Happy Fathers's Day

Happy Fathers' Day to my father & now my brother in kL. 
Mothers' Day was last month, but to me everyday is Mothers' & Fathers' Day!

Abah & mak, mi padre y madre, the greatest gifts Allah swt gives us. No words can describe how much we appreciate & love you. No deeds can ever repay what you have done for us. 

Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki, sihat, tenang, bahagia & diberkatiNYA di dunia & akhirat. 

To my brother, now you know what being a father is all about. Treasure the journey & hope the experiences somehow make the link between you & abah stronger. 

Take care. 

What am I...

Salam Ramadhan.

More than half way until Eid, Alhamdulillah fasting has been cool for hubby & I. Cool & cold. Hah. 
Seksa nak bangun sahur coz so freakin' cold, and coz of buka puasa awal both of us tend to over-eat. 

I read a blogpost about a girl who wrote on her dilemma of coming from a mix-marriage family. I can totally relate to her; growing up I didnt have it easy, and I can kinda say that I sort of hated my school years. 

My siblings and I are rojak offsprings. (I love rojak!!). I am a Muslim, and proud of my roots.

Growing up I rarely had many friends, let alone 'best-buddies'. My friends were those ones who were being shunned away from the people around us; those who were chubby, from mix-marriage family, not-as-cute-&-pretty, those with disability; you know, those who are 'different'.

I remember, in junior school, which ever group that I tried to be friends with, I kept on getting this: you are not Malay, you look like 'Indons' so go to the others, then laughters. you are not Chinese, you dont look like us, you cant even talk Chinese, go away, then laughters. you are not Indian, you dont look like us, you dont even understand us, then laughters. Those who have seen either my parents send me to/ pick up from school will just make funny remarks e.g. keling / cina bab* / indon etc. Very very hurtful words. This went on through high school, not as much coz most of the time I would not dare to say I was from a mix marriage family. A bit shameful. That for the sense of being accepted that I'd been longing for.
I cannot imagine how my brothers went through school with all these.. did they go through the same or was it just me being over dramatic.

I continued my studies in Melbourne a while back. In short, the experience really opened my mind & my heart after so long of covering everything. I am proud of who I am and my roots. As an adult only I feel much appreciated by people around me.. I am special. Now I dont really care of what people say or think of me. I am proud of my family, those who actually made me who I am now & who continue to support me ups & downs.

When I accidentally meet those people who bullied me when I was at school, looking at their lives, I sometimes would just say to myself 'look who has the last laugh now'. I feel bad to think that low. People can be as nasty as they want to be.. in the end karma will bite back. That I believe. And I am just grateful of what I am, what I have achieved so far & just life. People will continue to judge as long as forever, but its you who has the power to shine through all this. And for those people who have helped me grow even in those nasty ways, I wish you well. 


Alhamdulillah to life & all.

Take care.

A Sad Day..

8th March 2014.

Just as I was switching on my fon that was charging earlier, got a message from my dad that my beloved uncle just passed away :'(

Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun.. a very much respected, admired & loved family just returned to the Almighty Creator. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmatNYA & ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. 

Arwah paklong dah selamat dikebumikan petang tu. Alhamdulillah pemergiannye mudah & dia diuruskan with all dignity that he deserved. 

I honestly dont know what to do because I am here, they are overseas. I really want to be there with my family. Terpaksa kerja with sick patients to distract my head. I guess life has to carry on. Kita yang hidup akan terus mendoakan kesejahteraan our loved ones di alam barzakh & keberkatan for those yg masih hidup.

Sedih. I am here treating the sickies but I am so far away to be able to make a difference for my own family across the sea. Cant wait to finish this freaking training to get back to my family :'(

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Then later that day read in the news that MH 370 KL- Beijing outbound was MIA 2hours into their journey. The flight carried 327 passengers + 12 crews, and we dont really know their status at this stage. My heart really goes to them & their loved ones. May everything goes smoothly & everyone around them are given the strength to go through this. Tak lupa juga those involved in searching, organizing, coodinating, info centres, etc in relation to the search of MH 370. 

For others yg nak mempolitikkan & menghina this event, shame on you. If you refuse to redirect your soul & attitude, just keep it to yourselves. No one wants to share your rotten thoughts at this moment, or ever.

Its been a sad weekend indeed. Take care everyone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ABAH!!

This post was supposed to be up on Monday. I was working nights in ICU over the weekends & sambung lagi Monday night. Tidak berkesempatan.

Anyway, here it is. 

Every child will say their dad is the greatest in their lifetime. Well, mine is the greatest dad in the world. I cherish all the time with you, the wise words you say, the things you do and everything else. May you be blessed with all the best in the world and much more. Semoga panjang umur & murah rezeki & bahagia selalu & diberkatiNYA. 

I am sorry I'm not there to celebrate your special day but yeah, dekat di mata & dekat di hati always. 

Happy birthday, abah!

Love you. 

~A~

~Happy ** Birthday to Me~ =D

Happy Birthday

to

ME!!

25th May 2012

Pingu is celebrating my birthday on TV. Ahaks! =D

gambar pingu frm tv ABC2. pingu celebrate bday dia wit me =)

 

Okay, time to get ready to work.
 Ciao 

Happy 28th Birthday, Adikku

Semalam birthday adik aku si H3 yg berada di Manchester & sedang menghadapi exams. La ni birthday adik aku lagi sorang, si H2 plak. Dah sangat-sangat dewasa dah tu, 28 tahun dah. Hehheheh.
Dekat je dengan usia lanjut aku nih. Hahaha.

Anyways,

Happy 28th Birthday,

Semoga panjang umur & murah rezeki alwiz, Semoga berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat, Allah swt always has lots of great things in store for us, InsyaAllah, just hafta grab the opportunities & bersyukur.
Hugs.

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Happy 21st Birthday, Adikku =)

Today is my brother H3's 21st birthday. I am here in Melbourne, tak diberi rezeki nak physically celebrate birthday with him :'( He is in Manchester having his end of 1st semester exams. Kesian =P, setiap tahun pon sambut birthday during exam time, no different this year. Dah la 21st.. a milestone where some people say a mark of full adulthood (kata orang-orang Western la kot). Anyways,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!

Semoga panjang umur, dilimpah rezeki yg diberkatiNYA alwiz.
Now dah dewasa, no more excuses to NOT be more matured & responsible =D Join me, mak, abah, abang & other adults in all those pening-kepala-adult-stuff. Hehehehhe.
Take care always,
We all love you lots.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ABAH!! =)

Happy Birthday to my abah kesayangan.

Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki & diberkatiNYA. Semoga diberi kesihatan yg berpanjangan & diberi kesenangan hidup di dunia & akhirat.
Thanks for being a great dad to all fo us.
We all love you lots.
~your daughter yg tak berapa nakal tapi baik hati~

(Pic dari ihsan Google.com)

Pick up Adik

Aku tengah menunggu kol 1am jap lagi ni nak gi Tullamarine airport nak ngangkut adik aku H3. Dia naik Emirates landing kol 1:02am kot. Tapi coz aku lalu Citylink & ni tgh2 pagi buta weekday ni so mebbie akan sampai sangat cepat kat sana. Ye la dgn immigresen lagi, huhahuha sumer tu, ngam ngam la aku sampai kot.

Rumah tak abis kemas lagi sebenarnye. Tapi takpe, asalkan tempat tido & mandi kencing berak sumer tu bersih bersinar lagi harum so boleh lagi ditangguhkan sedikit lagi. Now dah tambah lagi sorang helper boleh 'aku' basuh kereta, cabut rumput, cuci lantai, kemas kotak, etc. Bagus bagus bagus. >:)

Anyway, hari ni the only day off selepas a.m. shifts ujung minggu lepas, then sambung evening shift jap lagi start kol 2 jap lagi. Oh, how much I hate evening shifts coz abis midnight :(

Disebabkan 1 hari je off, maka aku pon kena la memasak dinner/sahur dgn bersungguh-sungguhnye. Kali ni kena masak lebih lagi coz lagi satu perut nak suap ni. Lenguh la jugak badan aku sumer berdiri lama gila kat dapur tu. Harap2 cukup la makanan until Friday nanti. Hmm.. tapi kalau abis suku jalan, hubby kena la bawak adik aku kuar makan, since aku ni a bit protective & possessive about people cooking in 'my' kitchen. Kalau nak masak boleh, asalkan rumah takde bau dlm erti kata lain buka tingkap sliding door tutup pintu bilik tido pasang full blast ventilator yg memekakkan tu & dapur licin berkilat bila aku balik kerja nanti. Bolehkah?

Kuah asam laksa. Sardine dlm tin dah abis, maka aku humban saja all the tuna that I could find in the pantry, walaupon ada yg berperisa. Rasanye sedap la jugak.

Murtabak segera ikut resepi Dapur Tanpa Sempadan, CMG.

Tadi balik dp grocery shopping aku snap la gambar2 bunga2 kat luar ni. Sejak last week aku noticed some pokok dah start tumbuh pucuk2 & anak2 bunga. Signs of spring coming soon. But the weather in Melbourne currently is actually heading south.. a real Melbourne winter.. seeejuuukkksss!! And akan makin sejuk in the coming week seperti kata pakar kajicuaca Australia. Oh no...

Pokok dlm garden aku dah berputik, its a matter of time now yg aku kena tebas menebas semula.

Pokok depan rumah di luar pagar sana

Rumput luar rumah

Bunga kat postbox

Okay ciao, kena get ready.

Al-Fatihah buat arwah nenek...

Pagi tadi dapat phone call & sms frm my parents, that my dad's mum meninggal dunia before Subuh tadi.
:'(

Al-Fatihah buat arwah Hajijah bt Kasim. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama-sama orang-orang yg beriman & dicucuri rahmatNYA.

I doakan my dad stay strong. I will alwiz doakan u & mum & our family & the rest of umat Islam sentiasa diberkati Allah swt.

Love is...

Not quite right in the head & everything, hence I'm at home today.
I was staring at the book shelf when suddenly felt like going thru the stuff in there... found this book that I bought a few years ago but never managed to finish it.. or rather it just sat there collecting dust...

Some of the pages... Most of which remind me of the things that I should have done long time ago...

We tend to take everything around us for granted, just because they are there... and we never appreciate them until they are gone... :'(

"Ya Allah, berilah kami kekuatan menghadapi kehidupan ini. Ya Allah, hanya kepada Engkaulah kami bermohon, hanya kepada Engkaulah kami kembali... Amin."

People, please doakan hubby & I bahagia ke akhir hayat kami...

Happy Birthday my Dearest Brothers

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H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y

1. H3 on the 20th Jan
2. H2 on the 21st Jan

All the very best in life, semoga hidup diberkatiNYA. Jangan lupakan kami bila dah berjaya. And alwiz remember that we alwiz love both of you to bits.

Diorang dua ni bukan kembar. Jaaaauh skali. Umur beza 7 tahun. Sorang kat Malaysia, sorang kat Manchester. Rupa & style sangat lain, perangai pon lain-lain skali. Tapi diorang sama-sama hensem & they share a birthday month & dua-dua adik kesayangan aku. Hopefully sama-sama berjaya dalam hidup dalam bidang masing-masing.


Cam tu la aku busy manjang sampai tak sempat nak buat entry khas utk dua-dua orang adik aku nih. Sedih tol. Sorry sangat2 cant be there with u guys on ur special day. Sedih la tak dapat be there with my family for their special occasions. I hope I can be there di saat-saat muram mereka if I cant be there with them on their saat-saat ceria. Susah jadi org jauh gini... ketinggalan, kehilangan...

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Santai, XMas & the Departure...

Sambungan citer visit hari tu.

The final few days tu diorang just lepak2 beli apa yg patut. Seronok jugak dok rumah dgn family. Kalau tak rasa kosong je dok kat tanah asing ni. Tak shopping anything special coz barang Aussie mahal sangat. Only some small souvenirs je nak kasi sedara-mara sahabat-handai di sana. Petang-petang plak adik aku main bola sepak dgn hubby kat padang sini.

Ni dinner kat rumah TTM on Friday; Adik aku ngan hero-hero TTM & Lybeau

Christmas day gi jemputan kat rumah Dr. MJ.
Ni kereta Dr. ZJ yg adik aku dah lama minat sangat. Posing jap
Dinner malam last tu, aku paksa adik aku tolong aku masak.

Ni dia yg masak, ikut arahan aku guna bahan2 yg aku dah sediakan. Sedap!

Then the time came for them to depart back to M'sia. Sedih la. Memang rasa sikit sangat time with them kat Melbourne ni. And boleh dikatakan sejak mereka jejak kaki kat Melbourne ni walaupon aku happy, still jiwa aku tak tenteram memikirkan yg the time diorang kat sini sangat pendek.
Bergelen jugak air mata aku nangis kat airport tu. Aku memang emo. Salah sorang adik aku yg kini kat M'sia tu slalu ckp dah tua pon nak nangis jugak. Well.. tua-tua pon, still diorang ni family aku, darah daging aku. Aku tak suka dok sini tanpa family aku. That day and for the next few days tu terasa sangat kekosongan. Sedih sangat. Kalau tak buat apa-apa with them pon takpe, just their presence dah buat jiwa aku tenang kat sini. Nak rasa mcm normal family life that I feel like I've lost for the past 15yrs just bcoz aku sentiasa away from home sebab belajar. I wish they were here, and I know I'm being selfish to wish for that.
And that day reality hit really hard... berbalik ke dunia nyata with work, study, house, etc... reality is not that sweet :'( :'( :'(

Kat Nandos Tullamarine Airport that morning

Cherries

Semalam aku & hubby gi bushwalking kat Langwarrin Flaura & Fauna Reserve kat Frankston. It was bright & nice. Good for relaksasi sambil menikmati keindahan alam. Nanti kemudian aku bubuh gambar2nya kat sini.

Utk posting ni, aku sambung cerita pasal family aku gi cherry picking on 23rd Dec 2010 kat Cherry Haven kat Wandin East, near Lilydale sana. Masa ni tak hujan, tapi still sejuk berangin. Hubby tak ikut coz he had to go work on that day. Tak byk sgt gambar coz kami busy petik cherries yg pelbagai tu. Best! Ada byk gak pokok yg byk buah, mostly kecik2 walaupon dah masak. I think coz tak cukup cahaya matahari. Ada more than 30 varieties of cherries here, my favourites are yg cherry kaler hitam, purple & satu lagi jenis yg rupa cam apple, rasa crunchy tak tau nama dia. Yg crunchy ni tak byk masa kami pergi tu coz of cuaca kot. And musim cherry di Cherry Haven kali ni sangat pendek coz of the weather. Hanya di bulan December 2010 saja. Tak tau la tpt lain lebih panjang sket ke, but this time byk ladang2 buahan buka for a short period of time coz spring & summer this time tak byk matahari.

Cherry merah masam

My favourite, cherry hitam. Sedap & manis

Berpiknik kat bawah pokok for lunch

Bergambar dgn 6.3kg worth of cherries, different varieties! Berat wehhh..
Small portion tinggal sini, the rest diorang bawak balik M'sia.
Ye la, kat M'sia takde pelbagai jenis fresh cherries sedap gini kan.

Ni one of the few species yg pokoknye renek belaka. Buahnye merah gelap tapi masam!
Orang panggil sour cherries, sesuai utk masak

Gaya mamat macho.. =D Aku gelak je la bila dia beria-ia suruh aku amik gambar gaya ni.
Layan je la...

Bye-bye Cherry Haven, 'til next time...

...to be continued...