Been a while...

Its been a while since I last wrote anything. Vitamin M bermaharaja lela, as always. Also been busy with work etc. 

Anyways, the past half a week been great in terms of the weather. I mentioned before, a great weather brings a lot of positivity in everything.

I'm going to change the way I write. I love writing. I love this blog. It's been my mini outlet (all the smart & dumb things). But unfortunately, it is getting harder to sit & write properly due to time constraints (alasan je kot). 

Last weekend:
Friday- went to see Fantastic Beast movie with the other half & a couple of our friends. Me no see movie, that's me all the time. So went in with low expectations, plus I've never seen the rest of Harry Potter movies nor read the series (probably the only one on the planet, Harry has never interested me anyway). But really enjoyed the movie tbh. And we spent a few hours eating pancakes & borak2 at the nearby 24-hour Pancake Parlour. Nak celebrate bday Dr. A.

Saturday- Lepak, laundry 4,5 rounds (reasons many rounds ialah I tend to separate my gentle white, gentle coloured, towels/sweaters, daily mixed, etc, tu yg bunyi mcm byk gila laundry). Also went to Marmara, Dandenong, to get some party pies & deli meat for tomorrow's adventure. 32°c!

Sunday- Went to Cherry Haven, Wandin East with some friends from Malaysia. Someone I used to go to high school with. She used to study here, last here was 12yrs ago! 32°c today too! Woohoo! Great cherries. Sent them back to their AirB&B. We got stuck for a few moments on Exhibition St/ Bourke St because ada rally oleh group 'Say No to Racism'. Banyak police. Apparently hari ni both right & left wing groups ada rally. 

There. See ppl soon

2016: All the best

Agak-agak kemalasan hard core. I copied & pasted some old ones on new years resolution.
This blog has been moldy agaknye been a while since I last wrote anything unimportant =)

Kinda late-ish to wish happy new year to all. Sometimes I get a bit lagged on writing the dates esp at work, kinda 1 year behind. Sigh...

This year, so far I have been semangat nak stick to my azam tahun baru:
1. Continue azam tahun-tahun lepas yg tak berapa dipenuhi.  Oh well, I dont even remember most of it. But will refer to them bila-bila senang.

2. Nak datang kerja on time. So far so good. Datang on time, or awal 2,3 minutes, really naikkan semangat bekerja =P

3. Nak senaman lebih sket. So far been to the 1000-steps/ Kokoda Memorial Trail kat Dandenong Ranges almost every week with Encik Hubby or with a group of friends. In mid January baru ni, I was forced to go to the 1000 steps by my workmates. Not only naik turun satu loop, diorang paksa go up & down twice. And yes, am happy I actually did that. Cant believe been in Au for a while & didnt know/ didnt even step a foot there. 
Also we went to Tasmania early January baru ni, did lots of walking & outdoor-sy stuff. Really enjoyed being active.

4. Nak kurangkan gula, garam, oil; other rubbish in food. And replace with balanced food. 
Now I drink tea with only half a teaspoon of sugar VS dulu 2 teaspoon. And slowly I find that even that somehow manis esp for the decaf tea. And for coffee, no sugar for many years now. Yes!! Jimat gula!

5. Nak kurangkan bazir-bazir esp on beauty items, food stuff, pakaian/kasut/bags. One good start is to keep tab of those stuff. And derma most of the items yg dah tak nak, or dah tak muat.

6. Nak keep in touch with others more. I will start with 1-2 ppl dlm my contact list to just msg via watsapp/ fb/ viper/ etc a week. No man's an island. 

7. Nak keep in touch with my artsy self more. For a start, to continue regularly updating this blog =). Today's post is a start for 2016.

8. Nak tengok more documentaries, cooking show, etc that's not related to drama/ fiction.
My current favs: Cutthroat Kitchen. Tiny House Hunters. History channels. Cartoons (Scooby Doo, Legend of Chima, Batman, etc)

9. Nak look after the garden more. We have 5-6 chilli trees of different variations now. Yg lama mati during the last winter. Alhamdulillah growing with lots of hasil. Also our daun kesum, given by Mak Long & Pak Long growing, surviving. Aloe vera tree, given during pindah dulu still alive. Now next nak start grow some serai & mebbie lemons/ limes in a pot.

10. Nak be a better person in general. 

11. This year, I am doing a part time job. A lot on my plate currently. One of it is to complete my 4:10/ masters diploma for my Advanced Training. Also nak start studying for the fellowship exam yg ntah bila aku nak sit. This year ED college dah tambah some new rules e.g. more assessments to be completed etc. So need to focus on that. THese are only the career bit. Ada lagi menda lain yg aku nak buat/ approach for this year. Latersss. 

Banyak la pulak azam tahun baru ni. Well, I truly want to fulfill these this time. Bubuh kat blog supaya ingat bila baca-baca balik what I've written here. 

Selamat tahun baru 2016. Semoga it fills with joy, prosperity, love, and all the best in life, and beyond to all of us. 

Take care all.

Minggu ke-3 Ramadhan 1436H

Alhamdulillah, dah nak masuk hari ke-21 Ramadhan 1436H. I am writing this at the hospital at around 430am. Will have my sahur, some light munchies at around 530am nanti. Doakan no patients come in until handover time, yo! InsyaAllah.

This is my 6th of 7 night shifts, and 3 more shifts to go until cuti raya!!! Sad because leaving to this place, which has been good to me, but I'm very excited raya!

Sedih sungguh dengar lagu raya & tengok iklan-iklan raya in between patients tonight. In fact, I have been doing it since 3 malam yang lalu. Pagi-pagi around 6am lepas sahur around Subuh time ada rancangan Ramadhan on channel 31. Aku tak berpeluang nak tengok of course, while doing night shifts so far. Other than that kat sini takde rancangan Ramadhan, iklan raya, rancangan raya, apa-apalah yg berkaitan. So feel nye kurang sedikit. Tambah-tambah lagi waktu puasa yg pendek, & orang-orang sekeliling tak beberapa memahami. Ada some Muslim groups & masjid-masjid yg buat solat Terawih with their buka puasa + moreh. Those yg tak berkesempatan to join, buat sendiri je kat rumah with own family. Kena sendiri proactive & kuat.

Persediaan raya hmmm... takde kot from here. I will probably buat some kuih later on, after puasa la kot. Some friends will be sitting for their specialty exams around hari raya time and again around raya haji nanti, so tak berapa meriah sangat this year.

Oh ya! I wouldnt know my patients Muslims or not kalau tak pasal nama or the way they dress themselves. There has been a few times when some names yg aku tak recognize, to my surprise tapi they wish me selamat berpuasa & ask me if ubat mata/ telinga will affect their fasting. Banyak nama yg aku tak kenal from Turkey, South Afrika, Eastern European, Rusia, China sana, dan lain-lain. Nice. Kalau bukan bulan puasa, from my observation so far, kind of difficult to recognize diorang tu Muslims or not. Tapi bulan Ramadhan, it brings all these Muslims together. Pakai tudung or not, janggut or not, tattoo or not, modern tradisional, practising or not, semua are connected somehow. It is a nice feeling. Bulan berkat. Alhamdulillah.

And Alhamdulillah, so far Allah swt permudahkan my Ramadhan. Semoga di akhir-akhir Ramadhan, Allah swt continues giving berkat, kemudahan, kekuatan to all Muslims as well as others. Take care all.

2 Minggu Dah Ramadhan 1436H

Alhamdulillah dah day 14 of Ramadhan 1436H. Alhamdulillah jugak tahun ini so far I feel agak tenang berpuasa. Maybe kat tempat kerja ramai yg memahami. And sebab buka puasa agak awal, cuaca yg sejuk bangat, so tak terasa sangat puasanya. Cuma sometimes in the morning rasa nak minum tea & coffee while I'm at work or studying at home. 

I am starting night shifts tomorrow night. So agak best, coz boleh makan minum non-stop sampai la agak-agak pukul 5 pagi for sahur, then makan lagi sampai pukul 6 pagi. Hehehe. Then pukul 745am handover, then 8 pagi dah boleh selamat blah dari hospital untuk membuta, etc. And bangun sebelum pukul 5 petang untuk prepare buka puasa which is currently at 512pm. 

Hopefully dengan keberkatan Ramadhan, my final week of night shifts at the Eye & Ear Hospital wont be busy & semua rakyat jelata Victoria sihat walafiat tak perlu hospital tengah-tengah malam buta. So that I will have enuf time to study, bookkeeping, hal-hal training, etc, something useful for myself & work. InsyaAllah. 

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Today I am thankful for:

1. Had more than enuf sleep. Ahaks! (Sampai headache dah ni).

2. Made some dessert. Sagu gula melaka. Cuma nye takde susu/ santan to eat it with. Hafta wait for hubby balik rumah time Isyak nanti. 

3. Had some time, even though only a little bit, to read stuff on ophthalmology. Call me nerd. If I get to study only one tiny aspect of medicine & it sticks in my head, I am very happy already =)

Minggu ke-2 Puasa

Hari ni masuk minggu ke-2 Ramadhan 1436H. Hari ke-8 kita berpuasa, well, at least here in Melbourne & in KL too. 

Alhamdulillah, everything is going well. Kami bangun sahur around 5ish am, with whatever leftovers from the night before. Today buka puasa is at 510pm. Aku dah 2 hari off days, so lepas Subuh tu unfortunately membuta sampai Zohor. Ahaks. So not productive. Semalam terlajak tido sampai sebelum Asar hence pening kepala. To avoid me being nonproductive so aku merayau ke Chadstone mall. And left just after buka puasa. 

So today kena masak sikit because not only lauk dah dihabiskan masa sahur pagi tadi, but also because I am working over the weekends. Tak tau lagi nak masak apa. Dah kuarkan beef, and I hafta finish the mushrooms & butternut pumpkin & the thickened cream secepat mungkin. So mebbie menu hari ini ialah beef stew, mushrooms & pumpkin soup, roast potatos, fennel & orange salad, and mebbie some sort of nasi or mee or pasta to add up the carbs. Yup, we love our carbs & protein! =) Tengoklah nanti macam mana jadinya. I will only start cooking after Isyak kot jap gi or kalau rajin after Maghrib. 

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Today, I am thankful for:

1. The not-so-cold winter day, that we got some sunlight even though it was only for a few hours. Alhamdulillah. 

2. I got enough rest at home, even though it hasnt been productive. Alhamdulillah.

3. We have food at home, even though I dont always have much idea what to cook. Alhamdulillah. 

Salam Ramadhan 1436H

It's the 4th day of Ramadhan 1436H. Alhamdulillah, it has been smooth for us. 

It is winter, so puasa this time agak senang. Buat masa ni Subuh is aound 601am, Maghrib is around 508pm. Lebih kurang 11jam 7minit je puasa. Nak buka puasa too festives pun tak sempat if it is hari kerja sebab waktu buka pun sebelum kerja habis. Sampai rumah cukup-cukup makan utk solat Maghrib. Well that is if kerja office hours la. Kat sini mana ada balik kerja pukul 3pm for Ramadhan mcm kat M'sia. So it is always dinner lah. And sahur will be the big breakie before work. 

I still remember the time when we had to puasa during peak summer here in Melbourne. Subuh lebih kurang pukul ~3++am & buka puasa ~9pm, dlm 18 jam jugak puasanye. Agak mencabar la jugak, Summer yg panas kering, sana-sini org buat barbeque coz org sini asalkan ada matahari je mesti nak buat bbq, and iklan makan & minum di tv. Fuh! 

Petang semalam kami played a bit of badminton around 4pm-5pm. Yg lain-lain tu agak active jugak, but me like always, kurang tenaga, kurang semangat, kurang stamina. Masa main tu rasa mcm terbayang-bayang je katil. Haha. Tapi by the time habis main, dah nak berbuka puasa. So kami pakat minum air kelapa dlm tin beramai-ramai kat luar badminton hall tu. Then singgah (a.k.a. crashed) rumah a friend makan dinner. Hehehe. 

And pagi ni ingat nak drive to halal McDonald's near Dandenong. Tapi dah masing-masing malas. Tambahan pulak aku masak laksa kedah malam semalam lepas balik dinner from that friend's house, ada lebih lagi. Makan tu je la. Maybe esok kot bila-bila when dah takde makanan boleh la pergi. 

Selamat berpuasa Ramadhan 1436H. 

Winter Chill

It is mid- June. It has been a very cold winter. In fact winter came a bit earlier than winter itself. It has been persistently lower single digit every night & frosty early morning. The sun comes out late morning for a few hours, at least kinda giving hope to the otherwise gloomy day. Winter officially goes on until 31st August, so we have a long way to go still. Sigh...

I have about 1 month left at the Royal Eye & Ear Hospital to finish my 6-month rotation, and I already feel sad about returning back to my old hospital. Earlier this year on my last day at the old hospital, I was slightly sad on to leave before starting at the Eye & Ear. But here I have already started feeling sad to leave again. I am really enjoying my time here. Sigh.. 

We ED registrars work every other weekends. This weekend is my working weekends. Am doing arvo shift, meaning I finish at midnight. Had a short breakie with hubby & a friend, then back at home. Still sleepy coz slept late last night, and woke up early for breakie today. But it's all worth it. Kinda the last breakie before puasa Ramadhan 1436H. After that mebbie will be a few weeks after Aidilftri coz most of my friends are sitting their primary exams around that time. And at the same time this is the time for our annual work application and interview for next year. Sigh.. annoying that we have to do this every single year... never ending. 

Anyways, enuf of my winter-head ranting. Have a good & safe weekend everyone.

What am I...

Salam Ramadhan.

More than half way until Eid, Alhamdulillah fasting has been cool for hubby & I. Cool & cold. Hah. 
Seksa nak bangun sahur coz so freakin' cold, and coz of buka puasa awal both of us tend to over-eat. 

I read a blogpost about a girl who wrote on her dilemma of coming from a mix-marriage family. I can totally relate to her; growing up I didnt have it easy, and I can kinda say that I sort of hated my school years. 

My siblings and I are rojak offsprings. (I love rojak!!). I am a Muslim, and proud of my roots.

Growing up I rarely had many friends, let alone 'best-buddies'. My friends were those ones who were being shunned away from the people around us; those who were chubby, from mix-marriage family, not-as-cute-&-pretty, those with disability; you know, those who are 'different'.

I remember, in junior school, which ever group that I tried to be friends with, I kept on getting this: you are not Malay, you look like 'Indons' so go to the others, then laughters. you are not Chinese, you dont look like us, you cant even talk Chinese, go away, then laughters. you are not Indian, you dont look like us, you dont even understand us, then laughters. Those who have seen either my parents send me to/ pick up from school will just make funny remarks e.g. keling / cina bab* / indon etc. Very very hurtful words. This went on through high school, not as much coz most of the time I would not dare to say I was from a mix marriage family. A bit shameful. That for the sense of being accepted that I'd been longing for.
I cannot imagine how my brothers went through school with all these.. did they go through the same or was it just me being over dramatic.

I continued my studies in Melbourne a while back. In short, the experience really opened my mind & my heart after so long of covering everything. I am proud of who I am and my roots. As an adult only I feel much appreciated by people around me.. I am special. Now I dont really care of what people say or think of me. I am proud of my family, those who actually made me who I am now & who continue to support me ups & downs.

When I accidentally meet those people who bullied me when I was at school, looking at their lives, I sometimes would just say to myself 'look who has the last laugh now'. I feel bad to think that low. People can be as nasty as they want to be.. in the end karma will bite back. That I believe. And I am just grateful of what I am, what I have achieved so far & just life. People will continue to judge as long as forever, but its you who has the power to shine through all this. And for those people who have helped me grow even in those nasty ways, I wish you well. 


Alhamdulillah to life & all.

Take care.

Separuh Tahun Lagi..

Goshhh.. its July already!! Half a year has gone. Comes another half.


What have I achieved so far? Hmmm... rasanya tak banyak kot.. Maybe more of my disgusting fatty layers?

Okay what's due soon?


My research audit on trauma in our department is due next week on Thursday. Brapa banyak je yg aku dah siap?

This coming Thursday pulak ada Resus workshop. -!-" 

This coming weekend aku kerja arvo shifts, meaning abis midnight :( Tak boleh nak organize buka puasa ramai2 with friends here since most of them are working during weekdays. Then next weekends plak aku kerja night shifts :(

My structured references for advanced training still pending. Awaiting completion by the bosses. Sigh...

Have to work on applying jobs for next year. Ni tension. Every single year terasa mcm beggar pulak kena apply then go for job interview :(

Kena renew & pay our annual medical indemnity (insurance) & registration (lesen bekerja). Melayang lagi $$$$.. Sigh..

Tax return!!! Sigh...


Okay, since balik from cuti hari tu, aku dah kumpul sebulan punye June empties. Will post on that soon.


Housework.. kain baju, dapur, bathrooms, garden, etc.. Sigh..


I need to start studying in depth I guess. Primary exams dah abis last year. Now into advanced training. Most senior registrars start studying bit by bit at least 2 years prior to their fellowship (final) exams. Diorang kata sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit. And I am doing that, but my sikit-sikit tu lama-lama hilang tanpa kesan... masalah premature memory loss gamaknye... Sigh..


Today I am working arvo shift, abis midnight. So hubby will be eating dinner by himself. Dia buka puasa in the car or at work since buka puasa around 1712hrs, then eat propper dinner at home. Aku pun sama will be having my meal at work.


Salam Ramadhan all.

Salam Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum, selamat berpuasa Ramadhan 1435H. 
 
Alhamdulillah semalam start puasa on a Sunday, both of us tak kerja. So agak mendamaikan to start on a weekend. Bangun sahur agak mendera perasaan sebab sejuk ya amat. Around <5 buta="" degree--="" degree="" during="" pagi="" peak="" the="" tu.="">
Subuh starts at around 0603hrs & Maghrib is at 1711hrs. So minggu ni around 11+jam saja puasa. Buka puasa ringan2 then lepas Isyak, which is at 1838hrs, or around Masterchef baru dinner. Masterchef starts at 730pm. Agak awal to eat at 5++pm for dinner. 

Now is peak winter. Sejuk ya amat. But somehow ada gak selingan cahaya matahari despite the freezing weather. Jadi la, boleh la rasa sikit2 macam there's hope to life now. Sejuk beku tu tetap sejuk beku but like somehow looks different bila ada cahaya matahari, biarpun tak rasa pun kesuaman matahari tu.

My shifts this Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah, are evening shifts & nights. Cuma when balik midnight or later tu agak letih jugak nak tido, then bangun sahur around 5am. But at least boleh makan with hubby everyday, if not during buka pun. Have to masak awal when I am not working, at least when hubby gets home dah ada makanan panas. And like always, I cant always cook everyday, but will try to make something special when I'm on my days off.

These are the food I made last night, hoping to cover us at least until this wednesday. Aku kerja arvo shifts pulak this week, then on the weekends. Next weekends plak aku do night shifts from the friday until sunday. Hubby makan nasi with the kuah-kuah, while I just ate the mee hoon soup. Tak nak aaa bosan makan semua skali arung coz the food semua utk next few days. So kena tukar2 set.

Ayam masak lemak cili api segera with kentang & pickled mango (perencah brand Alif).

Rendang daging segera (perencah brand Brahims campur Mak Siti).

Sayur campur masak from scratch :P

Aku asik kempunan mee hoon soto/ mee hoon soup yg seangkatan dengannye. 

Ni mee hoon soup aku with steamed brocoli as sides.

Agar-agar jampu segera (brand apa ntah), with added peaches frm botol.

Anyways, going back to do some work. Selamat berbuka puasa bersama keluarga, rakan-rakan, teman sekerja, etc. Kalau like me at work, will be by myself la. And to me,it is a bliss to be on my own during this precious meal break, away from the chaos. 

Happy (not) Winter.. and Selamat Berpuasa Ramadhan 1435H

Lama gila tak update. Cam tu la aku ngan janji-janji palsuku. Ish... Dah winter-winter gini lagi la malas nak dok kat computer menaip. Kalau nak harapkan ipad tu lagi la malas nak menaip.

Apa jadi dgn aku since last update until now?
- bersosial bersukan makan-makan with friends. 
- balik Malaysia jumpa my adorable nephew. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
- holiday in Paris. Alhamdulillah, berapa tahun tu kumpul duit for that holiday. Gambar, hmmm.. nanti-nantilah. Agak2 bila la tu since vitamin M dah lama bertahta dlm diri ni. Heheheh.
- projects at work. 
- now is the time to update CV & cover letter, coz now is the time to apply jobs for next year. Remember aku pernah ckp dulu? This is around the time of misery for doctors coz system sini requires us to apply jobs for next year, interviews etc. Training position by the college is one thing, actual job is a separate thing. Tu yg semua doctors kena buat every year at about the same miserable time. Sometimes rasa mcm beggar pun ada.

Its mid winter now. Cuaca pun gloomy je manjang. Kalau ada matahari keluar pun, rasa mcm harapan palsu untuk hidup kembali. Matahari just keluar paling lama dlm 1/2jam to 1jam. Sedih.. 

Hujung minggu ni Alhamdulillah dah nak masuk Ramadhan. Bulan yg mulia. Semua kita semua tabah sabar & diberi kekuatan menunaikan ibadah berpuasa. Semoga kita semua dapat memanfaatkan peluang yg ada untuk mengejar rahmatNYA. 

Kat sini tak berapa best sgt coz mmg tak terasa suasana bulan puasa mcm kat Malaysia. But a lot of Muslim groups here try to hidupkan the experience dgn adanye majlis2 buka puasa, solat sunat terawih, programme jual beli, etc. Just kami2 ni je yg jarang join coz kerja & mostly jauh frm our place & mebbie ada sedikit malas di situ.

I will be working mostly evening & night shifts for this bulan Ramadhan, so kira mcm blessing jugak coz takde la penat during work. Just cant go to breakie like alwiz. Oh well, rehat jap wallet for day time foodie outing, jimat. Aku ni kalau boleh nak la sahur & buka puasa with encik suami but apakan daya kerja aku shifts & dia pon most of the time akan buka puasa dlm kereta/ train. And based on the past years experience, puasa di bulan sejuk agak mencabar nak bangun sahur coz sejuk beku and most of the times during the day rasa nak mengunyah/ minum air panas coz its sooooooo cold. And also rasa nak tido je coz sejuk2 ni senang ngantuk. It gets really dry pulak bila heater terpasang. So seb baik waktu puasa kejap je around 11+++jam total.

Anyways, selamat berpuasa semua. Aku tengah tengok-tengok webbies food untuk idea for buka puasa food. Not that I will cook everyday anyways, just mebbie spesel sket lah kan. 

A Sad Day..

8th March 2014.

Just as I was switching on my fon that was charging earlier, got a message from my dad that my beloved uncle just passed away :'(

Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun.. a very much respected, admired & loved family just returned to the Almighty Creator. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmatNYA & ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. 

Arwah paklong dah selamat dikebumikan petang tu. Alhamdulillah pemergiannye mudah & dia diuruskan with all dignity that he deserved. 

I honestly dont know what to do because I am here, they are overseas. I really want to be there with my family. Terpaksa kerja with sick patients to distract my head. I guess life has to carry on. Kita yang hidup akan terus mendoakan kesejahteraan our loved ones di alam barzakh & keberkatan for those yg masih hidup.

Sedih. I am here treating the sickies but I am so far away to be able to make a difference for my own family across the sea. Cant wait to finish this freaking training to get back to my family :'(

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Then later that day read in the news that MH 370 KL- Beijing outbound was MIA 2hours into their journey. The flight carried 327 passengers + 12 crews, and we dont really know their status at this stage. My heart really goes to them & their loved ones. May everything goes smoothly & everyone around them are given the strength to go through this. Tak lupa juga those involved in searching, organizing, coodinating, info centres, etc in relation to the search of MH 370. 

For others yg nak mempolitikkan & menghina this event, shame on you. If you refuse to redirect your soul & attitude, just keep it to yourselves. No one wants to share your rotten thoughts at this moment, or ever.

Its been a sad weekend indeed. Take care everyone.

Instagram: To Have or Not To Have?

Peer pressure lah nak ada Instagram nih. My brothers & my friends banyak kali asik tanya bila aku nak ada account instagram. Hubby yg busy dgn DSLR dia pun dah ada instagram. Haha.. kampung betul la aku nih cuma ada fb, twitter, blog je. Instagram pun dah disonglap oleh fb now.

Aku cam hmmm... kena buat SWOT analysis before I actually get one. Dulu- dulu tak nak coz masa tu tengah study for the primary ED exams. Then now dah abis exam, at least tak perlu nak stress study for at least another 2 years for the final fellowship ED exams. Ntah apa-apa je idea melagha menjelma masa tgh study tu. Now macam rasa malas nak buat apa-apa pun. 

At the moment, I am very much comfortable enjoying life with minimal connection to alam maya. Kadang tu bila kuar w some friends they dont really let their fon down. Rasa tak syok la pulak coz kita nak enjoy the moment with them. Kalau nak sibuk online better tak payah jumpa kan. But, tak tau la if tetiba kat spital nanti ke, malam karang ke, esok ke apa dah ada instagram kan. And aku harap at that time aku takde la sibuk ngadap fon/ ipad je coz sibuk nak build my image di alam maya, & forgetting the real world I am living in.

Dilemma..

Ngantuk! & Then More Food

Tadi tido afta Subuh. Bangun dekat2 tengah hari. Kira tak cukup tido la tu. Tapi paksa diri jugak bangun. Kalau tak abis la malam ni takleh tido. Esok dah la AM shift, then selasa PM shift. Selalu this particular boss garang AM shift monday & PM shift tuesday. Abis la kalau ngantuk & slow je for those shifts. Sejak bangun tak minum caffeine lagi ni. Kasi tido awal mlm karang. Then jap gi kena iron baju for the whole week. Takde la terkocoh-kocoh sebelum gi kerja nanti.

Hubby & I just got back from grocery shopping kat Chadstone. Slightly expensive if to compare dgn pasar Dandenong or pasar cina Clayton or Springvale. Tapi malas la nak drive gi sana. Sini dekat. Kena masak today 'coz esok start kerja balik, so kena ada food to bawak bekal. Takde idea lagi nak masak apa. Tapi kuarkan ikan, ayam & sausage ayam. Also dah kuarkan perencah Brahim's percik mebbie for the ikan, then the sausage tu mebbie nak buat pizza segera guna roti pita. 

Nanti aku update jap gi. 

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Okay, now I'm getting ready to sleep. Harap-harapnye boleh la tido coz esok ni shift pagi, and boss garang tu biasanye shift esok & selasa. Nak lagi best, harap-harapnye dia tgh holiday for the next few weeks. Heheheh..

Ni update apa aku masak tadi. 

Sayur campur kailan, brocoli, kobis, kacang buncis. Ikan percik guna rempah segera Brahim's. Ayam masak merah terlebih santan. Haiiyaaa!

  
Pizza segera guna pita bread mini besar tapak tangan. Isinye sausage ayam, nenas dlm tin, pitted olive beli kat Coles deli tadi, fresh button mushroom, some cheese (corby ke apa ntah). Senang sket nak bawak bekal esok & lusa gi kerja.

 Dah masak!

Ni bonus brownies aku buat hari tu, saja-saja. Ingat nak bake for nigth shift tapi mcm sedap je so aku simpan la makan sendiri-sendiri je. 

 

Okay, good night all. Semoga minggu ini lebih baik dari minggu-minggu sebelum ni. Semoga kita semua diberi kekuatan, kemudahan & keberkatanNYA.

Menyampah Tak Boleh Tido..!!

Geram la pulak dah near 4am, tapi takleh lelapkan mata.

Tadi aku tido like normal around 11'ish. Walaupon siang bangun kinda lambat, I tried to do a lot of things so that super tired boleh tido awal, since Monday I will be working a.m. shift. Pas tu terjaga la pulak around 130am, then takleh tido semula lepas tu. Mebbie banyak sangat tido since abis night shift friday hari tu or mebbie pasal byk sgt makan chocolate brownies that I baked the other day. Bosan dah surf the net hoping I would go back to sleep, tapi tak boleh. 

Then bangun to do stuff, siap buat double dose of camomile tea. I really hope I could lelap just for mebbie for 3,4 hours. Siang ni nak buat byk kerja rumah. Terseksa nye la tak boleh tido balik. 

Sleep is a life luxury yg sometimes some ppl take for granted. I know for a fact it is a very much life luxury for me. I've had a long-standing sleeping issues since zaman student lagi. Mostly managed with simple lifestyle changes, and masa exams hari tu with some help. 

Ni mata aku dah berair-air sket ni. Hopefully lepas padam this computer boleh la lelap dgn lena & recharge cepat sikit. Nak bangun awal hari ni.

Harap-harap Bukan Gastroenteritis...

Perut aku & hubby dah mcm mual-mual & meragam sejak a few hours ago. We had some oily kebab from Dandenong market for lunch after beli groceries tadi. In the past 2,3 weeks ni there's a lot of gastro running around. Likely related to the fluctuating heatwave here in Melbourne. Aku ni jarang la kena gastroenteritis (cirit-birit) ni despite my repulsive eating habit, Alhamdulillah. 
Kat spital pon ramai yg bergastro bagai. Ada yg biasa-biasa je sehari of fluid therapy dah boleh balik. Ada yg critically ill sampai multi-organ impairment. Dasyat betul penangan gastroenteritis ni. 

Aku harap-harap la tak berpanjangan and hope this is just the reaction to eating filthy oily food. Kadang-kadang bila aku makan oily food from outside perut rasa tak sedap, epigastric pain, nauseated & altered bowel habit. Gastritis or gastroenteritis? Kalau this is a true gastro memang naya la coz this coming monday aku will be working night shifts again, but in ED. More over esok nak gi breakie feast at Dr. AI's place and then housewarming Dr. NA in the evening. Dah siap-siap beli fruits for the breakie & sayurs for the evening housewarming. 

Esok ni angan-angan nak buat kerabu mangga + pegaga, sayur bendi + snow peas + kacang panjang + kobis & peria goreng. Cita-cita besar la tu. Hehehe.

Di Petang Spring Yang Cerah

Dah berminggu-minggu asik hujan, angin ribut, angin, mendung, sejuk, cerah sekejap-sekejap. Hari ni panas around 25°c- 28°c tapi angin kuat. Best je jalan-jalan kat luar. Well, takde la aku jalan-jalan kat luar nun. Esok weather forecast kata sejuk 16°c-18°c.

Late afternoon went to get some groceries & then sambil-sambil tu singgah Sussan, Portmans & Sportsgirl. Sambar some pyjamas & tudungs. Semenjak dah tukar style pakai tudung to suit my ICU rotation, I need more tudung yg sesuai. Seb baik banyak sales coz now dah spring. Orang-orang sini pakai tudung tu lilit kat leher, aku guna untuk pakai tudung lah. Score murah gila!

Malam ni kena stay up sket coz esok malam kerja night shifts in ICU. Bengong la jugak ada ke patut compulsary kena datang teaching in the afternoon when I start at 8pm & abis kol 9am esoknye. Hampes je.

Anyways, ni gambar-gambar semak-samun yg aku amik kat luar rumah.

 

 

Doakan daku..

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.

I really need a lot of doa's & luck here. Friday will be my Primary exams (Physio, Pharmacology, Pathology). At these very last few days prior to exams.. yg aku mampu hanyalah banyakkan doa & berserah je lah. 

This will determine wether I go into my advanced emergency medicine training or still being a senior in my basic training (which means repeat lagi exams in Aug/ Sept nanti).. huhuhu...

Doa-doakan daku ye.. :'( And terima kasih banyak2 for the doa's.

Ni yg rasa macam nak tukar carrier jadi PA ke cikgu tadika ke.. Why am I leading this misserable life pon I donno la.. sigh....

InsyaAllah, hopefully all is well & I am strong... Amin.

Sawang November

Mid November dah. Spring is near to its end. But cuaca still ntah apa2. Nampak semakin panas but cuma 1, 2 hari dlm seminggu.. itu pon setengah hari saja, the rest still kena pakai socks & jacket/ sweater in da house. But my house memang sejuk pon. 
Tak lama lagi summer. Yaaahooooo... sun & warmth. Blisss! Study pon seronok time suam suam bahagia nih. Time for cherry picking before balik Malaysia to see my beloved family.

Anyways, its not that I tak nak tulis blog dah. But setiap kali menaip nak pilih2 gambar nak edit lagi mesti makan masa lama. Pas tu jiwa ni rasa bersalaaah je coz sepatutnye gi study. Padahal siang malam dok main internet.. eerrkkk...
2 more subjects to go (Physiology & Pharmacology- subjects yg aku nyampah sangaaaat!) before February & March 2013 then to advanced training in Emergency Medicine. Lebih berat dari Anatomy & Pathology yg aku amik in August & September hari tu. Taakuuutt seh..
Dah la kena study lebih sket untuk my ICU term now. Fuh.. 

Now back in ICU as a registrar, lebih berat tanggungjawab dari jadi resident in 2010 dulu. 3 minggu in ICU so far, aku dah turun 2kg. Penangan berlari sana-sini coz ov MetCalls & Code Blues, dan jugak stressed kerja yg sangat intensed, dan jugak coz long working hours when I'm working.. 13 jam satu shift either pagi atau malam. Aiiiii...

Time to sleep.. selamat malam.

Have a good week people.

Happy Anniversary, 12years in Australia

I am supposed to study coz VIVA anatomy & pathology next week. But.. I hafta post this..

This is my fb post:

12yrs ago I was this little innocent kid arrived in Melbourne, it was foggy n freezing. Didnt kno anything much about Australia, couldnt understand the accent, couldnt stand the weather, couldnt stand the homesickness.. Life was tough then but great experience. Thanks much to everyone here who've been with me along the journey & still with me, & especially doa keluarga n those close to me di sana I'm wiser, stronger & still going..
Happy anniversary to me & those who were with me along the journey at that time.. We are still standing & going..
Goshhh, what a lifetime, I am sooo old now..

It was spring, it was cold, fog came out of our mouth. We had to listen hard & careful to all these locals talking to us.. Unknown foreign country, kinda scary actually... (drama to be continued).

Okay, back to studying.