Pasar la pasar.. ikan oh ikan..

Berhempas-pulas aku di dapur ptg tadi memasak masakan kampung nak kasi hubby rasa. Maklum le org tu tak kenal & tidak mebesar dengan lauk-pauk tradisional, maka aku kena la kenalkan. Dapat idea masa membeli-belah di Springvale a.k.a. medan Vietnam. Seperti biasa aku akan teruja to grab all the exotic food items there, tapi kali ni berjaya control tak beli terlebih2. Dlm manyak2 shopping tu, aku terlupa satu menda.. durian! Kata nak blaja buat tempoyak dgn mak Dr. H. Ish ish ish...

Ni kari ikan bawal with murungai & terung Belanda.
Lakiku tak suka terung yg pahit tu.. dia amik ikan je..

Yg ni plak masak lemak batang keladi & rebung.
Pandang pon tak nak.. ditolaknye jauh2.. ish ish ish..
(sabar je la aku dgn mamat Aussie ni)

Ni kerabu pegaga & mangga muda.
Ni je yg dia suka..

Akhirnye terpaksa gak hidang chicken wedges instant ni.
Kesian plak kat dia...

Nampaknye kurang successful my attempt nak into kat hubby dgn makanan tradisi ni. Tapi takpe, aku tak putus asa.. next time aku akan masak yg lagi best.. biar tekak dia tu dapat terima at least some pon jadilah.. hahahahah...

Watched Women's Final Aussie Open.. just what I kinda thought so.. Serena Williams menang against Justine Henin, 6-3, 4-6, 6-2. Esok plak giliran Men's Final, Roger Federer against Andy Murray. First seed lawan fifth seed. Not bad. I wonder who will win. Aku on-call tomorrow, hopefully no calls during the play or any time at all.

I'll hafta be at the hospital in the morning. Then on call til Monday AM. Another excruciating week in psychiatry. Its not that I dont like psych. I just hate the paperwork & the nature of the job. The team has been superb, except for a few yg ntah apa-apa. Oh well... will back in ED the week after.. starting another new year of being a DIT. ED would probably make me happy a little bit.. but I kinda not thaaat looking forward to working there. I kinda not looking forward to a life as a doctor.. again...
Yeah, haf been depressed for the past week, past few months, the past few years.. or probably its the bipolar.. or PD.. watever u call it. But my passion in medicine seems to slowly fade away day by day.. Even the fact that I'll be back in ED doesnt seem that exciting anymore.. sick of the reality of being a doctor-in-training..
I envy those who go on despite all the hurdles. Call me lemah semangat or ngada-ngada.. I dont really want to work in a poorly organised condition & with incompetent dumb people who dont really want to do anything to improve themselves. I think it all comes back to my expectation that if I do my job right, I expect other people to be perfect as well. Dah la dgn my control & anger issues. Tapi.. mana-mana pon sama.. just hafta suck it up..
Nampaknye kena revise balik my new year's resolution hari tu.. or susah-susah sgt aku bleh lari ke mana2 negara for a change...
Ntah laa...

Adikku yg bongsu nampaknye enjoying his first yr of high school. Bagus la. Hopefully he'll do better this year. I wish I was there to watch him grow though.. left M'sia in year 2000, he was 3.. Adikku lagi sorang yg kat the other side of the world sana baru abis exams & now having fun. Hopefully results dia bagus & everything's well for him. Teringinnye nak gi sana join him main salji, even tho aku menci gila snow. He was 9+ before.. Finally my closest brother dpt kerja & dah start hari ni. Alhamdulillah... aku doakan semuanye well & cool for him, InsyaAllah.. And he was 16+ then..
Setiap hari aku drive ulang alik gi kerja mesti aku akan terfikir... hmm.. bila la diorang-diorang ni nak dtg sini.. parents aku or adik2 aku tak teringin ke nak rasa naik kereta baru aku ni...

Malam ni ialah bulan terbesar di bulan January 2010, if I'm not mistaken bulan paling besar of the year ialah bulan penuh pada malam new year hari tu. Kami pon dok amik gambar bulan besar tu... paling best kena serang dek nyamuk satu badan.. adoi laaa.. malam ni panas, esok diramalkan 37°c max. Panas! Oh well... afta that 47°c I think I can handle anything below that =P hohohoho....