido.. the coffee in it was tooooo strong for me..

Birthday cake YL. Tak sempat rasa coz aku dah lambat ke study grp dgn Dr. BB.

Sempat lagi snap gambar bunga raya kat luar flat Dr. HAK

Lavender kat luar bangunan flat tpt Dr. HAK. Nanti boleh cilok sket bila
teringin nak buat donut Masterchef w lavender sugar.

Roses renek kat depan rumah Dr. BB.

Alhamdulillah computer buruk aku ni dah hidup balik. Thanks to hubby. Cuma cant start the Yahoo Messenger. I will hafta figure out how to bila aku free next. Coz tu je la caranye nak tengok muka family aku. Diorang bukannye ada kat sini all the time for me to be with them kan, jauh sekali nak datang every month to visit me or the other way round.

Recap last week

2011-02-28T09:22:00.006+11:00

Aku takde la malas nak update blog ni. Tapi kadang-kadang tu terpaksa gak jadi malas. Esp. bila time cuti-cuti coz kena study. Now dah in the training rasa cam lebih intense, rasa cam back to uni. Every week ada je modules/ syllabus kena cover. ED training course/ tutorials, kami masing-masing jadi tutor in teaching sessions for the residents/ interns/ medical students, workshops of clinical/ procedural skills, study group utk primary exams, CME courses, extra tutorials held by senior ED registrars, case presentations, etc.
Masa mula-mula tu rasa cam wah.. tepu la jugak rasa coz busy manjang. Hari ni dah masuk minggu ke-4. Looking back in the past 3 weeks aku rasa cam bagus gak training ni tersusun & intense. Baru la training namanye. Ye la training mana yg tak busy, kalau training surgery & Obs&Gynae lagi busy la kot.
InsyaAllah, kalau aku betul-betul dedicated I will get there =) (aku ni sejak jadi tua ni jarang optimistic, la ni baru nak find my grounds).

Rabu lepas meeting with my supervisor for the last term. Masa dia tanya ada apa-apa ke aku nak komen pasal ICU term tu, maka terjadilah drama air mata kat situ. I was holding it inside for sooooo long, about the work bully & how I was depressed in ICU. Seriously si mamat timurtengah tu has really left a big impact on my life. Aku kasi tau boss aku tu yg sepanjang ICU term aku depressed, sampai ada nightmares & sampai aku tak study for ICU coz I was so depressed. I was stressed jugak buat anaesthetics dulu but I made the effort to actually sit & study. Not so in ICU.
I'm glad that the ICU boss tu was very supportive. Dia tanya aku apa nak buat dlm hal ni, & aku cakap yg aku tak nak berdepan dgn mamat senget tu at the moment. And dia nak discuss dgn the head of ICU about this. Dia cakap yg dia akan discuss jugak dgn mamat senget tu in 2 days time, tapi will be kept confidential.
On Friday, lepas dia cakap dgn si senget tu, he came & checked on me kat ED. Malu la jugak coz masa tu memang aku takde mood & tengah termenung depan computer. Terharu pon ada. Dia cakap sebenarnye ada lagi org lain komplen pasal dia, tapi dia kata will be kept confidential just like my case. Dia tanya aku, aku nak ke resolve this with that senget guy. Aku cakap tak nak coz knowing how he was masa dia suka-suka bully aku tu, I dont think that the discussion will be fruitful, silap-silap muka aku ni makan penampar dia berdasarkan perangai kasar dia masa kat ICU tu.
Aku rasa lega that finally dapat la jugak kasitau kat big boss about this. Boss aku tu cakap aku patutnye cakap awal-awal masa rotation tu, tapi aku cakap aku tak nak cause friction masa kerja. Boss aku tu cakap yg mebbie next time bila dah nak ada issue cam gitu cepat-cepat get help, sebab nanti aku gak yg rugi. And mebbie next year mintak lagi rotation ICU, and aku setuju provided that the senget guy wont be there when I'm there lah.

Thursday petang hari tu ada airway workshop, a combo of ICU-ED-Anaesthetics workshop on intubation/ managing airways. Best. I think I have to build up more muscles la coz 1 of the patung yg dia kasi tu..grr.. keras semacam takleh intubate langsung. Sakit my left arms. Seb baik si sengal tu takde.

Oh ye, Friday arvo aku kerja. Nyampah habis. Ada certain big bosses yg malas, and anggap sejak aku jadi registrar ni aku patut tau semua menda. Ada la jugak along the way yg aku rasa aku terkureng ajar gak dgn some bosses yg aku tak puas hati dgn management diorang on patients. Seb baik aku ada back up senior registrars yg kamcheng dgn aku.

Weekends tak buat apa-apa. Saturday gi rumah Dr. HAK coz celebrate besday YL. Aku gi kejap je coz ada study group dgn Dr. BB plak. Sunday, tried as much as possible to study my APLS course, tak start apa-apa pon, course tu plak on the 4th of March ni.

Dinner & bekal gi kerja minggu ni, combination of:

Mee hoon goreng with crab balls

Sambal bawal (bawal tu aku bakar dulu)

Tom Yam sayur

Niat asal: thai chicken green curry. Jadinye: ayam masak lemak putih

Sigh...

Itu le masalahnye sini haaa

2011-02-23T09:54:00.004+11:00

http://www.theage.com.au/national/survey-finds-nsw-has-most-racial-tension-20110222-1b42m.html#poll

Sila click kalau rajin nak baca.

Ni la menda yg terpaksa aku lalui selama lebih 10 thn kat sini, esp. when I was in Whoop Whoop. Masa mula-mula sampai sini, lagi teruk esp. more tensed lepas peristiwa Sept 11th tu. Now dah tak berapa teruk, tapi ada la some bimbos yg bodo still ignorant & bengong. I'm quite surprised la jugak kalau media kata Au ni tak perkauman. Sedangkan Yg TakTerhormats tu pon boleh perkauman kat aku.

Oh well. Aku better start mengulangkaji pelajaran coz Thursday ada CME, plus aku kena berusaha abiskan study material for Advanced Paeds Life Support before 4th March & kena study before Saturday coz ada study group dgn Dr. BB on respiratory stuff.

(Konon busy eh, tapi still berblog lagi.. hehehhehe.. ni je la tempat aku nak meluahkan masalah jiwa nih.. huhuhuhu...)

Talking about being mentally disturbed & $$...

2011-02-22T11:45:00.007+11:00

Kol 730am tadi aku nyer case prezo depan all the physicians & their trainees. Ada sorang surgeon buat case prezo gak sebelum aku. All in all, semuanye berjalan lancar. Aku takde la gementar mana. Dah praktis dalam mimpi malam tadi & masa tgh siap2 pagi tadi. Hehe. 2 prezo dah buat last week. This week Thursday ada personal tuition dari senior ED reg & pas tu plak advanced life support training (ALS) as part of the CME. Hmm.. gitu la life seorang ED trainee. Timetable pon penuh manjang, lagi teruk dari masa jadi resident dulu. I guess, jadi trainee apa-apa pon kena adad commitment, dedication & sacrifice (unless jadi GP.. tapi training GP kena gi rural area which I'm soooo sick of already).

Balik je dari prezo tadi, singgah Chaddy jap, ada la hal-hal book keeping (kononnye).

Mendung & sejuk!!

Kat pasu luar bangunan. Comel menda ni.

Terlalu depan kedai kasut.. uhuk uhuk!! Ternyopping jap. Hehehhe. Semalam dah nyopping abis, konon-konon nak menyeronokkan hati yg duka-lara. Dah lama tak shopping, dah tu kat Myer & K-Mart ada sales. Hmmmmhhh... bulan depan dapat bill credic card, nangis semula nampaknye. Punye la janji dgn diri sendiri awal tahun ari tu nak berbelanja dgn bijak & lebih berjimat-cermat.
Being manic is not good!

Hasil kerja gila aku smalam. Hari ni punye tak nak tunjuk.
Nanti orang kata aku gila plak =P

Bag frm LuluLemon Athletics. Roomy. Bagus utk gi kerja, gym,
or lari dari rumah. Hahaha.

Lagi satu bag frm the same shop, sesuai utk kerja, skolah, gym,
camping or lari dari rumah =P

Cawan untuk gi kerja. Hehehhe.. cawan pon kena spesel.
Dah jadi registrar, kena la kena gaya. Uhuk!! Kata Dr. HAK ari tu.

Saja nak lupakan my sinful purchases tu, malam tadi aku masak la dgn gigihnye. Dah 2 minggu tak masak. Asik makan rubbish je, mana tak otak aku pon jadi sampah. Masak byk sket sebab sepanjang minggu ni aku kerja PM shift, balik midnight, mana nak masak.

Roti hot dog & some rolls. Semangat nak buat roti
semalam lepas beli these cute baking pans.

Mee hailam. First time jadi. Resepi amik kat magazine raya 2006.

Kurma ayam. First time jadi jugak. Resepi amik kat mag raya 2006. Seb baik mak bawak rempah kurma hari tu. Love u mum!

Sayur goreng tauge, purple cabbage, asparagus, cili.
Uiih.. byk plak aku masak. Ye la, takde la hubby bosan makan menda yg sama je. Lagipon boleh la bawak bekal kan. Jimat. (Boleh shopping lagi)

Dr. HAK singgah join dinner. Ternganga la jugak dia tengok aku masak dgn bombastiknye... ahahhaha.. apa je la bombastik plak. Kang seminggu dua lagi aku mandom je la.

Webcam kat Lappie

2011-02-21T10:34:00.002+11:00

Menda pertama aku nak buat bila dah ada lappie baru nanti ialah nak chat dgn family aku esp. adik kecik aku & tengok muka dia puas-puas thru webcam sebelum dia bertukar jadi orang dewasa. :'(

Thanks to the new technology nowadays semua lappie dah ada in-built webcam... sangat berguna mendekatkan orang-orang jauh :'(

Jap lagi nak survey. Aku ni takle tau byk sgt about computer but I'll try my best. Ingat nak sambar iPad je hari tu tapi memandangkan keyboard + webcam adalah add on gears, rasa cam bazir la plak duit aku coz kalau tambah menda2 tu rasa cam tak brapa portable as a lappie.

Hmm... sometimes even tho kerja lagi teruk dari buruh kasar aku ni dengan jadualnye ntah apa-apa, aku rasa bersyukur coz imagine kalau aku depressed but not independant $$-wise sure lagi teruk keadaannye kan. Depressed tapi ada $$ walaupon sikit, jadi la, at least satu beban kurang.

Pressure on healthcare system

2011-02-19T21:12:00.002+11:00

http://www.theage.com.au/national/24-hours-in-gen-med-3-20110218-1azqd.html

Sila baca kalau rajin :P abis kerja esok aku sambung tulis. Only thing to say is I'm sooooo glad the media is put to good use this time... kalau orang2 politics ni buta hati & akal gak tak tau la...

Layaan

2011-02-17T04:18:00.007+11:00

Letih gila prezo/ teaching session semalam. Letih sebenarnye jadi cikgu ni. Esp. bila dah tua-tua gini byk menda lupa. Bersungguh-sungguh aku ke spital malam-malam buta kelmarin siapkan prezo on Wounds for the residents/interns/students teaching session utk pagi smalam. Seb baik berjaya dgn jayanye. Heh! Okaylah. Teach them all the physiological + pharmacological aspects of wounds, not simply tau nak jahit saja. Pas tu ada practical on how to use the stapler. Ingat nak ajar pasal vertical + horizontal mattress, tapi dah terlebih masa. Then aku stayed on for the non-clinical stuff. Aku quite enjoyed my job yesterday checking results, mostly radiology. Lab stuff aku kureng sket. Also had to complete all the online training thing, tak sempat abis coz computer kat ED plak crashed pasal that programme. Heh. Then some of the bosses saja nak chat dgn aku pasal next week's case prezo pulak, the one depan all the physicians + their trainees. Errkk.. aku kena baca betul2 nanti.

Parcel yg mengandungi my Advanced Paediatrics Life Support pon dah sampai tadi. Fuiiyooooo.. punye la tebal! Lagi 2 minggu course tu, so aku kena bertungkus lumus abiskan before 4th of March.

Minggu ni last aku kerja weekends in this 4-week-of-no-life. Finally!! Seb baik kerja AM shift. Starting siang ni jap lagi until Sunday. Then cuma cuti sehari sebelum sambung kerja semula. Bukan bermakna aku takde kerja weekends lagi, tapi termasuk ni 4 minggu berturut2 aku kerja weekends, ENUF laaaa for now.

Okay, layan gambar2 yg aku konon-konon janji dulu, sebab dah lama tak update.

Mr. Bee kat pokok bunga tepi rumah

Sarang labah-labah kat ampaian aku.
Hari tu ribut hilang dah.

Bunga gift kat spital, amik masa melawat Dr. HAK smlm

Farewell cookie cake frm Mrs. Field,
untuk ICU hari tu
Apam 100+ (amik frm rumah MamaFami) yg aku buat
for night shift hari tu

Breakie aku pagi kelmarin

Thanks for those yang kasi aku moral support, thru the net & in real life. Life is complicated, I am complicated...

Busy campur Malas

2011-02-10T17:30:00.002+11:00

Lama gila aku tak update kan. BUsy campur malas nak update coz takde mood. Computer kesayangan aku diserang virus bodo. So now tengah bersawang kat atas meja. Kalau ikut hati aku nak je aku campak kat M1 sana. Stressed!

Last week abis ICU. Aku tau aku hutang gambar cookie cake yg aku janji nak bubuh itu hari.

Minggu start my first ever job as an ED registrar. Slow smacam je Isnin hari tu. Ye la baru abis ICU kan. Rasa cam banyak menda aku tak tau. Work is depressing when you feel like you dont know much. The ED people , especially the bosses, looked excited that I'm back in ED. Aku? Ntah laa... Tunggu bila aku jumpa kes bodo-bodo & dapat hand over bodo-bodo then aku start mengamuk balik... hahaha.

The bosses suka aku punye presentation pasal NMS & serotonin toxicity itu hari so the Director of ED mintak aku buat presentation yg sama depan all the Physicians plak. AAARRGHHH! Terencat jap otak aku. Nak tolak nanti kena blacklist. Nak terima, teringat plak all the audience ialah physicians.. wooooooo mati aku. Kalau students takpe la jugak kan. Oh well, kalau depan anaesthetists lagi rasa nak mati kot. Hari tu cuma Intensivists & ED physicians je. Then one of the senior registrars mintak aku buat lagi 2 prezo next week, 1 for teaching the residents & 1 for teaching the interns. Ayaaakkk!

Dengan aku yg tengah miserable inside ni, tak tau la boleh ke tak deliver all the 3 prezos tu. Computer tu pon satu hal. Kang aku gi sambar iPad kang... poket aku gak yg nangis. Sheesshhhh!

Malam tadi hantar Dr. AI & her mum gi airport. Dia decided to defer this year from training. Will probably be back in Melbourne for interviews in the 2nd half of the year. Then kerja again for physician training next year.

Life is hard for us perantau di sini. Dr. HAK decided to stay in surgery after having a blast doing plastics last term. Its going to be a long journey for her. Jeles gak aku dengar dia cerita pasal surg coz aku pon sangat minat surgery but life doesnt really allow me to go on in surg.. but who knows. Dr. MJ still in physician training but decided to take exams next year instead of this year. Dr. ZJ in now ED training instead of anaesthetics, her husband Dr. N decided to go into Obs & Gobs instead of surg. Dr. BB still going with her ED training, and dialah yg slama ni kasi aku semangat utk amik exams this year. At least bila study sama2 takde la merewang je otak & semangat aku.
As for me, aku still miserable. I miss home very much, I hate my personal life, I hate the politics in ED, I sort of long for a normal life so that at least I have time for me & others, I am still indecisive of what I want in my career despite I am now in Emergency Medicine training. All sorts of things.
And most of the time aku rasa cam aku takde outlet for my misery...

Sebelum abis ICU hari tu one of the Intensivists cakap I will make a good physician.. which sort of made me even more miserable coz its been a while aku dah tak tau apa aku suka anymore in medicine. I wish it was that easy to choose like others, I envy those yg memang determined gila nak pursue their careers in what they like. While me still hanging around.
Mebbie aku sepatutnye go on cari kerja in personal assistant ke, office job mana-mana, architecture ke, engineering ke kan.

Malam ni sampai malam Ahad kerja, abis pagi Isnin. Next weekend kerja jugak. :'( Asik kerja weekends je. Ni dah minggu ke-3 berturut2 aku kerja, minggu depan weekends lagi. 4 minggu berturut-turut.

Smalam stay up coz hari ni the whole day kena tido kan. Stay up takleh focus nak study coz I miss my computer so much. So aku buat la apam 100plus amik kat rumah MamaFaMi. Takde 100plus aku guna sprite. :)
Nanti-nanti la aku bubuh gambar apam aku yg super sweet tu walaupon dah kurangkan gula dari yg dlm resepi (janji palsu aku lagi... hahaha)

Farewell cookie cake

2011-02-03T10:44:00.002+11:00

Baru balik from fetching my cookie cake for the farewell kat ICU today. Takde la party apa, saja je order the cake for ICU sempena minggu last kami residents kat situ. And ngapa hari ni, coz hari ni chance semua resident berpeluang merasa this cake; 3 hari ni termasuk aku & sorang lagi start malam esok. Cake ni boleh simpan utk weekends docs.

I'm working today until Sunday kat ICU, day shifts. So takde la farewell mana pon utk aku kat ICU tu. 2 org last day hari ni, & 2 org termasuk aku last day Sunday. Starting Monday kerja kat ED balik, same hospital.

Nanti malam karang aku update gambar cookie cake tu okaaay. Aku start kerja tgh hari nanti. Ni nak gi siap2.
Ciao.

Negara bencana alam

2011-02-02T13:04:00.005+11:00

Meremang jugak bulu roma aku bila tengok news malam tadi pasal this cyclone Yasi that's hitting North Queensland, esp. Townsville & Cairns. Pagi tadi dah upgrade from category 3 to category 5, up to 300km/hr lajunye cyclone tu. I imagine the small islands yg tgh-tgh laut tu sure dah hancur dilanda cyclone ni semalam.

From siaran khas kat tv tgh hari ni, diorang dah pindahkan ICU patients, including those from PICU & NICU to Brisbane Hospital. Penduduk2 pon dah byk pindah mlm tadi. Airport masih jalan so far & will be closing sometimes today, at least sampai dah most penduduk dah dipindahkan ke pusat2 keselamatan. Talian telefon & electricity dah byk putus.

Baru je beberapa minggu lepas Queensland dilanda banjir besar, almost 3 quaters of the state tenggelam. Now dah disaster baru.. encik cyclone Yasi pulak. Kesian pelajar2 Malaysia di Queensland sana, especially yg beragama Islam. Kesian jugak kat wanita-wanita yg tgh piyed & yg baru bersalin tu & orang-orang disabled. Lain-lain pon aku kesian jugak. Semua lah. I wonder how those yg dekat psych inpatient unit sana.
Di Victoria plak, walau pon takde cyclone yet, hujan je manjang. Dah 3 hari (until yesterday) the temperature hit 40°c. Imagine balik night shift nak tido pon susah coz rumah ni rasa cam dlm oven je. Well, not as bad as the old house, but still susah nak tido. Rumah aku takde aircond, cuma bergantung kat kipas je. Kalau kerja siang, at least boleh enjoy the aircond kat spital. Malam bila balik kerja dah cool change. Semalam baru dengar berita bushfire kat East Gippsland pulak, near Inverloch sana.

Aku bersyukur aku kat Victoria now, Alhamdulillah kawasan aku tak kena all these natural disasters; flood, bushfire, locus. Well, aku lebih gembira kalau berada di KL with my family right now. But as for now aku bersyukur apa yg ada.

Nampaknye harga barang & petrol akan naik lagi disebabkan bencana alam Queensland ni. Queensland is the agricultural state. Economy Australia akan merudum sket la nampaknye soon. The Federal gov dah introduced this levy to help out Queensland. Which aku rasa cam tak setuju coz rather than diorang buang duit diorang kat menda lain, better guna duit diorang utk this kind of thing yg every single year hit this country. You would think that they already have a fund/ a system for this each year. Tapi silap. Most people sengkek already with the sky high tax. And still orang menderma utk bencana alam ni secara ikhlas. Bila dah kuarkan levy gini, buat aku rasa tak ikhlas nak kasi langsung coz hidup aku yg sengkek ni & terasa gov lagi rip off us all dgn tax yg sedia cekik darah ni. Dah la infrastructure, services & health care hampes. Orang-orang kaya tak rasa semua beban kenaikan harga barang & services. Diorang seperti biasa makin kaya. Rakyat jelata lain makin miskin. Kalau hal-hal berkaitan dgn tax & fees ni aku memang kedekut, walaupon kedekut aku ni tak memberi kesan kat Au gov. Ptui!

And as for me, ha la makin miskin ni. Kena lebih jimat-cermat esp. in the sense of food & petrol. Harga & supply akan makin kurang la nampaknye. (More reason for to kurang makan & control weight).

Picture from theage.com.au

Telinga berdarah di ICU

2011-01-31T02:14:00.004+11:00

I'm in ICU atm. Alhamdulillah its been quiet so far. Dah selesai 3 malam aku night shift minggu ni, malam ni (Isnin) adalah malam terakhir for this cycle habis pagi Selasa kol 9am. Then aku off, kembali kerja on Thursday, day shift until la weekends. Minggu terakhir aku kat ICU. Sob sob sob. Then back to ED, doing a junior registrar job. Sob sob sob sob sob lagi. Aku suka ICU. 3-month-term is a short term for any junior doc for any rotation, if you want to learn something.

On the other hand, lega dah takde kerja dgn si orang gila Timur Tengah tu. In fact, since minggu lepas until next week, aku takkan jumpa dia lagi. Harap-harap our paths will never ever cross again. Amin.

Malam tadi best, aku buat 2x internal jugular CVC. I kno most ppl my level will be like.. "Whats so big of a deal is that.. aku dah buat berlambak.. tak heran pon.." Oh, well, it is a big deal to me. First we are dealing with an unstable patient who needs a central line. At the same time a sick patient will make doing a central line insertion hard. Thirdly, looking at the anatomy itself, internal jugular is right next (lateral) to the carotid artery, a major artery supplying the brain. So ada macam-macam risks di situ, plus its an invasive procedure. Internal jugular is not the only access for a central line. Ada lagi: femoral vein, subclavien vein, or PICC (peripherally inserted central catheter). Aku dah buat PICC hari tu. And what has taken me sooooo long dah nak abis ICU baru nak buat CVC? Entah ngapa setiap kali aku on either its toooo busy that we could hardly breathe, or patients dah sedia ada lines, or my reg akan buat the important lines. Esp. kalau kerja dgn si Timur Tengah tu, memang takde harapan la aku nak blaja apa-apa. Haram betul.
Kesimpulannye, memang aku bangga dapat buat 2 skali gus malam tadi. Harap-harap la dapat buat beberapa lagi central lines sampai la aku abis ICU nanti. Ye la, tempat mana lagi boleh buat these important procedures selain dp anaesthetics & ICU.

Ops.. ada call from the ward.

Ok dah balik. Unwell patient on the ward, tapi di assess oleh resident yg malas & dodgy. Ngamuks registrar aku. Hahaha. Tapi terpaksa la jugak pegi assess the patient. And seb baik patient to okay. Tak perlu masuk ICU. ICU dah penuh malam ni.

Tajuk telinga berdarah tu saja je gempak. Takde la gempak sangat. Tapi saja nak citer, registrar yg aku kerja malam ni ialah ED registrar yg amik locum job coz takde registrar malam ni. Aku kenal dia. Pernah kerja dgn dia byk kali since aku start kerja kat EH ni lagi. Rajin, pandai. Tapi, ya Allah! Swears like nobody's business, all the time. Perit jugak la telinga aku dengar dia komen itu ini, esp. pasal politics. Semuanye negative. Adoh, kadang sampai bini dia pon dia panggil B*! Korang agak sendiri la apa perkataan berbintang tu. Hahahaha. Takpe la tu, tak kisah. As long dia suka kerja dgn aku, and baik dgn aku tak buli aku cam si hampes tu. And dia pon one of the many ED registrars yg dah quit hospital training coz of had enuf with the politics, funding & working conditions. Rugi lah, Australian government still biar je rakyat jelata fall behind in their health care pasal diorang malas nak improve the situation.

Tak sabar abis shift. Lagi 6 jam nak abis ni. Aku datang lambat coz the day resident covered for me 2hours tadi. Jumaat hari tu aku dah datang awal for night shift to cover her. So dia balas balik balik tadi. Bagus la, aku ada extra masa nak buang kat rumah before coming to work.

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5pm, kat rumah.
Sambung. Hampes, aku tak dpt lelap mlm tadi koz registrar aku dok bantai tido berjam-jam. Aku sebenarnye tak berapa kisah coz dia kena gi court hari ni kasi statement. Bukan pasal dia punye salah. Tapi as a witness utk pesakit gila yg jadi penjenayah. Pagi tadi sebelum abis shift dia dah tukar pakai coat tie semua pasal kena gi court.

Actually semuanye quiet until around 530am, macam2 review from the ward. 2 yg boleh dilupakan. 1 post-op patient dropped GCS, mismanaged by anaesthetic reg & resident & ED & the whole ward basically. 1) The last BSL was 8.7 by the ambo, cant find any more documented in the rest of the notes since yesterday. Bila aku suggest check BSL while waiting for the bloods to come back & further brain storm apsal dia ni dropped GCS quickly... wooooo undetectable by glucometer & finally on ABG showed 0.2!!! Kami kasi la glucose cepat2 before dia koma terus. Slowly responding. 2) The rest of the bloods showed critically high lactate, low pH.. hence severe acidosis. Kami rehydrate her with dextrose. Bawak gi ICU. 3) She had ~3litres of bile washed out during her laparatomy for cholecystectomy. So she is pretty sick.
Kat ICU dia deteriorated, ni semua jadi around 730am++ when dah nak abis shift. Serious kelam kelibut. She appeared septic. Kesian that poor old lady. She is very sore in the tummy, ye la post op kan. Then kami tak dpt nak buat artline coz very peripherally shut down dah. Tiba big bosses pagi tu, lepas hand over, terus diorang intubate her. Harap-harap she survived. Kesian sangat.

Oh ye, ada this new med student final year of post grad from Deakin Uni datang buat her rotation here. Ches, sibuks je. Hahaha.. ada tanda2 jeles di situ. Ye la, dah la lawa, appears confident plak tu. Great personality jugak. Dgn aku yg tgh takde self-esteem buat masa ni mmg rasa nak suruh dia balik buat kerja apa dia buat before dia decided to jump to medicine. Post grad course for medicine ni slalunye shorter than the normal degree, utk org yg tak dpt buat medicine as their bachelor.

Lepas intubate tu aku balik rumah. Ingat nak singgah Chadstone to order this cookie cake from Mrs. Fields. Tapi dah ngantuks sangat. Balik je terus pengsan atas katil.

Flowers kat hospital

2011-01-28T16:39:00.006+11:00

More on flowers.

Ni semalam lepas case prezentation, aku gi hantar payslip kat bangunan HR. Berkesempatan snap some flower pics.

Aku dah lama nak amik gambar these cute little flowers kat depan building tpt aku slalu hantar my timesheet, where the HR lives. Its not alwiz aku pergi sini considering bangunan ni separate from the main hospital building & jauh nak jalan. Kalau drive pulak kena bayar parking. Baik aku parking kat hospital parking yg dah memang2 tolak from my pay. Dulu ada straight route to it from the main building but since the construction of the new hospital Critical Care building, derang dah tutup jalan tu so kena lalu jalan jauh lagi to get here. Walau pon senaman kiranye utk aku, aku malas gila nak pegi sini coz banyak org gila melepak kat entrance building ni. Thats because the building is also shared by the Psychiatry In-patient units (one for adults, one for children/teens), and other Mental Health services. Tak tau la apsal pandai sgt HR gi share this building with Mental Health services ni. Dulu dah elok2 kat main hospital building. And pasal org2 ni melepak depan building HR ni jugak yg menyebabkan aku tak amik gambar bunga2 ni setiap kali gi hantar timesheet/ amik payslips kat sini. Mostly aku tak tau nama flowers ni.

This is the white version of the konon-konon weed yg aku citer hari tu

My favourite!! Comel sgt these deep red flowers

Cute purple flowers

Ada banyak lagi bunga, nanti2 aku usahakan amik gambar lagi, provided those psych patients takde lepak2 kat depan building ni. My life is very simple eh. Aku suka flowers yg kat pokok, but not bouquet hadiah utk aku coz nanti lama2 dia akan layu & aku jadi sedih kena buang bunga2 tu. Nak bela bunga sendiri plak malas. Baik bela sayur or buah, at least kenyang. Hehehehe.

Okay, am getting ready for night shift. Ciao.

Prezo petang ni

2011-01-27T10:04:00.004+11:00

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Malam tadi aku tido lambat gila just for the final touch ups for my presentation. Hari ni plak bgn awal. Malam tadi dok mimpi about this presentation. Of course la aku takut coz topic yg aku dapat tu susah, it was supposed to be presented by an ICU registrar not watak picisan like me. And lebih menakutkan pasal bosses & their trainees in ICU/ ED +/- Anaesthetics will be there. Selalu meeting gini resident cam aku ni mana la pegi. Berdebar gila, cam kena AF plak. Takut aku gagap or pengsan terus je nanti.

Tajuk prezo aku ialah Neuroleptic Malignant Syndrome- A Diagnostic Dilemma. Dah siap dah semua mlm tadi. Tapi ni jap lagi nak baca satu2 mana tau ada menda aku miss/ silap ke. Kena careful in this kind of meeting. Maklumla org2 besar ada di sana.

Doakan aku selamat pegi & balik, doakan aku diberi kekuatan to face this meeting, doakan aku berotak cergas & tak mati kutu time prezo nanti. InsyaAllah.

Kalau aku lama tak update ini blog lepas ni, maknanye either coz aku busy sebab straight to night shift for the next 4 nights OR aku memang kecewa sgt dgn diri sendiri sebab prezo tu. Harap2 sebab yg pertama tu. Amin.

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Okay, Alhamdulillah case prezo ok je. Walaupon aku terketar2, yg penting dah pon disampaikan. Aku presenter last skali so mmg tak byk soalan, and tak meleret2 coz dah tak cukup masa. Lega aku. Hehehhee.

Petang tu kami went to the city for dinner, and lepas dinner dok melepak kat Max Brenner kat Melbourne Central. Kat QV punye slalu penuh & tutup awal. Btw, masing2 dah penuh perut masa makan sini and aku pon dah start reflux, aku tak abis my drink & the waffle. Sebab seat kami di sebalik dinding, maka senang la aku membungkus waffle tu. =P duit weh.

Nombor order kami kat Max Brenner. Coincident dgn giliran prezo aku ptg tadi

My drink: dark chocolate with crispy waffle balls

Tuty fruity waffles

Yummilicious!!

Hubby's expresso

Abis dah...

Nak tau apsal aku gila sangat dgn Belgian waffles kat Max Brenner ni? Sebab rasanye yg manis, tak rasa telur sangat (yg slalu buat aku cam mual sket), and dia tebal & crispy on the outside, lovely inside. Teringat zaman aku kecik2 dulu kat US. Love waffles! Setakat ni aku tak jumpa lagi waffle batter yg rasa dia mcm tu unless beli yg ready made tinggal nak masuk dlm toaster je. Ada yg crispy but then rasa telur kuat sgt, ada yg lembut macam getah. LG punye batter recipe aku tak try lagi coz lepas hari tu tak berkesempatan buat yet. See how we go bila aku dah try nanti.

Malam tu bercita-cita lah aku nak stay up lama-lama coz kerja malam this weekends, plus Friday aku kena gi awal covering for my fren & he will cover for me next weekend plak.

Cuti Australia day, bunga & rumpai

2011-01-26T12:52:00.008+11:00

Malam tadi Dr. HAK & I went to the city to meet up with Dr. AI. Saja last kumpul 3 org girls mungkin last tahun ni coz Dr. AI dah nak balik M'sia in 2wks time. DIa nak berehat setahun from dunia perubatan ni. Sedih la jugak, member baik nak balik M'sia. Tinggal berapa kerat je kami kat sini. Went to eat at this nice restorant in Docklands.

Caramel pannacotta with citrus syrup yg aku & Dr. HAK order.. nyaaamm!

Sticky date puding yg diorder oleh Dr. AI.. sedaaap!

Hari ni plak cuti umum negara.. Australia Day. YL buat bday party for her daughter. Aku tak pergi coz kena siapkan this presentation for tomorrow (presentation yg akan menentukan hidup matiku for the next few months). Hubby pon tak pegi coz he's meeting up with his friend in the city.

Haaa.. ni nak kenalkan some of the flowers/ weeds kat rumah aku. Flowers tu sumer ditanam oleh tuan rumah. Some weeds (yellow ones) tumbuh sendiri coz kami separa malas jaga lawn. To me the flowers here are more cantik dp the flowers I had kat rumah lama dulu.

Tak tau lily apa ni

Ni mungkin sama geng dgn lily kat atas tu kot. Tak tau jenis apa
Ni pon sama, tak tau apa nama pokok bunga ni
Ni dia punye pucuk muda
Pokok rose renek yg aku tak sedar pon kewujudannye, tapi cute

Lagi pokok ros renek sebelah sana
Agapanthus purple depan rumah. (Thanks Lemongrass).
Ramai org rajin tanam ni. Ada kaler putih juge

Lagi rumpai kat halaman rumah... tak lama lagi selamat la dia kena cantas

Next time perkembangan cili & sayuran kat sini plak. Now back to work!

Duet papa & daughter yg sangat sweet =)

2011-01-25T14:52:00.004+11:00

Video ni sangat sweet!!! Korang kena tengok.. comel gila!

Ni video of a father duet dgn anak dara dia kat Yahoo! Shine.
http://shine.yahoo.com/event/momentsofmotherhood/this-week-in-mom-dad-and-daughter-duet-2444229/

Gambar selingan rumpai kat my backyard

Nanti aku dah ada anak nanti, tak kira la laki ke pompuan ke, aku ajak duet dgn aku.. nyanyi lagu dermatome dance.. hehehhhehee...
Bila rasa insap sket aku duet dgn dia ngaji plak =P