Saja-saja

Lepas dinner tadi gi Chaddy saja hilangkan bosan. Lepak kat Lindt cafe jap dgn hubby. Its kinda nice once in a while ada org tolong hantar makanan siap & tolong clean up after us. Hubby ajak gi Pancake Parlour, tapi bosan la gi situ, dah la makanan mahal. Tapi bila pikir2 balik apa kami makan kat Lindt cafe tu, nyesal plak tak gi Pancake Parlour, rugi tak dpt their best 'traditional home made lemonade', my favourite.

Chai latte, coz iced tea takde.

Macarons: oliv & rosali

Choc waffle with choc icecream & choc fudge.
Normal waffle dah abis,terpaksa amik yg ni. Yucks sebenarnye.

Hari tu before night shifts started, last week tu, aku terajin buat kek batik, my first ever. Dari bulan puasa tu lagi nak buat kek batik ni. Ni gambar dah siap. Aku ikut resepi Mat Gebu. Tapi aku takde kacang coz malas nak goreng/tumbuk/bakar. Tak sangka hubby suka this, he had never tried any kek batik before this one. Tapi cam pelik ye kenapa aku nyer chewy benar tak mcm the kek batik yg pernah aku makan before this (yg org lain buat kan masa student dulu).
Hmmm... ada sapa2 resepi kek batik yg tak chewy tak?

Sangat letih...

Ya, letih gila. Worked on the weekends, nights lagi tu, in ED. Macam biasa la, busy gila. Penuh dengan cases yg buang masa. E.g. exacerbation of psoriasis yg dah bertahun2 & siap ada dermatologist sendiri lagi tapi pasal dia tgk tv mlm sebelumnye yg infected psoriasis bleh kena kat organ dalaman & anak dia bleh mati kalau tak treat so bawak la anak ni gi ED. Sanggup tu tunggu dlm 7 jam before being picked up by me. Duh! Kalau diorang komplen, memang aku hambur kat situ gak, seb baik diorang sabar je.
Ada lagi satu peristiwa best, nurse gaduh dgn doctors, semata-mata tak nak kasi doctor call family konon-konon dah tgh malam tak perlu call. Bodos betul, kalau dah patient tu tinggal sorang2 kat cubicle, patient tu plak ada Down Syndrome, post ictal (lepas seizure), nursing home takde org nak angkat fon coz understaff... cam mana nak treat patient tu. Mana bleh treat patient membabi buta. Pas tu kena marah dgn nurse tu kata doctor tak hormat family patient nak tido. Eh????? What the..****??? Bos aku gaduh2 gila2 tak puas hati nurse tu marah semata2 doctor call family at midnight to get more info about the patient. Sepanjang malam tu haru betul.

Kejadian karut ni berlaku pagi Isnin tu sebaik saja aku habis night shift. Pagi tu abis je shift aku dpt fon call dp the other spital yg aku relieving at the moment, apsal aku takde kat tpt kerja. Aku dah penat2 tu, sure la naik darah kan. Tak guna betul la si HR tak kasitau the other hospital yg aku covering nights ED over the weekend, aku tak sepatutnye gi kerja pagi for the next 3 days kalau ikut legally. Tapi tak, diorang tak peduli tu semua, yg diorang tau nak isi the gap je. And aku dijadualkan utk kerja pagi kol 8am Tuesday, while its not even 24hours after aku finish my night shift on Monday a.m. at 830. Aku minum coffee byk gila so that I would stay awake all thru out the day so that aku bleh tido mlm tu. Then kol 11am cam tu the HR at the other hospital called byk kali marah2 kat aku apsal aku tak gi kerja, blablabla... Memang la aku marah gila! Dia suruh aku kerja night shift lagi kat spital tahi lagi satu tu & bebel2 kat aku kata aku tipu la blablabla. hhheeeeeeyyyy ini sudah lebih ni. Mangkuk ayun betul mamat tu. Aku ckp la ok aku kerja mlm tu tapi aku nak my deserved off days coz aku memang penat gila dah ni. Dah lepas marah2 tu, aku pon marah2 gak dlm fon, dia kata kerja mlm tu & tido now, ok days off tapi kena kerja weekends ni long shifts. Bodoh piang betul.
Aku memang nak jumpa si HR kat spital aku tu apsal dia bangang gila tak communicate with the other hospital menyebabkan jadual aku ntah apa2, pas tu tak pasal2 aku kena marah while diorang yg bullshitting with everything, dah tu compromizing my health + patients safety yg diorang memang tak kisah langsung kan. Aku nak ungkit balik hal dia janji mcm2 asalkan aku kerja nights in ED. Last2 aku kena tipu.

Ok, kisah aku kerja malam kat spital yg ala-ala pedalaman ni. Oh my God!! Dah la aku jaga satu spital tu.. surgical patients, medical patients, cardiology patients, critical care patients, short stay in ED. Busy nak mati. Penat nak mati jugak coz aku cuma mampu tido about 3hours after all the drama siang tu & all the coffee I had thinking that aku kerja pagi on Tuesday. Aku dah dgr mcm2 bad stories about the hospital from my colleagues yg dah kerja situ. Now aku yg kena go thru that.. oh... memang bullshit. Sedih gila aku kena kerja kat situ until next week. And another 2wks of nights at another hospital ntah apa2 yg di pedalaman jugak.
Sedih gilaaaa....
No wonder la no one especially Aussies nak kerja kat rural hospitals... its all bullshit.. dipendekkan cerita, most rural hospitals dont care about patients care, yg diorang kisah ialah cam mana nak jimat duit funding to run the hospital.

Ni aku nak citer my driving to & balik from that hospital on Monday night after berjaya rehat cuma 3 jam je. Its in another suburb yg jaaaauh gila from my place. Ni on the way nak gi cherry picking, kira dah almost there. Its 25km frm my place to this bloody hospital, so total up 50km la dah pegi balik kan.
I was soooo tired already driving to the hospital at around 9pm, mmg susah nak pay attention on the 100km/hr Monash freeway & then the 80km/hr FTG road & Burwood Hwy. Dah la gelap, aku tak pernah gi spital ni, cuma nampak on the way nak gi cherry picking itu hari je. Aku drive slow je, seb baik tak kena hon.
On the way back tu lagi penat. 11jam kerja. Busy. Balik guna same route, cuma skip the Monash (M1) freeway amik terus jalan FTG & then Princes Hwy coz M1 lebih busy pagi2 than mlm2. pagi tu plak jalan jam, kenderaan sekeliling semua mcm org gila tak nyempat2 nak gi kerja la tu. Sangat-sangat penat. Seriously hard to pay attention on the road & keep the same pace like everyone. Menggigil2 je drive tu. Sakit satu badan. Sakit leher. Sakit kepala. Nak bukak mata pon rasa sangat seksa. Aku doa-doa supaya aku selamat sampai rumah, takde apa2 jadi. Teringat a few friends have had some accidents on the way back from long shifts, either day or nights. Aku tak nak jadi cam tu. Tapi tu la, HR bukan peduli pun, agaknye nak tunggu ada doctors yg mati on the road baru nak tukar timetable kot.
Bila sampai je rumah terus pengsan, ingat nak bgn awal sket so that bleh masak dinner best2 sket utk hubby. Tapi gila aaah, aku bangun bila hubby dah lama balik rumah from work. Tu pun berjaga only for a few hours, pas tu malam tido lagi sampai la subuh pagi semalam. Haaaa... sampai cam tu letih gila kerja malam ni tau.

Semalam aku tak buat apa sangat coz penat gila. Pagi tu dah bgn awal, I made breakie for hubby; some swirl potatoes, grilled tomato with cheese, buttered mushrooms, omelet, roti bakar. Puas la jugak hati coz dpt makan breakie dgn hubby. Malam plak masak nasi lemak sempoi. Siang didnt do much, just rehat, kemas2 rumah, book-keeping, some other stuff termasuk running my restaurant on FB :P

Today penat lagi, rasa cam drained gilaaaa. Oh ye, semalam twisted my back & couldnt walk much, sakitnye sampai hari ni. Harap2 aku akan cukup rehat sampai the next shift.

Here are some readings yg best from The Age, suratkhabar Aussie. Enjoy!!

Article yg 1st ni aku sokong sangat2 their general idea walaupon there's a few Aussies tak mcm dlm article tu. Tapi seriously, diorang bleh kutuk org mcm2, now apa rasanye bila org luar label them like this to the world... haaa...
http://www.theage.com.au/travel/travel-news/australia-worlds-dumb-blonde-20101013-16k09.html?rand=1287030630227?autostart=1

Article yg 2nd ni plak about the thing yg menyusahkan hati semua doctors. I'm quite shocked that the article cuma emphasize pasal org tipu numbers to get funding. They should have highlighted the issue that seriously patients care & doctors health memang akan deteriorate significantly.
http://www.theage.com.au/national/hospitals-fourhour-rule-queried-20101013-16k0p.html

Kerjaya mulia seorang D.O.K.T.O.R

Okay, aku malas nak re-type apa aku tulis kat FB. Copy paste je. Ni kejadian selama-lama ni especially malam tadi kerja night shift + pagi tadi with stoopid people face-to-face & thru multiple unnecessary phone calls with this not significant people. And aku memang tgh hangin nih. Untuk menambahkan kehanginan aku ni, aku kerja malam ni kat satu hospital bodoh yg terkenal dgn manusia2 bodoh di dalamnye. So people, pls doakan aku masih bernafas esok pagi okay, pls doakan aku...

Aku benci orang2 yang BODOH & JAHIL...

I soooo love being a doctor, yo!

by Me on Monday, October 11, 2010 at 4:55pm

Norms: To the Public, Government, Admin, Other staff- Doctors are robots, maids, butlers. Only answer "Yes Sir" to every call & need ImmEdiAteLy, Dont deserve any rest/holiday/sick leave/good training and especially dont need food or drink or even oxygen to function. Doctors dont deserve to live, and especially no such thing as "Doctors as humanbeings" in this world. Doctors are especially important to clean others' junks while others cover their backs & shit other people's lives, at the same time dont use any of the hospital's fundings because fundings are definitely not needed to give good care to patients. Doctors especially in the public system definitely dont need any pay to serve, especially when they are forced to do overtime most of the time.

Thats the job description to suck in when doctors-to-be initially chose the job, initially with a genuine intention to save people's lives.

Reality: Only doctors' families and true friends care, oh and sometimes other doctors too. Other than that, No one in the world actually cares about doctors well-being, and doctors are only gap-fillers & only required by numbers, definitely not quality.

And thus, there goes our health care system that we are all proud of. Nice one.

Kenangan Syawal... 2

Masa aku dah datang Melbourne sini, aku setiap tahun balik sambut Syawal di M'sia. Tak bleh tak balik weh, tu la timenye nak jumpa family sendiri yg dikasihi. Hari2 lain dok berjauhan dipisahkan lautan (chewah, drama tak?). Konon2 nak hantar ucapan/gambar kat Utusan/ B.Harian/etc, tapi seingat aku 1 thn je aku join member2 hantar ucapan raya. Bukan apa, malas nak bersiap2 utk amik gambar nak scan etc (zaman takde digicam). Ada je member2 aku yg balik raya tapi tetiap thn hantar gambar kat suratkhabar online, tu esp. manusia2 di UK nun haaa. Hehehehhehe.

Since tahun 2004, masa tu adik aku H2 sambung blaja kat sini tapi dia dok dgn kawan2 lelaki dia, aku dok dgn kawan2 perempuan aku. Raya eve raya tahun tu dia bermalam kat rumah aku, dia je la family aku kat sini masa tu. Kami gi solat raya kat Monsah Uni Student Union. Pagi2 tu dengar lagu raya kat computer.. huhuhuhuuu... syahdu sungguh... First time beraya jauh dp family. Call rumah pon teresak2 je. Satu rumah aku tangkap nangis la time tu coz first time masing2 beraya jauh dp family. Cam tu la aku setiap thn sampai la grad. Sure nangis minggu terakhir puasa & minggu pertama raya tu. Sedih beb.
Kami beraya kat halls of resident coz masa tu Monash IMS coordinator sponsor majlis raya. Aku ingat lagi masa kat halls tahun tu, diorang asing2 tpt makan lelaki & pompuan, tapi non-muslims makan kat tpt pompuan. Hangin gak aku masa tu coz aku nak beraya dgn adik aku, mcm2 gak kuar dp mulut aku yg laser ni. Ye la, aku marah la org pisah2kan darah daging ni semata2 ikut protokol. Bleh. Ada satu tahun tu aku beraya kat Malaysian Halls dulu baru dgn member2 aku yg lain. Coz nak visit adik aku, dia ada exams di sekitar hari raya tu.
Ada gak students yg rajin buat open house, simple2 je, tapi boleh la nak merasa suasana raya kan. Main bunga api gaya King Cat yg dibeli kat Big W. Ok la kan. Ada budak2 bergaya dgn baju raya yg dipos oleh ibubapa masing2. Aku guna either baju lama or baju yg mak buat time aku balik cuti summer. Yg mana beraya dgn baju glamer tu bleh la berbangga dgn member2 mana yg takde baju glamer. Tapi aku rasa, mat2saleh sini sure pelik tgk org2 M'sia pakai costume bagai time tu. Hahaha.
Masa tu jugak bagi yg rajin, sure akan menunjukkan bakat buat juadah raya/ kuih2 raya. Aku cuma bakat buat roti jala & kari saja lah. Hehehe. Yg lain2 tu fail la jugak. Aku ingat lagi time final year medicine. Berkumpul sehari sebelum raya kat rumah Dr. SS dgn housemate aku Dr. D & sorang lagi member Dr. MJ, dgn tujuan nak buat kuih raya utk sambut raya di rumah member esoknye. Kuih kami tak jadi, jadi keras cam batu-bata. Dr. SS buat kuih gunting, sedap la jugak. Dr. D buat kuih samprit. Jadi ke tu? Hehehhe. Aku & Dr. MJ tukar plan buat roti jala je. Seb baik jadi. Thn tu jugak thn tak best coz masa nak gi dapatkan bahan buat kuih ada sorang makcik ngokngek ni langgar kereta aku kat depan. AAArrrgghhh!!! Haram betul!

Now dah kerja, annual leave kena book about a year prior, so aku akan pastikan aku balik raya setiap tahun. Tak nak dah beraya di perantauan. Beraya with my family on the first day tu is very important to me. PUasa kat sini takpe la walaupon rindu bazar ramadhan & solat terawih & suasana raya di M'sia, tapi yg penting raya mesti dgn my family. Ramai je Muslims kat sini, but I think I would rather see my family, salam tangan setiap seorang esp my parents, bergambar beramai2 on the first day raya after solat sunat Syawal.
Now jugak since dah kerja, kena kasi duit raya kat anak2 buah. Miskin aku jadinye. Mak aku ckp takpe la, sedekah je. Ye, sedekah2 jugak, duit raya utk parents & adik2 aku kena lebih dp yg aku kasi kat org. Ni la masanye nak berbakti kat keluarga sendiri ye tak.
Now kalau balik M'sia, dah tak semeriah dulu. Mak byk beli kuih raya coz mebbie coz anak2 dia takde kat rumah dah. Tapi thn ni dia buat kuih raya kegemaran aku: biskut arab, biskut cornflakes. Nyaaam. Adik aku H3 balik rumah from Manchester lama sket dp aku so dia la yg banyak tolong mak & abah hal2 rumah tu.
Thn ni kami balik kampung di hari raya ke-2 coz nephew aku kawin time tu. Selalunye balik raya kami just balik hari je sejak opah dah takde. Kalau stay semalaman pon dok rumah mak long or kat hotel/ motel je.
This year lepas 3 hari kat Tepeng, kami bercuti di Penang. Best.. our well deserved holiday.

Busy betul kalau balik raya now. Sejak kawin ni kena la visit both sides of the family. Kadang sampai takde masa utk rehat or nak buat hal kami sendiri. Whatever it is, yang penting bagi aku coz setiap kali balik KL hubby & I sure dok rumah parents aku, maka first day raya kena la dgn family aku kan. Kami takde tpt lain nak bermalam kalau bukan rumah parents aku.

Selalunye kat KL open house akan berlangsung hampir setiap hari especially weekends kadang2 sampai terlebih2 lepas Syawal pon ada. Gamaknye. Setiap tahun balik M'sia time raya aku akan put on weight berkoyan-koyan sampai bila balik sini sure takleh muat most baju kerja lagi. Haaaaa.. jenuh la nak turun balik lepas tu. Hahaha.
Thn ni aku tak sempat nak gi open house byk2 coz beraya rumah relatives hubby & cuti pon pendek je. So takde la kami ni gain weight banyak sgt. Seb baik.

Blom sempat hilang penat balik from M'sia dah kena kerja dah. Syahdu betul. Kalau ada org buat open house raya, pegi la, kalau kerja tak dpt pegi.

Cam tu la kenangan di bulan Syawal. Ni gambar2 raya aku sejak tahun 2007. Yg lain2 tu ada dlm portable hard drive coz tukar computer hari tu. Malas nak bukak. Enjoy la, bukan senang nak tgk aku pakai baju tradisional, and bukan senang nak tengok gambar aku, hubby & family kat blog ni. Hehehehe...

Raya tahun ini :)

Raya tahun 2009, masa ni aku & hubby tembam! :)
Tengok la adik kecik aku, merah you!!

My favourite picture; Raya thn 2008.
Hubby balik raya seminggu selepas raya coz of work.